thousandsofmoths

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hear me out.....

Juggalo Nikolai.

#this is canon btw. #bsd nikolai #bsd

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yall are pro mental illness until they hallucinate

yall are pro mental illness until they dissociate

yall are pro mental illness until they self-isolate

yall are pro mental illness until they're paranoid

yall are pro mental illness until they split

yall are pro mental illness until it's too Scary for your comparatively neurotypical brain to handle

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On my Nikolai might be the one... Let's say hijacked by Fyodor. The fact that one of Fyodor's monikers is the Conjurer.

Which is a word that means someone who performs tricks and is usually synonymous with magicians.

Nikolai is a clown who saved himself from the chainsaw incident with a trick of his own.

Fyodor utilising his ability before death, feels very much on the same lines.

Just a big ol now you see me, now you don't. And both Nikolai and Fyodor are currently missing.

#bsd manga spoilers #bsd #i am not okay with these theories help

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nikolai is alive nikolai is alive nikolai is alive

nikolai is alive nikolai is alive nikolai is alive

nikolai is alive nikolai is alive nikolai is alive

nikolai is alive nikolai is alive nikolai is alive

#*not possessed/whatever you wanna call it. #please. i'll fucking cry /srs actually i have an attachment problem now #bsd #nikolai bsd #i brainrot about fyo a lot but i think nikolai is actually my favorite character im normal

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i have no idea if this is coherent but it needs to leave my brain.

i had a nightmare that was the plot of saw (except i've never seen any saw movies) except asagiri was jigsaw and i knew this in the dream because only children died. 💀

#help me what is wrong with my brain. #bungo stray dogs #< vaguely #i remember before sleeping i typed something in my notes app along three lines of 'rip nikolai you wouldve loved saw' #no i don't have any idea what that was supposed to mean my brain was fucking tired but is that what made this dream happen 🥲 #moths ramble

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Measured in letters, not syllables. Please do *not* put your deadname in the tags, I don't want to know that

#literally same first letter. number of letters & syllables. #it's very different sounding though and took like 3 years to be happy with shhsjdjfkgkh #i don't like that much change.

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you will live and you will say the wrong things and make mistakes and people will love you anyways.

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like falling asleep

#moths eat your art<3

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it's so over i'm going back to trying to give myself a lobotomy again.

(SLASH JAY VERY /J)

#moths ramble #i'm not gonna elaborate just #assume that i tried to give myself a lobotomy one time because we know that didn't happen but metaphorically #my psychotic ass has been close enough so same thing? same thing. #I JUST FIGURED OUT HOW TO DO THE TINY TEXT FUCK ME

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oops! apparently the coping mechanism was maladaptive!

#isn't it always. #erm. not being self destructive in some way? i do not know how to do that. #oh well. fuck it we ball. #moths ramble

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shirt that says "i'm not high i just love saying insane sentences that don't make sense"

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Psychotic culture is nonsensical poetry but also the poetry ive ever made

^ (No idea what that means but maybe someone else gets you lol)

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"sigma's so innocent and harmless"

do you.

do you not remember.

he just. readily had a defense mechanism in the casino that's literally machine guns bigger than he is.

we could theoretically pass the rest of the "get the fuck out" & him genuinely trying to commit murder off as desperation but.

he just. has. those machine gun turret things.

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yikes!! (only heard MANICa for the first time in the last month or so. i have had spotify since 2016.)

#i'm pretty sure i dissociated HARD listening to most of these songs one time or another idfk #i dunno #songs to rot to #i guess

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ahaha i hate it here <3

gets 50/50 on half the damn test. i tried this one time before but usually i test both infp and intp consistently on a different website??

what 😭😭

i can not have four personality types now what

(i don't trust these tests 100% or anything i just do it for fun. it's not that deep. makes sense though because i have trouble with vague questions, like most of the answers would depend on situation to me.)

#tries again. #really need to understand cognitive functions better but i'm so lazy #and by need i mean absolutely not please stop fixating on this stuff #yippee!!!! #enneagram 4 #my one constant /j #4w5

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stormbringer concept thing

#moths eat your art<3 #bsd