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4.28.24 Sunday

2:26 am

Still,have windblow... Doing Reels with Pilot Garret.... hahah I can't sleep...

2:54 am

I also did a Reel with Superman Chef Cedrick....

But my super crush is Pilot Garret...

On other angle,I wanna leave Cavite....I'm no longer happy... I wanna be a brand new person on other place with someone I want... Something mutual...

7:48 am

I'm out of coffee and I can't find Ely yesterday coz he is working these days, somewhere here and there...

I want coffee... Still, have windblow... I'm thinking of money and future... I really wanna leave Cavite. I don't know what will happen....They always remove me in call center or smash my ego. I feel fat and ugly and wrinkled these days... This is not my ideal aging life. I can't get a bf to help me... I want men on youtube most specially that "Pilot Garret"!

On the other angle Uncle DD is not yet giving the fundings for here like for food, cleaning materials and some toiletries... My 2 Uncle's can't assist me angels....My entire future is damage.

I feel self-pity here.... I wanna leave Cavite!

I hate "Church Of Christ" for being unfair, I feel something is wrong...

8:38 pm

Still, have windblow...

I hope I can find someone mutually having this kind of heart...

This is not my ideal aging life... I feel bitterish... Still, waiting and hoping and praying for my Prince Charming or My Knight and Shining Armour.... My armour ( meaning the one who truly loves me and willing to defend me and get me and bring me to a future away from here)... Or a religious heart that I also want!

I'm as well Easy... Am I not? Telling you ,I want my frownies and my botox or telling him that I want my serums and my coffee??? I feel bored here and I have curse...I'm a college graduate, reality is biting me...

Save my future....

9 am

Did it happen? Is this happening? No! No!

Let's get the FUTURE, OUR FUTURE...

To be continued...

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4.27.24 Saturday

1:20 am

Still, have windblow.... Done, watching "Block Z"....

3:02 am

Hmm... Still, have windblow... Uncle Jun went out already with the baranggay people...They will have their outing today...

7:58 am

Kuya Bong the worker of Uncle DD is here already, fixing their roof...

1:06 pm

EXL invited me again to smash my self-esteem these call center industry here in the Philippines and perhaps other call centers as well...Supposed to be,I like to apply again even virtually coz they invited me but we don't have wifi.... I asked a favour if I can make a schedule coz I will just ask a favour on Ely to go to their house to use their wifi...But EXL wanted me to do it now,I declined even on zoom here coz it is deadspot time here...I don't know suddenly I have a dead spot....

2:49 pm

Done, watching "Chestnut the hero of the Central Park "... Still,have windblow...

I wanna leave Cavite.... I wanna fly my wings... I'm self-pitying for 17 years...

Did Mitch give me that "simple battery"? Did she plan and drop me???

How about Mark? Is he a rat?

Can Pilot or Will Pilot Garret save me and be my Prince Charming super hero???

I feel bitterish...

9:34 pm

Around 5 pm Uncle Jun went home already with a cup of adobo... He said they went to "Puerto Azul"...

While scanning youtube, I saw this new hot sexy star "Salome Salvi" a UP graduate of fine arts... She is an inspiration to all shorty women...Though, shorty we can also be fantasize by men or tall men...

As far as I know if you are a painter or artist of whatever you need to have sex for you to release it on your craft...

I wanna leave Cavite... I can't get a bf that I want....I wanted Pilot Garret... My super crush Pilot Garret...

Hmm....Is that possible to get a youtuber bf??? Can Cody Chow back me up??? CUTE FAT FACE!

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4.26.24 Friday

1:33 am

I tried the wax machine it is ohkay but I somehow having a hard time to use it now coz the weather is super, super, super hot and we don't have ac now... I'm having a bit of armpits bumps due to super2x hot weather and I put a hydrating collagen gel...

The temperature from the past days according to our arab neighbour was and still around 45 to 55 degress celcius....It is super,super hot these days...

I still wanna peel my butt and I want a bf that I want like Pilot Garret who can be supportive of my vanity... I really wanna leave this place and I want Pilot Garret to save me and to save my beauty.I'm deteriorating which is not my ideal aging life...I have blemish and I hate my butt right now... I feel super conscious...

1:51 am

I feel bitter... I feel ugly... I have windblow and praying to have a good future...

My emotion is angry,if I will make love with Pilot Garret right now,I feel ugly and I will scratch his back! I'm so angry! I'm so mad that I wanted to make love but I feel ugly... I'm so angry....

2:31 am

On other angle but still thinking...

I wiped John a cold iced water on his body coz he is breathing fast while sleeping.... Now, he is back to his normal breathing.... It is super hot here.... He is mature now coz he knows how to find a spot in the house where he can feel comfortable coz it is super hot.... It is either he will be under the table or in the kitchen if it is super hot.

Awhile ago it was funny coz he stole the mantu bread of my nana when she placed it on the table...

Mantu, it is a green bread given by Ely awhile ago coz I asked him a favour on wifi...

