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“Perhaps – I want the old days back again and they’ll never come back, and I am haunted by the memory of them…”

— Margaret Mitchell, Gone with the Wind

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Bereaved

The loss of a loved one can be a heavy burden to bear, but the loss of a loved one due to suicide is an even heavier burden. I truly believe no one should feel the pain of losing someone over suicide. Losing someone of old age or even a physical sickness does to my belief not hurt as much as losing someone due to a mental sickness. Personally to me it has been years since someone i deeply loved took their own life from PTSD and i still have not moved on from this. When someone you truly dies from suicide not only do they take their own life but they take part of yours with them. Part of me believes we play a part in someone you love taking their own life because we do not see the signs, and are not taught how to even look for the signs of someone suffering from a mental sickness. I was much younger when this all came into play and i had to grow up and deal with grief a lot earlier then anyone should have to. I was not prepared on how to handle someone dealing with such pain and for that i am sorry that i could not help you more. If this message reaches you i want you to educate yourself. I want you to reach out and i want you to look into the signs that someone may be showing that they are mentally not okay. There are plenty of local and online programs available to you and those around you who are hurting. Reach out and help them before its too late. Help before you have to feel the pain that i have been feeling for years.

To my lost love,

Myself and others always want you to know that to this day you are still loved just as much and just the same as before you took your own life. Everyday i wonder about who you could have been or what kind of changes you could have made on my life and others around you. I am deeply sorry that not only did the system fail you but so did I. I was not there at your worse because i did not know that it was the end. I was not aware of how bad your sickness was. Not a single day goes by that i do not come across a photo or memory of you and the little hints you leave behind to remind me that you are still in a way here. Sometimes i think you are here reminding me that everything is going to be okay, and other days a song comes on that reminds me of you telling me not to forget. Until the end of my own life i will never forget you and i will never stop loving you. Till we meet again i leave this message here for you.

#suicide awareness #be there for someone

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The irony of being called negative/mean when you don’t accept toxic people in your life…😂

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I am aware that I am less than some people prefer me to be, but most people are unaware that I am so much more than what they see.

Douglas Pagels (via thehopefulquotes)

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“It’s the things we love most, that destroy us.”

— Suzanne Collins

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Sometimes we need to be apart to understand just how much we truly love each other.

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“Sometimes home isn’t 4 walls. It’s 2 eyes and a heartbeat.”

— Unknown

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The first time I saw her, everything in my head went quiet.

— Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

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It’s cruel that I got to spend so much time with James and Lily, and you so little. But remember, the ones who love us never truly leave us.

Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (2004)  |  dir. Alfonso Cuarón

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Omg man... 🤤

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Me: *makes a small irrelevant mistake*

My Brain, banging pots and pans together: YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUC

Me: *makes huge mistake that will directly affect my future horribly*

My Brain, lounging on a lawn chair with shades on: ....acknowledged

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Sana yolun sonunun güzel olduğunu söyledi.. 🍁

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No matter how damaged you are, there will still be love for you. No matter how unlovable you think you are, you will still be loved. You will always be loved.

Lukas W. (via thoughtkick)

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