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[the sun hit the sharp lines of Hawk’s chest and collarbone, illuminating him like something sacred, like something Tim had only seen in his dreams. It was gorgeous.]

[Hawk looked wrecked, he looked ruined, so full of bliss that it hurt.]

[and it was the most breathtaking thing Tim had seen.]

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Once I finish killing this guy the cycle of violence will be over, trust me guys

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15 seasons wasn’t enough they had more to tell me

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oh i get it now i made mistakes that made my life fundamentally more painful so that i could be more devastated by poetry

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i’m sorry but it’s supernatural panel [x]

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this “job” stuff is sooooooo fucked up. i have to get out of bed? when it’s cold?

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you know it's bad when every day you're relating more and more to Dean Winchester

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basically

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Fellow Travelers sex scenes

I can't stop thinking about what Matt and Jonny keep repeating over and over again in interviews, regarding the FT sex scenes. That, in the writing and filming it was important that:

No two scenes were the same.

Every sex scene informed the story.

The characters were not the same before the scene as they were after. That they were changed by it.

So, let's talk about them.

"Pretend"

establishment of hawk's usual modus operandi -- brief fucks with strangers. he keeps a tight rein on his desires and won't allow himself to want more.

2. "Fold them."

establishing dynamics, hawk is in control, tim is being (happily) led. par for the course for hawk (or is it?)

3. "I'm your boy, right?"

tim can play, too. this dynamic is not one-way. the 'power' in this relationship definitely does not lie solely with hawk. you might even say this flips the power dynamic on its head. hawk is GONE.

4. "Do you like it this way? Your life, like this?"

not a sex scene, but one of the first slow, tender aftermaths. clear now that, for both of them, this goes much much deeper than just sex.

5. "I belong to Hawkins Fuller."

tim showing that he's willing to meet hawk on his level. the submission and dominance are so intertwined here they can't be separated. it's the willingness of that submission, the willingness of that Belonging, that changes everything.

and tim begging (through provocation) hawk to acknowledge him / what they have, out loud. "who do you belong to" = "i love you, i need you, tell me you need me too."

6. "It's your turn tonight."

a fucked-up goodbye, on hawk's part. he really thinks this might be the last time he's allowed to see tim, and he says 'i love you' the only way he knows how -- with his body, with service.

7. "Your Honor, I stand before you accused of being sweet."

crucially, not a sex scene. even more crucially, there is no sex at all in episode 5, where they separate for the first (and, they think, last) time. instead, we're shown what they're really giving up -- this too sweet (painfully sweet) domesticity.

8. "We don't have to do what we used to do."

the horribly empty aftermath. where they give in to "sex", of a sort, but it's dry and horrifically painful and NOT AT ALL what either of them want. because what they want is intimacy, not sex. and they're not allowed this.

9. "Stay with me."

the botched threesome, where craig is an afterthought, an excuse for hawk and tim to be together, and even then, horrifically painful in the way they LONG for each other and for what they can't have.

10. "I want you to fuck me."

a true surrender. again, hawk showing what he wants the only way he knows how -- through his body -- giving tim his willing submission, body, heart and soul.

11. "We'll be colleagues. We'll see each other every day."

not technically a sex scene, but the truest expression of them 'making love' that we ever get on screen. returning to #1, it's the polar opposite of what hawk had previously allowed himself, and it's what he really wants -- all the intimacy he'll shortly be sacrificing.

12. "That better?" "Oh yeah."

finally, finally, after all those years, a return to the true intimacy they were craving.

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Hey ever think about how while Hawk and Tim are dancing together in the 70s they’re probably both remembering when they danced together in ‘57? 😭

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matt bomer posting a meme about him and jonathan as hawk and tim on his insta and jonathan saying they 'come together' in his speech is exactly what I needed to see this morning tbh

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Castiel may have a crack in his chasis but Dean is a mechanic

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its so crazy that the actual answer to: ‘how do i stop feeling horribly embarrassed by my own existence ?’ is that u just have to tell urself and others that what ur doing isnt embarrassing and eventually everyone just believes u

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honestly season 8 is my favorite for shit like this. sooooo fucking funny when sam is being a little bitch about benny. like okay he’s a vampire. at least he’s hot? you ran over a dog shut the fuck up

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