8:05 am

Kuya Bong & Tutoy are here already, the worker of Uncle DD... Kuya Bong shouldered the 2 mineral water coz Uncle DD didn't leave anything....

Later, will ask coffee on Ely... I'm out of budget...

8:07 pm

Still,have windblow.... Last night I had dreamed of Pilot Garret that we met in mall somewhere then he suddenly grabbed me and pull me near his body and telling me that he is Pilot Garret. In my dream he said I'm Pilot Garret, you have to marry me but upon looking at him, I'm doubting coz he doesn't look like Pilot Garret but a different person but he keeps on saying in my dream that I'm Pilot Garret. Then, he is pressing my rib and telling me you have to marry me, it is a painful press on my rib.I said ouch! I'm just looking at him and quiet but in my head I know this is a different person.

Then, I just answered in my dream that I said yeah! I will marry you but I will do something, I will be back...

Then, I went out hurriedly in my dream seeing my biological mother waiting for me on the hallway of an unknown mall in my dream. I said let's go,we need to escape coz that man is telling me that he is Pilot Garret but he doesn't look like Pilot Garret. We need to run and escape, I told on my biological mother in my dream.

Then, we ran and went to different side of the mall... Then, I saw him at the other side of the mall as if looking for someone... I told my biological mother in my dream that we need to run coz that man is telling me that he is Pilot Garret. The man who is claiming that he is Pilot Garret suddenly pointed me and will run after me. In my dream me and my biological mother are running away from that man... The Pilot Garret in my dream is chasing me... Then, I woke up...

I woke-up like this bitterish...

9:01 pm

I still have windblow...I wish I can go to L.A. get a boobs to meet my Pilot Garret or someone like him but I truly like him... But I know sometimes, we need to prioritize things... I'm having confusion but for sure I wanna leave Cavite.

I wanna peel my butt, buy Starbucks everyday... I wanna have a brand new day... I wanna see Mitch and Mark in time coz they are both gone...

Life is a piece of shit if I will be living just like this...

Before I die, I hope not... Lemme touch L.A.get my boobs and peel my butt...

Life is meaningless if you're just like a flat round potato... Life is a choice and a big decision to make... I'm a Roman Catholic help me God, let me live more,let me love and let me find people who truly love me, MY FRIENDS!!!

I wanna have a brand new day! I feel self-pity here just being nothing.....

10 am

I made this Salt & Pepper with tomatoes spaghetti as my diet food....But mainly it should be Salt & Pepper only on an olive oil.... Though, any oil can be used...

1:30 pm

Summer Tip... Still, have windblow... Just put a hydrating collagen gel on your armpits but if it becomes smelly, wipe it a cotton of Eskinol toner let it dry and put a hydrating collagen gel again... Change shirt...The heat is not normal it is beyond 45 degrees celcius, it is reaching 50 degrees celcius. To cure and avoid armpits bumps...

It is normal coz it is super hot and you are human, you are sweating without ac!!!

Always check your smell sense by inhaling a coffee, for you to know the smell of smelly and coffee smell....

2:24 pm

Still,have windblow...Kuya Bong is here suddenly he made a joke that he will change the faucet inside the bathroom and in our kitchen coz there are leaks on it... I said ohkay but I need to finish my laundry, it will be in a lil while... He said we can be in the bathroom together, I said it is not allowed I added it is a big sin and you have to ask for forgiveness alone and it is bad the world will be small for the 2 of us then I laughed... ( Masama un, malaking kasalanan, mangumpisal ka mag-isa ).... hahaha Seriously, he really need to change the faucet...

3:29 pm

I still have windblow....I wanna leave Cavite... I feel self-pity here...

I don't know if Pilot Garret can save me? Turn me into Barbie? My needs and future...

I want a bf who is not nice on my gf's without me knowing....I feel jealous....I feel jealous on women here... I don't want my target bf to be super nice on my balwarteh'z kuno or my fake grouping here without me knowing...

I feel jealous on things that I don't know, that I must know...

4:40 pm

This Uncle DD is calling me that I'm on a deadspot that they will not believe me... He needs to talk to Kuya Bong about their dream house...Kuya Bong said he needs the money for tomorrow to buy a roof... Kuya Bong said they can call him on his simcard...

7:34 pm

Thanks Ely for these back-up today 79 pesoses....

9:02 pm

Guilty or Not Guilty???

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4.25.24 Thursday

7:54 am

Hmm....Still,have windblow... Uncle Jun told me it is cancelled today the "Eat Bulagah" team to go here coz we don't have wifi...

Kuya Bong and another worker are here already....

8:55 pm

Someone took my Pentel Pen Brand the refillable... Grrr... Someone left my disposable pentel... Is it Uncle DD???

8:58 am

I got it! Preparing...Uncle Jun called that "Eat Bulagah" team will go here this lunch...

Bullshit!

10:07 am

On the spot angels!!!

Happy Birthday Bossing/ Daddy Vic and to all Eat Bulagah Team!!!

