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As soon as you choose you, everything else chooses you too.

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the past few months is all about working hard and surviving. madaming answered prayers and madami ring pagod. things are working out perfectly until they didn't.

ang dami kong realization talaga lately but i'm just grateful to be here.

#life lately

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sketchbook, fall 2016

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from patiently waiting kung anong number ba sila today sa MYX Daily Top 10 bago pumasok sa school to hearing these songs live.... 18 years later. 💕🥰

dramachine is my favorite sugarfree album but i didn't know i'm such a big fan of the band until i attended this gig.

sobrang nostalgic but damn, i’m old. 😂

#dramachine20 #kwento #sugarfree #late post

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people who are so in tune with themselves that they radiate love and healing energy instead of misery >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

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after all the hanash about cheating, “scamming”, and knowing their true colors, feeling ko malaking parte ng pagkatao ko yung nag heal hahahahaha

tawang tawa ako sa scammer issue talaga and at the same time sobrang badtrip ako. ako yung tipo ng tao na ayoko na ma feel ng mga tao na may utang na loob sila sakin pero sizzzzz hahahahaha my ex and her family? charity work talaga beh.

umexit ako sa relationship na bidang bida yung pangalan ko up to the last minute dahil sa mga ginawa ko for their family tapos hindi mo lang nareplyan, scammer ka na.

sabi ko nga sa kapatid nyang nagparinig sakin sa socmed nung nag chat na pwede na ipalalamove gamit ko, hindi ko naman need na kunin pa. i just had to tell that to prove a point na walang scammer ang magpapahiram ng brand new & branded things sa ex nyang walang gamit :)

hindi ako fan ng karma and i’m so sorry but i hope when karma hits them, it’ll be times 10 of the pain and trauma i’ve experienced. yung mauulol ka nalang din sa sakit katulad ng panloloko at pagpapaikot sakin.

sobrang saya ko lang dahil umexit ako na wala silang masasabi sakin kundi false accusations.

i will just let karma do its work.

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gagawa gawa ka ng kakaguhan at narrative sa ulo mo tapos kapag siningil ka, hindi mo naman kaya harapin. girl, u really need help.

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it’s been a week since #ColdplayManila 💖 i love it so much!!! hindi pa din ako nakakamove on 😭🫶

#coldplay #coldplaymanila #MOTSWTPH

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totoo talaga yung sinabi ng friend ko na i really dodged a bullet when my cheater of an ex and i broke up.

painful, yes, but imagine being with a family who will call you names dahil lang hindi mo sila napapansin dahil may pinagdadaanan ka pa.

sobrang traumatic ng experience na to dahil hindi lang ako sa ex ko na trauma, sa pamilya din niya. na after all the things i did for them, paparinggan ka lang sa social media as someone na nagtakbo ng pera ng kapatid nilang manloloko tapos hindi man lang inayos yung mga bagay at kalat na meron siya sa relasyon namin.

it hurts but i am glad na i won’t be marrying a family like that.

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bubs just sent me a tiktok where there’s this girl na umiiyak while saying “teh ano? hindi niyo naman ako ininform na ganito pala kasakit yung totoong break up.”

found myself teary-eyed while watching cos war flashbacks hahahahaha charot.

i remember during that time where we broke up and i’m still trying to get answers to my questions pero wala akong sagot na makuha from hans. those sleepless nights where i kept on asking myself saan ako nagkulang? anong meron yung babaeng yun na wala ako? paanong march sumampa yung babae tapos april umamin na sakin na may gusto na din siya don sa girl? ganon ba ako kadaling palitan? ganon ba ako kahirap lingunin? maayos naman akong tao, mabait, so anong kulang?

naalala ko yung mga moments na tatawag ako sa friends ko na nasa abroad tapos iiyak lang ako, hihiyaw sa sakit & will ask them baka naman hindi cheating yon? baka naman normal lang magkagusto sa iba pero ako pa din mahal niya, etc.

sabi ng best friend ko dati, nawalan na ako ng tatay at wala ng mas sasakit pa don. pero tbh, for me, ito yung pinakamasakit talaga sa lahat. sabi ko nga dahil sa cheating incident nareach ko na yung peak ng pain to the point na nakiusap na ako sa ex ko na sana wag na dagdagan pa. pero every time napaguusapan namin yon, wala rin matinong sagot. sasabihan nalang na wag na magusap kasi para sakin din daw yon lels.

hindi ako nagsisisi na nagpakatanga ako sa love but at the same time may konting regret sa part na mali pala ako ng taong tinayaan o pinag-aksayahan ng oras pero wala eh, hindi naman natin kasi malalaman kelan ba tayo ibebetray ng taong pinahalagahan natin so ayon, importante lang talaga is to always choose yourself and learn to walk away the first disrespect palang.

i wish healing talaga sa lahat ng tao na nakakaranas ng pain & heartbreak ngayon. we’ll be okay :)

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in another universe, i got the apology i deserve.

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If you aren't willing to love her, then do not put dents in her heart that will influence her to believe that she is hard to love. Just don't.

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isa sa mga napabayaan ko nung na cheat on ako and until now pinagbabayaran ko pa was yung trabaho ko. i literally lost focus while trying to absorb what just happened and holding my ex accountable for what she did.

seafarer yun si hans. nung nag break kami, ang una kong naisip gawin is ayusin yung saming dalawa pero firm siya na ayaw niya dahil “magulo” daw utak at buhay niya. my dad’s a seafarer din nung nabubuhay pa so i did what i had to do: be there for her kasi ayoko may mangyari sa kanyang masama. mahal mo eh. at kaibigan mo.

i was busy trying to keep her and help her get her shit together while me, on the other hand, eh napapabayaan ko yung mga tao at bagay na meron ako. yup, i know, choice ko naman to.

kaya ganon nalang yung insulto na naramdaman ko na tinatanggi niya na nagloko siya sakin. until now i’m still fixing if not all the mess she made. while her? bet she’s having a good time with her new girl.

i know i sounded bitter siguro but i really hope and pray na sana, sana wala ng ma cheat on na tao sa paligid ko. sobrang hirap bumangon at magbayad sa kasalanang hindi naman ikaw ang may gawa.

alam ko, in time, magiging okay din lahat. but i can’t help but think na sana dumating na yung araw na yon.

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