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"who knows what they still do on tumblr"

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I want to see Wukong as a serious and powerful king outside of the mountain of flowers and fruits, but gentle and affectionate with his subjects when he returns home after showdowns with various monsters.

#It's the characterisation he would've deserved 😔✊ #LMK Sun Wukong #Lego Monkie Kid

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Im enjoying the longevity of tumblrs recontextualization style of humor. a seemingly innocuous post followed by like "posts that a gnome would make" or like "are you a phone"

#Ahhh a classic #Tumblr culture

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#Unrestrained summer fun

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any game that you recently got into?

I’ve been watching a Let’s Play of Persona 3 Reload and I’m really enjoying it!

#Ayyyyyyy love that for you! #P3 my beloved... #Persona 3 #Arisato Minato

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girl who has given up 100,000,000,000 times

#Man #I'm still not recovered from having basically this exact conversation with my therapist yesterday #You can't do this to me

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When I was a kid, maybe 14 or so (which is, you know, 20+ years ago), I belonged to a Yahoo! mailing list for an anime called Gundam Wing. It was mostly populated by other teens, of varying ages, as it was started by a teen and her friends. Eventually it migrated, when Yahoo! groups started as forums, and even branched off into non-GW related stuff in a second forum.

One of the things I remember the most clearly is the oldest person in the group. Her name was Steelsong. She was a 40-something Dom with a sub whose name we knew even though we knew nothing else. She ran her own fanfic archive because the web was still handmade HTML and navigated in webrings and I’m pretty sure Google didn’t exist or was only barely, barely launched and not well known. She was kind and patient and we loved her. She treated everyone on the group with the respect given any adult, even though most of the rest of the world was still treating us like we were children. Not teenagers even, but children. She never once condescended to any of us, never made our youth a barrier to her respect, never treated us like we were incapable of being full people or like we were less than her because we were young.

I remember that she hosted our fanfiction, as absolutely terrible as it was (and I still have some of it, I am WELL aware of how cringingly terrible it is, just absolute nonsense garbage), right there alongside of other fic that was soul-achingly beautiful. Not a separate section for her friends or for kids, just right there like we were good enough to feature alongside other authors. I never once received crit from her that I didn’t ask for, only support. Only love. I am still writing today partly because Steel was so kind about our fic, fanfic and original.

I remember that when I started doing clay sculpture, she commissioned a tiny pair of dragons from me, to support me doing artwork. She sent a check my mom cashed for me, and my mom helped me mail it when it was finished. It broke in transit, and Steel assured me that she mended it and that it was still beautiful. It was a small gold dragon curled up with a small silver dragon.

I remember that her patience knew no bounds. I remember that she was there for us, regardless of reason. When we wanted to know silly things like what to do with a single AA battery, she answered. When we had serious questions about sex, she answered.  When we had questions about writing, she taught us. When one of our group members, a young gay teen in Australia, ended up in the hospital and then stopped making posts, and we all knew what had happened, she let us talk to her about it because we couldn’t go to our own parents, even though we had just lost a friend.

She was not a replacement to my parents, but she was an extra parent, in some ways. A friend, certainly, but someone that had been through more life than we had and was willing to pass on knowledge if we asked for it. Someone older that we trusted with things that were too uncomfortable to go to our parents or teachers or whatever about, because we already knew she wasn’t going to judge us or something, and that we would get an honest answer.

I don’t know why I’m remembering this so hard tonight, and I’m not sure if there’s a point to sharing this, except that I know she’s gone now. She was ill the last time we spoke, and her site went down a long time ago, and I miss her. She was a huge influence on my life, then and now. She was hope, for me, that life as an adult didn’t have to be boring, it wouldn’t have to mean giving up the things I loved and Becoming Only Responsible With No Fun. Her presence meant I had hope I could still write and play with friends even when I wasn’t ‘a kid’ anymore. And she’s gone, and I miss her, and I wanted to share her from the perspective of youth, and the perspective over twenty years later has provided me.

And I think of her, when people go off about older folks being in fandom with younger folks. I’m an older folks now, or at least middle aged folks because there are certainly folks older than me still, but I wasn’t always. I’ve been here since i was a younger folks, and I know how much Steel’s presence and support meant to me, how much she helped not just me but everyone on that group. And I think of the people saying older folks don’t belong in fandom, and that they shouldn’t interact with younger folks at all, and I just think… I can’t agree. I needed that kind of solid presence in my life back then and even at the age I am now, I need the folks older than me to stay. I want them here.

So I guess, like, if you’re here and you’re 40 or 50 or 60 or 70 or 80 or whatever, I want you here in fandom with me, still. Your presence here is a comfort. It is hope. It is a reminder that life will continue to be fun, even as I get older, myself. And if you’re younger and you have this sort of elder in your groups, I hope that they are like Steel. I hope they are kind and patient and supportive, and that knowing them gives you hope for your own future. I hope in twenty years you look back and remember them fondly.

#Oh damn this is gonna make me cry #Thank you Steel #I never knew you but those who did clearly treasured you #This is what fandom should be all about #I hope we don't lose it #Fandom culture

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12/31/09

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#Sdhjdjgsfs so true #Persona 3 #Arisato Minato #Thanatos #Mochizuki Ryoji

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#Hell yeah direct action! #Don't take anyone's shit 🙏

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I mean, we all knew, but thanks for admitting that you wanna surpress freedom of speech and the spread of information?

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Heyyy sorry for spamming all your notes, but I just found your P3 fics today and not to be dramatic or anything, but I think I owe you my life djgsfs 🙏 You're such a good writer, and you've got excellent taste in memes too!

(Also, I don't know if you're still doing that ask game about your wips, but if you are... Hmmm, any with the word "snap", maybe?)

omg thank you so much!!!! your comments seriously made my day :') and i'm so glad you enjoyed the fics!!!!!

as for the word "snap", it does appear in one of my wips!!!!

The sharp snap of Takemi’s nitrile glove against her wrist jolted him back to reality. When his vision cleared, she was strolling up to him, absently twirling a penlight in one hand. “Sit up,” she said impassively.

#Equivalent exchange then because your fics also made my day! <3

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babygirl you won't believe the amount of popular things i don't know

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babygirl you won't believe the amount of popular things i don't know

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some journey to the west doodles :D

#WHAT WONDERFUL DESIGNS! :D #Sun Wukong #Tripitaka #JttW #Journey to the West

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No see results option, I'm forcing you to perceive yourself. rb for more results plus

#irl #But that's just because I'm a very good actor lmao #Online I'm cringe but I am free lmao. I'm more put-together irl

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LESS THAN AN HOUR AGO: not even 24 hours after harvard admin suspending the harvard palestine solidarity committee from club status, our comrades at harvard are storming one of the lawns and setting up their own gaza solidarity encampment.

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LESS THAN AN HOUR AGO: a journalist on the ground reported students blocking a car holding an arrested comrade. ten minutes later she posted another tweet stating usc protesters SUCCESSFULLY DEARRESTED THEIR COMRADE! this is the second dearrest ive seen happen in the past week at a pro palestine protest, it's absolutely incredible! people are beginning to realize we have the power, palestine will be free!