11:28 noon

I went there coz Aunt Karen told me my number called, I saw Tita Meanne coz she is one of the organizers there... As if she is not entertaining me on how to claim the number,as if she is ignoring me....I feel bullshit... As if I'm not welcome to join... She is driving me away.... So,I went back home...

4:11 pm

I thought it is my "Eat Bulagah Day"...

4:37 pm

Got my wax machine...

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4.24.24 Wednesday

1:55 am

Still, have windblow... I'm wearing shirt now coz it is super hot, my armpits are sweating a lot and I should avoid skin bumping to each other... That will be the effect of armpits bumps...

No, ac for 2 months now....I'm super self-pitying... I still wanna leave Cavite... I need to keep on bleaching my butt or peel it....I hate the bugs bite and the sudden blemish on ... I wanna remove it!!! I feel irritated

8:03 am

Uncle DD is here and looking for Kuya Bong... Hmm... It is just 8am.... Still,not here...

8:27 am

Kuya Bong is already here and I figured out yesterday that he is INC or Church Of Christ....

1:55 pm

Huh? She suddenly sent me this.... Crazy??? Fake INC or Sinner Church Of Christ... Doing their ritual??

She suddenly sent me this... huh?.?

I don't like to join their SEX ORGIES...

I'm a Roman Catholic, I masturbate but I don't join Sex Orgies.

I didn't owe her anything, what I had was my right as I was a child.

For some people who wanted to damage me even an old friend or a schoolmate my relationship these days with my family are really "apocalypse"....

2:56 pm

I really wanna leave this place... I wanna leave Cavite...

5:14 pm

For fake and true friends in Salitran Dasma. Cavite.

#Youtube

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4.23.24 Tuesday

1:35 am

I still have windblow... I'm having left chest pain, hopin God to extend my life...

I need adjustment but I don't have budget now....

7:29 am

Kuya Bong is here the worker of Uncle DD...

My left chest pain is somehow aching and I did a lil stretching on my neck and some bones are cracking.... I badly need to stretch everyday for my S-bones pain and other pain in my body... Hoping I can remove this "FUPA" ( fatty upper pubic area or lower abdomen fats or puson) but I need some healthy and energy food.

Just for realization of what happened yesterday about that particular screenshots and family relationship and some other friendship relationship. A family will not win if other members can't understand how to protect and support each other.

Protect and support not only on physical thing but being knowing how to be supportive emotionally on your family member or to your trusted friends...

In fairness, I didn't mention any particular name on that phrase... That I said "there are many ugly faces that having ugly character as well". I made it on a general thing meaning there is no particular name, my motive if you are guilty or not but it was just a phrase that I sent to my friends...

As my blood related younger sister, Maco dropped me on the spot even my biological mother....It is a big minus point for my winning position... Our winning position as a group or as family...

It means I can't trust Maco and Biological Mother in times of my defeat or they wanted me to be defeated??? ( Probably, jealous or envious of me ).

Like what I said before the SMART one will see things beyond and see things on a HOLOGRAM way...

9:11 am

Uncle DD is here....Still a mystery...

9:23 am

Thank you Lazadah group...

9:34 am

Thanks Caroline!

She is my home work-out coach... Thanks!!!

I know this can remove the FUPA... This is my main exercise..

10:06 am

This Uncle DD seems making a comment on Kuya Bong saying "We will kill it" but it sounds that he is referring or talking about me... But I'm not sure...

I still wanna leave Cavite, will tell them that I'm masturbating and I have needs to get a bf...

I wanna get away from here and go back to my gym routine... I need a lift here.

10:26 am

I still need a life and I need money angels... I need a lift from here... I wanna leave Cavite.

12:47 noon

Uncle DD is so cheap on his assistance... I don't like him....I don't know his mystery....He just gave coins to buy a canned goods....

Thankful in a way...

8:50 pm

Here in Ely's house.... I ask a favour on Ate Eden to link on their wifi just to download a movie coz we have no wifi but I have data but dead spot on our house...

11:09 pm

I'm in here in my nest since 9:30 pm....Awhile ago while downloading, Ely went home from their drinking session with Jessie...

It is weird coz we have "dead spot time" here in our house.

Done,cleaning the floormats of my son-dog somehow tiring... But I love my dog so much... I said awhile ago before washing his floormats, "John I'm your slave forever"... I love my baby-John so much...I miss having yaya or assistant.

I hope Pilot Garret will give me an assistant if I get pregnant or I need a 2 washing machine, one for cleaning mats and the other for washing clothes machine....This is a serious dream... It is somehow hellish here washing floormats manually but with gloves but it is tiring...

I need an assistant again coz I have a son-dog and I can't really leave him here, I hope Pilot Garret can understand this... If I get pregnant, my tummy will be big and who will brush John's teeth? Who will bathe John? I will have my 2nd baby on human form... First human baby... This is a serious dream, aside from my serum, frownies and botox.

Hey! PILOT GARRET! Hope you can read this....

