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my @aftgexchange piece for @linecrosser !

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Dan, Renee and Allison being protective is my fav thing

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jean moreau came back to himself in pieces

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I think the most endearing thing about Jean is that he just cares. So fucking much. Not to say that Neil doesn't but Neil had to learn to care and I think it's widely accepted that he cares about a select few people and cares about them fiercely; to the point of kill or be killed.

Jean though? He cares for almost everyone regardless of what they have done to him. He cared for Zane, the man who betrayed him in the most horrifying way for a number, for something Jean had no control over. He cared enough to save his life. He cared for Lucas who brought Jean's abuser right to his gate where he had believed himself to be safe. Not once did he lash out at him because he understood that his actions came from a desperation to know his brother again, the ache of having him near again but not having him at all. He cared for Cody, someone he doesn't even really know; cared enough to ensure they were safe and not being forced into something.

After being beaten down every day, holding on to life out of sheer desperation and perhaps a promise made to a once? friend, Jean still hasn't had his ability to care beaten out of him and it's such a beautiful miracle. He's a little like Andrew in this I think, in that he pretends so desperately to not care under the guise of barbed words and cold shoulders because that's a weakness, a chink in his already dented armour that the monsters can and will exploit with glee. He knows that yet he can't choke that tenderness out of himself.

#GOD I JUST LOVE HIM SO MUCH

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I just... he had a little sister that he loved more than anything. he followed thea around like a lost little duckling. he was in love with his best friend and it almost destroyed him. he uses pain to both punish himself and stave off panic attacks. he survived five years of brutal torture and abuse by the skin of his teeth. his parents sold him. his little sister is dead. he wants to burn the house down. he cannot cook or shop for himself. he hates his old teammates. he loves his old teammates. he quite possibly loves his new teammates even more. he frets for the safety of people he barely knows. he's terrified of water, of being bitten, of being hurt again. he laughed when his worst abuser was dethroned and beaten and then tried to kill himself in solidarity.

he's finding reasons to live, day by day, one step at a time. a cool evening breeze, rainbows, open roads, friends.

he is jean moreau. he knows his place. he will endure.

#god god god

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Despite having more teammates, Neil still regularly plays full games bc he knows he can and likes to. Wymack let's him bc it's one of the only sure-fire ways to get that boy worn out enough to chill. His stamina is out of this world by the time he goes pro and his team doesn't know how to handle him bc pros have way bigger teams and there's no way a rookie is going to get that much play time (not to mention, you just don't do full games that's ridiculous)

But like

What are they supposed to DO with him

He runs circles around them at practice despite being there long before and after official times. He's been caught multiple times by himself late at night. And when he's not on the court, he's on the bench running his mouth.

His coach reaches out to the coach of another team, one he thinks might be able to give some advice. But Kevin's coach just says "oh god i was going to call and ask YOU wtf to do he's going to decimate my team"

They conference in a third coach who is not much help bc the only thing David Wymack says after laughing himself breathless is "good fucking luck" and he hangs up

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Tehee he's so cute!

#tsc art of all time fr. #god it's so good every time #tsc

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Neil Abram Josten, my protégée

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"It's like my eyes are hell-bent on chasing him"

I present to you the prettiest Jean and Jeremy I’ve ever drawn, I think that something possessed me so don't expect more of it from me… And don't ask me who those two in the back are, they just exist for background purposes and to admire Jean's as*.

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Claim your own body, Jean-Yves Moreau

#oop- #honestly good for him #slightly nsft

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My TSC bingo card includes lots of angst, emo Jean, PTSD, "I have no idea who I am", Jean crying on the beach at night and me crying and losing my shit while I read everything.

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"Who wore it better??"

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Are you ready for tomorrow? (I’m not)

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First trojan practice. Has anyone done this yet?

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the sunshine court spoilers here but:

I’m sorry I cannot stop thinking about “Now I am not safe with you, captain.” I just. Jean felt safe enough with Jeremy to tell him he felt unsafe in that scenario, trusting that Jeremy wouldn’t take advantage of or ignore his fear, trusting that Jeremy would respect his boundaries. Do you think Jean has ever exercised a boundary in the past three years? I don’t think so. I think that every time he tried at first, Riko would use that knowledge to hurt him even more, to deliberately cross them. I think that the boy who expects everyone to hurt him, the boy who says “Contrition, coach,” the boy who insisted he could swim while having a panic attack next to the pool—I think that boy tries so hard not to have boundaries because it’s safer that way. Because no one can exploit them if they don’t know what they are.

But he lets Jeremy know.

#oh god #oh fuck #god fuck shit

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my brain demands more tsc nonsense

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i love them your honor — very happy with the designs i settled on for jeremy & jean!

processes & sketches up on patreon!