1. He feels so deeply and all he wants is to be loved look at his experiences with corruption and humanity and clinging to the two people who he feels see past everything that he has become, look at how deeply this man needs
i think when dean and crowley fucked during the drowley summer of love crowley fucked up and accidentally said “i love you” when he came. and dean straight up pretended not to hear it and crowley was suuuper relieved but then the next night dean sang two out of three ain’t bad (you know, the meatloaf song?) at karaoke while making a cruel amount of eye contact with crowley
WHAT's the point in having a catchphrase if u don't get to riff on it a little. i am pounding my fist on the table WHY didn't cas say 'howdy dean' in tombstone. he would've tipped his little hat too and then dean would've succumbed to an overwhelming wave of affection and had to sit down for a bit
do you guys remember that episode where dean gets tied down to a sacrificial alter and a tentacle monster that was summoned from another dimension tries to enter him to complete some mating ritual with another tentacle monster… WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT ???????????
Crowley didn’t just have group sex with Dean though. His feelings were romantic too. He fell completely and earnestly in love with him and even basically asked Dean to marry him so they could rule hell together, hell being a place that Crowley canonically hates being but if he got to have Dean there with him? Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad. Because he LOVED him fully! He hung around those dive bars that he hated for Dean he continued to put his wellbeing on the line for Dean over and over and you can’t convince me that there wasn’t something tender underneath that. Like Crowley would never admit it or let it show but you can’t convince me he didn’t want anything romantic with Dean too. Crowley didn’t just want to fuck Dean again, that’s not why he did all that stuff, he was in love with him and wanted to be beside him and you can’t tell me that simple things like getting to loop his arm with Dean’s as they walked, or holding hands, or getting a peck on the cheek, or going on nice dinner dates wouldn’t have made Crowley ridiculously happy. I think something as simple as a hug from Dean would melt Crowley on the spot. He just wants to be loved! Any display of love would make him happy.
And I think the fact that Crowley is so earnest in his feelings toward Dean is why he continuously refers to their relationship as a bromance after they break up (beyond the simple explanation of homophobic writing that is). Because we’ve seen how blatantly he’ll flirt when he doesn’t care about the guy he’s flirting with, he’ll literally take every opportunity to make comments like that, but when confronted with someone he does care about? After the break up he never makes those kind of sexual taunts at Dean, even though it would be in character for him to do so otherwise. Even when he was still with Dean he uses gentle language about it—”all that’s bloomed between us” and so on. So why would he suddenly call it a bromance after they split? It seems like Dean means so much to him that he can’t even bear to call it what it was. He covers up his true feelings and drops that b in front of the romance. But it couldn’t be more obvious that it’s an inaccurate description for what they, especially Crowley, had together.
So… tl;dr Crowley was so truly and deeply in romantic love with Dean he couldn’t even bear to taunt Dean about their past sexual relationship and wanted a romantic relationship with him, and reducing their relationship to just sex isn’t accurate to just how much Crowley cared about Dean