Let's get the future???? Is he ready??? I'm ready these days coz I'm 44, I just don't want to be ugly... You know the frownies,serum and my botox and blah2x...This is a serious dream...

Human should progress and get a cycle???? I can't progress here and I don't like anyone... If ever I want to have a baby, I want someone that I like....

Whew! I have windblow... For sure it will be beautiful baby with YOU!

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4.22.24 Monday

8:30 am

I still have windblow... If Mitch did something, since 2007? Perhaps....She can't just drop me just like that...

I can't be seen here... I just feel her energy somewhere though it is weird... But I can tell but it is weird...

Early in the am,fake Uncle Jun is not here as always..... But he is bringing cheap food... My point angels though I'm on a diet but it doesn't mean that we shouldn't have food here. Gets???

We should have food and lots of food...Uncle Jun is fucking crazy, he is observing me that I'm on diet and doing my strectching then they will remove the food. Stupidity this Uncle Jun!

Uncle Jun seems strange... Always wearing that green stripe sando with small holes... It looks like that he is giving a clue on something...

This Uncle DD is weird as well... He is a mushroom every now and then... Then they will build their dream house here, his worker will come and go and disappear...

I don't like them all even my plastics biological mother... I wanna be with a genuine vampire on the uphill coz a lot are fake here...

I feel Mitch her blood is bursting somewhere... But why???

Uncle Jun is leader of what group for themselves only??

17 years they all just smash me here and destroyed my entire life...

9:30 am

I still have windblow...I really wanna find my bf who can save me from here, away from the fake people as well... I want my vanity and my future... Something mutual or willing to pull me up...

10:10 am

Little life in the big world.... I wanna leave Cavite... I feel bitter... They just keeep on planning to smash me. I'm not a child, they took away the men that I want....Probably will kill my exes for real for being there at the back and back-stabbing me with my family for 17 years!!!

10:37 am

I wanted to appear that I have a family but what if,your relatives or Uncle's are the one damaging you at the back...

I wanna talk to Pilot Garret...Coz I remember something that my Uncle Jun got an x named Garret... She is a black girl here in the Philippines...

From the past days, I gave hint to Uncle Jun that I'm remembering something but not asking him directly... I just asked his other x-gf named Jinkie... I said Uncle Jun, I think I saw Aunt Jinkie at the Savemore... He said Jinkie is in the province I think she is with a policeman..

Aunt Garret did energize Pilot Garret???

Then, I accidentally saw Madeline who owns the 2 monkey pets....That she faked her black skintone, that she looks like Aunt Garret... Aunt Garret is a black Filipina girl here in the Philippines having a pretty face.

Aunt Jinkie is a white girl, tall and chubby and pretty as well...They are both old women but looks younger than me coz I don't know... I just saw her probably at the Savemore. The grocery store here, 10 minutes away from our house,there in Salitran at the high-way traffic light. But why??? Why???

Pilot Garret? Aunt Garret??? What is the link???

Someone is controlling my journal here...

That probably, Pilot Garret got a daughter??? Probably it is Madeline? If Pilot Garret cross-breed with Aunt Garret the result would be white and Madeline is originally white but she faked her black skin-tone to look like her mom probably, that Aunt Garret...

Probably ,My Mitchang will be their next generation...Fly with Mitch???

Perhaps the next is Fly with Mitch???

11:45 am

I feel that they are stabbing me and always put me in the center of embarassment...

Like that fake Uncle DD can't assist me but getting a progress only for themselves...

Waiting for Uncle Jun, he should bring food here.

I wanna leave Cavite with someone I want... I can't reach Pilot Garret. Hoping Mark can pull me out away from here, I don't wanna be smashed by other people that I don't know...

12:56 noon

I still have windblow... I wanna leave Cavite... I can't get a bf and everytime I work these days Filipino are always removing me and telling that I can't speak English. 17 years, I don't wanna wait for another 3 years to be 20! Oh! My God that is totally unfair and bullshit!

I don't like anyone here....They don't know me, I'm so offended for 17 years!

Fucky you DJ! I WILL KILL YOU!!+

I'm not bad Pilot Garret! People are unfair to me...

There are so many pretty faces here of men but I don't trust them plus some of them talk negatively on me, coz of my ugly situation...

1:06 pm

It is weird that my body and aura are changing....Someone is putting a curse on me.

A lot of men are fake here even some pretty faces that they will observe and find fault on me... I don't know what is their agenda?

I wanna leave Cavite... I can fly with Mark to get me from here coz he knew me and he is a friend... But why??? I feel out of place here in Cavite, they didn't get me since 2007... Let's go to Los Angeles...

Though, I really like Pilot Garret but I don't know even a youtube, I can't get success...

I will try to get a youtuber, why I can't get it??? People can transcact there...

Mark and Mitch are missing....

1:21 pm

I get it! People from here and there appear poor in the eyes of some good people...Most specially women who wanted to be a stray dog so that the kind of Pilot Garret will pity them, I think so coz they are sacrificial soul??? Aside, from them being a zombie...

6:06 pm

I hate Maco she is taking my position and my old friends are taking screenshots and sent to Maco. As if Maco is older than me...

They don't respect me,my postion as older than Maco...Salitran people are fake on me...

It is really weird that they are linking here in village...

Maco is appearing as if she is demure and older than me... Maco sent me a message that she will tell to Aunt Teresa that they are, I think in connivance.... hahaha....Who is scared???

6:21 pm

I feel stresss... It is so hot here and dead spot...

6:27 pm

I feel bad and super hot here... I hate traitor...

For Salitran people stop making me a child, stop sending message to my family... I know it is not Algina...

Algina must transfer here in our village...

I wanna leave Cavite ....

6:59 pm

Arte or OA this fake biological mother Bethsilog... I don't like them all...

See....Perfection...Betsilog is wiser to make a reputation...

I want my biological mother be dead angels.. Please...

7:34 pm

On Thursday I will be joining the "Eat Bulagah" invited by Uncle Jun... There is a list for you to join and get money as a joiner...

I will be with my 2 Uncle's professionally, I have my own life to win and get money from Eat Bulagah. The lady from baranggay I forgot the name... She said I need to put 3 curtains outside... The house is open for "Eat Bulagah" I badly need money coz I don't have a job now... We are poorish these days... Actually angels we need TV and smart box? Some food and money. I need coffee...

8:52 pm

I feel bitter... I wanna leave Cavite... I feel frustrated here ... I'm self-pitying... I really wanna leave Cavite...

I feel stress on this dead spot issue on my simcard.

10:30 pm

I still have windblow...

Anyways, I don't like my family except for this nana and my son-dog... But still I know how to be professional...

Professional member of my family... As a mature individual, I mean I know how to be professional. Example on Thursday the "Eat Bulagah" team will be here and my 2 Uncle's are also joining.. I mean I can be a family member on that moment.

Reality example Maco and Betsilogs are having a wrong reaction on me and on the situation awhile ago...

The reaction of Maco is not a family member... My conversation awhile ago with the fakers Salitran Zion ( Zion means to kill ), except for Algina one of my bestfriends since elementary ( I met him in Salitran Elem. School ).

My text on that group for some fakers Salitran, I said this is my son-dog, I like these Pilot Garret and I have killer name Zion there in Salitran.. Or there is a killer in Salitran the name is Zion.

I said there are so many ugly people these days and having ugly character... Ugly faces and ugly character...

Algina and I we had a deep friendship whatever it is.. I know Algina will not do that screenshots...

So, I saw the name of Joel Magalong one of the villagemates here, probably he was the one who did the screenshots and sent to Maco.

Maco's reaction that why did you send those kind of text? It is embarrassing...

For me it is huh? What? They are my friends I thought, they are all my friends...

Maco seemed or sounded like she was pressing me down, she did it twice today...

For that fake Salitran Friends whoever did that screenshots, he or she or someone is putting me down on Maco....I'm older than her but she is appearing as if she is older than me and taking my position as older than her... But she didn't defend me on that Fakers Salitran...

A stupid and low minded person will not see these kind of "hidden reaction" on someone. Not all but mostly mind of undergraduate such as Maco and Betsilogs.

Betsilog and Maco on today's issue are low minded ability to analyze the situation.

For the fakers Zion Salitran, some or that particular person who sent a screenshots to my younger sister to belittle my entire entity as a friend or as a person who can do a "freedom of expression" coz I thought everyone there are mature and truly my friends.

I'm just flowing here but the mental ability of "some" of my family is below average of my high capacity to see things beyond...

Do I deserve to be Queen of Pilot Garret? Or

Queen of Egypt???

Can you save me Pilot Garret or The King Of Egypt???

The crown is very sacred... For Pilot Garret I truly do admire you...I don't know if he can take me into his flesh.... If not...

For the King of Egypt--I can truly analyze beyond the mountains and sees and the skies above... I'm not the most beautiful woman now, but I can enhance and fix me "My King"....I will be faithfully accept the vow as "Queen of Egypt".

Forgive me coz I'm not the most beautiful woman now...

Being Egypt is a double meaning... It can be an actual wife of King Of Egypt or anyone's wife of a powerful or royalty man...

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4.21.24 Sunday

2:37 am

I still have windblow... Hmmm... Weird... I already posted here about my view on getting pregnant... But we all have our own views about life....Life is a case by case and sometimes the situation that applicable on other people, might not applicable on you...

For the judgemental, mind your own lives and stop judging people....We all have our own definition of LIFE and RIGHTS. We all have RIGHTS or FREEWILL...

I'm not liberated nor ultra-conservative... I'm conserberated...

My life before was different on my life now....Our family is in chaos, we are not ohkay coz of what they did to me for 17 years. Aside from other people and some old friends that are missing... Weird!!!

If ever on example if Pilot Garret is here... My example subject matter....I really like him when I first saw him on youtube...

If the topic or question if I want to have a child, yeah! But it is it depends on the situation... But I want to have one supposed to be but there is part of me that I'm between ready and not ready... This is difficult to explain....I have windblow...

But sometimes I'm worrying... I know, I'm religious enough... I'm 44 on my first life, on my repeat I'm only 17 on my 2nd life ( My cat side will come out ) hahah but originally my nature wasn't rude or wasn't mean...

I feel bad and I feel old and I truly feel fat and ugly....Yeah! There are so many 17 years old right now who already got some lines on their faces coz they wanted to be the older person or their situation stressed them out so much or someone is stressing her unfairly.

I don't know if the windblow will be good to me, if the time comes that I'm ready to have a child...

I remember Mike Shawn the one that I met in cuddle-lite from last year but the app just lasted for 4 years, then it was closed last year....The app which you can only have voices of people and not live chat with face but only pictures, only live chat using your voice.I was so desparate and I have this intuition that probably Mike can take me seriously but he is just suddenly gone.I told him I have windblow and I'm a college graduate and I know I can work but I don't know what happened but there was a "pandemic of coronavirus" . Everything changed from there...

It is totally unfair in my part that someone planned to bury me here plainly, it is super ugly tomb, coz it is "Untitled" ... Worst they changed me into a wrong or cheap version of me since 2007...

3:39 am

I still have windblow...

Did Mitch give me that "simple battery"??

Where is Mark, is he here for 17 years? Simply observing me but why??? Not normal...

Hmmm....I feel betrayed...

This song is for the one who inspires me these days...

12:59 noon

John is on over-heat...I wiped him a towel of iced cold water... Later will try to post our video...

1:31 pm

I still have windblow... I wanna leave Cavite.I didn't interfere on whoever they are...

I just don't like anyone here... I feel out of place here... I don't like people who talk bad things about me that they didn't know me at all... I don't like people who are below of my ability to analyze things.

2:06 pm

Yehey!!! Angels got my coffee frother! Wow!!!

2:59 pm

I have windblow...

I just don't like people who interfere so much on me,even on youtube who are controlling me on my "freedom of expression"... I wonder who are they behind that youtube bathroom people...

I still wanna leave Cavite.. Hoping to get a bf and I miss having a bf but I want someone like Pilot Garret or some other men that I like... I feel frustrated...

If Mark is just there, I really wanna leave Cavite.. I love to travel and to meet new friends who can truly pull me up... Not this way... Burying me alive... I FEEL BAD FOR 17 YEARS!

5:35 pm

I still have windblow... Not happy being flatten this way... I feel out of place here in Cavite...

I wanna leave Cavite and I need a bf that I want mutually on me, someone who can pull me up...

Again, I'm a college graduate but someone plan to smash me since 2007... Probably that one is undergraduate...

By looking at the face in a way I can tell the heart...

If I can't see Pilot Garret...

I wanna be in Pampangga if Mark is somewhere nearby.... hello!!! I wanna leave Cavite... I feel small... I wanna tell Mark, I wanna be in Los Angeles...He knows he can...

9:28 pm

Still,have windblow... Fucking tired!!!

I wanna leave Cavite....I feel frustrated.... I have super crush this Pilot Garret...

Hating this windblow sometimes they are so mean to me like a wicked step mom or mean girls...

I feel so frustrated... Thinking of money and job though not my ideal thing to be simply a call center agent but I need money....

I really like Pilot Garret but I can't go up to shine. I really like his nose,eyes and eyebrows.

I'm really douting on Superman Chef Cedrick...It feels like I've met him somewhere or it was just a dream..

I feel fat,old and wrinkled just for here... I feel self-pity...

The 2 fake Uncle's here ( Uncle DD and Uncle Jun ) can't assist me correctly... 1 pack of Anchor Protein Milk here, I need to buy again but I will be out of fundings soon.

The progress of Uncle DD is mainly for their own personal agenda... Our wifi is cut again and again... We can't buy a new TV... The TV here is damaged already... I wanna leave Cavite...

If I can't get Pilot Garret or anyone in youtube... Mark please appear and let's go... I can't stay here for nothing....A lot of Filipino are smashing me unfairly...

I feel bad, I'm not a child, my fear that people will tell on Pilot Garret that I'm a child. I'm not! I just don't have a carrer coz some fucking Filipino's are damaging me or removing me to be liked by the kind of Pilot Garret...

9:55 pm

John humped on my feet, I'm resting on the sofa... He is done,his sperm was on my blanket cloth...

John first experience was on my lower leg, angels...He released himself on me.

John never bite me hard... Sometimes he is playfully biting me but with his bite inhibition awareness... He is biting me but not the real bite.

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4.20.24 Saturday

7:04 am

I still have windblow... Kuya Bong is here early in the morning, one of the workers of Uncle DD... It is strange that Uncle DD is not here, it is just 7 am... Kuya Bong asked me to put Neko inside her cage...

I have windblow... I still wanna leave Cavite... It is my decision coz it's been 17 years I'm always flatten unfairly like this...

I just hate people who unfairly interfere on me without my decision... I really wanna leave Cavite... I have no plans to see past but I wanted to see and talk to Mark and Mitch??? I just feel something is wrong....Why did you hide it for 17 years???

I still adore Pilot Garret, this fucking youtube sent me a message that I'm harassing people on making a comment.... Huh??? What??? Freedom of expression....Telling someone that you adore him is a harassment???

If only I'm an actress on screen, I will ignore those bad people who smash me like these days...

7:48 am

8:08 am

I got license... But you keep on ignoring or smashing me...

8:18 am

Uncle Jun seems strange, he is always wearing that stripe green sando that has many small holes on it... It is just weird...

I feel like I'm an undergraduate here, I don't know what did they do to me...Some people are smashing me since 2007...

I wonder if Mitch is part of it? Not saying she is doing something bad to me but what did she do, a "simple battery"???

I wanted to leave this place, I haven't seen the world, I feel self-pity...17 years they are happy, I'm not happy... 17 years they are all together and I'm just alone... I just want to end things here and go somewhere with someone, who can pull me up or at least save me from these nonsense ending... No sure journery for me...

I'm not sure if I can get Pilot Garret or whoever there on youtube, I have windblow but I'm sane...I can't die being flatten unfairly... I have no achievement since 2007, I really want to be on a far place where I can grow or get a life... I tried working here and Filipino's are always doing a bad agenda on me at my back!!!

I just don't want being here, can't get a job...I can't get the righful one for me... I can't be seen.. I can't have my starbucks everyday... I wanted my vanity, having wrinkles with no story is very painful or foul thing that they did to me. I want out from here.. I want out from here. I wanna gift from someone, I want out from here...

I feel so frustrated... Mark and Mitch, why I can't see them??? So,fucking weird!!!

10 am

I still have windblow... Why, you can't save me Pilot Garret???

Something is hmm on Superman Chef Cedrick...

Why,can't you take me Pilot Garret??? Why..

I'm sleeping for so long... Wake me up..

10:10 am

Wake me up....Wake me up... Pilot Garret???

Wake me up.... True Blood...

10:27 am

Still,have windblow...

True Blood....

So, fucking funny that "True Blood".... It is happening here and there... It is all about SEX! SEX,SEX,SEX all the time... Who can have it? Who can have to eat it??? It is about competition of who is having a "True Blood"...Who can have it?

It is rivalry in the society here in Cavite... They wanted to prove that they can have it...

Sex is a priviledged of spoiled, usually....I feel bitterish about it... But I want with the chosen people that I want but I'm no longer in the mood... Somehow, too much of waiting and I don't want them here anymore....

Now, I feel fat,old and ugly....Aging for nothing... I want out from here... I don't want them here in Cavite wherever they are, that particular tribe....They've been together since 2007... I don't feel like blending with the people here in Cavite...

11:11 am

Janna gave birth on their 2nd child... They are so lucky to have that novel story of their lives.I'm happy for them at the same time I feel jealous in a way...I like Janna for being strong,loving and mature partner for my brother RV...Growing stronger...

I really wanna leave Cavite... I don't feel like blending on them coz it's been 17 years and I hate being the "2nd choice"...

11:48 am

Thanks Ely,I paid the 300... For the Bulb here & some coffee & laundry powder & soap.

But still, I always ask a back-up from Ely...

4:30 pm

I still have windblow... It is so frustrating, another summer will pass us by and we can't recover here to get some beach away event.... Though, not my ideal to be with my 2 Uncle's here...They can't assist or present me correctly in this world... I'm a different person now, my repeat since 2007 was totally wrong... But in a way sometimes you need to do a show for other peopIe to see that yeah! She still got a family though blah2x....I feel bitterish coz I feel fat,ugly and old... I'm worrying so much coz how can I get a bf who are on a good position like Pilot Garret...I feel fear that nobody will like me on the men that I chose,most specially Pilot Garret ...

The Superman Chef Cedrick, he is really something like a "star" but I'm doubting... It feels that I l've seen him before....But I was trap for 17 years here in Cavite...

But definitely wanting Pilot Garret but he got this mysterious aura... Will he take me seriously, if ever? But if he is not happy with me, I can feel his strange sadness but I don't know, he is hiding something... Not saying a bad thing but a personal emotion...

Anyways, I still have windblow and I'm on " The Circle" now....It is a game where you can be anyone in the world... You can do a make-up profile and play with other gamers and win prizes It is interesting...

I still wanna leave Cavite and get some progress somewhere, get my "frownies and botox"....Get a job and buy Starbucks everyday... Be with someone,someone at the end of the day...

9:39 pm

The face of Uncle DD is still plastics and mysterious effect... Probably his ritual group are starting to curse John again... I know John is healthy then John is now on diarrhea, nana told me John is sick... I said no! He just drink plenty of water... I still have windblow... I know John is fine, there is a ritual in the world... I can feel something... John will not die and if they kill John, let me be with him... I know not yet the time of John and I to die....Good people are deserve to be a dinosaur...

10:04 pm

Uncle Jun is inviting us to join the "Eat Bulagah" this coming Thursday, supposed to be we are candidate for house visit but we don't have wifi...So, Uncle Jun didn't push it but he said we can join in "baranggay"... I said why not! Since I don't have money probably there will be a miracle on Thursday for me to have some money. I hope so coz sometimes there is a game... Probably I can be an artist on screen to get Pilot Garret...

10:49 pm

I still have windblow....My S-bones are still in pain but it lessen everytime I exercise...But I want to visit a chiropractor for aligning my bones.. Still, don't have work now. .. ;(

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4.19.24 Friday

9:38 am

I still have windblow....Uncle DD is fixing the leak here that is the main cause of our high bill on our water...

Hmm... Still, thinking of money,future and better life away from here... Like what I said I want a smart-linking with my family but I have maturity to have my own life with Pilot Garret hahah... But seriously liking him....

I'm somehow doubting on Superman Chef Cedrick? But I hope he is truly a Superman...

12:21 noon

12:42 noon

I still have windblow....For the old ugly Dj's on radio both of men and women...

Let's be responsible on making comments,here we go again...

I'm not a child, I'm already 44 will be turning 45 this coming October... I never smash anyone's maturity. You interfere so much on me without talking to me or asking me in person... That is totally unfair!!!

You made me bitterish since 2007.... You are always making me a child, you always smash my maturity or you always step on me without me knowing....

I'm a kind of a person who never interfere without asking first the person in person!!! Coz you will never know the person's heart.

There are some people here and there who interfere so much at the bowl inside the bathroom... There are some floating stinky poops who just want to win but having a wicked heart.

1:07 pm

Aside from my vanity... This feels so good next to SEX... Thanks if I can have assistant again...

4:31 pm

This is my crush these days... My Pilot Garret... I wonder what is your heart? Can I rebel? Maturbate with you? The windblow is stopping me as well??? I have the windblow for so long...

For My Superman Chef Cedrick.... Hmm... I wonder if your heart is fair..

For MnM, My Mark & Mitch, until when these hide and seek???

5:27 pm

Hi Madeline and Oliver the Monkey ;)I saw her on youtube and her pets are 2 monkey's...

6:08 pm

I still have windblow... I still wanna leave Cavite... I feel bitterish and frustrated here...

I'm thinking of money, job,bf who can lift me or pull me up...

I feel fat,old,and ugly for nothing... They just repeated me on a wrong way since 2007... My actual age is 44 but my spiritual soul age now is only 17 but they repeated me on wrong version of me...

I really wanna leave this place and get some progress...I just feel self-pity...Still, thinking of my future and my own life... Filipino's are smashing me since 2007... I can work but they always remove me here in the Philippines...

8:35 pm

Still have windblow... Uncle Jun is strange.. He is hiding something.

I really like Pilot Garret, in reality he is my type these days,when I masturbate I'm seeing his face... I hope the windblow will respect that...

Mark, appear in-front of me as well as Mitch! Did they give me a "simple battery"...

Ely is missing... I thought we are going to the bar...

10:30 pm

I still have windblow....I'm really a Roman Catholic now... I wanna leave Cavite, I don't like anyone here...

I feel self-pity... I'm just masturbating for 17 years... I can't get a bf that I want... I just hate Cavite for so long...

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4.18.24 Thursday

12:45 am

I still have windblow...

Awhile ago or yesterday I went to Ely's house just to check my signal bar on my simcard... It was on and off and almost gone...

So, weird! I need a new phone and I don't have a job, still waiting for Amazon, Exl et al...

So, I saw Jessie awhile ago after checking my bar signal on my simcard coz I still have data. It is just weird that I'm being killed here, I mean someone is removing my signal on my simcard. Hmmm... So, I just reminded him that this coming Friday the opening of the bar outside our village... Hero told us ( me &Ely ) that he will treat us on the opening of that bar outside our village... Then,I feel bad when Jessie told me that he didn't know it....It is a bad character when a friend is just trying to fool you or make words that they can't keep...

I plan to have a drinking session with some village mate men....It is so good to check people as well, sometimes....A lot of new faces here thought that I'm a newbie here but I've been here for almost 30 years...

3:27 am

Still,have windblow....Done, watching "Damsel", it is weird! Just watch it angels... Don't wanna reflect on that....Don't wanna dwell on it but it is an interesting story....

3:45 am

Whew! Perfect Storm or Storms??? Singular Vs Plural... Funny... So, fucking tired for 17 years...

My version ;) "Perfect Storms"???... hahah...

4:32 am

So,fucking scared at this very moment if I have a bf, I will embrace him... Oh! Please switch my soul... My left ear is in pain due to headphone... It will go away right???

I have windblow... But I always make sure that the volume is still on blue line not on red....Red line means louder or stronger volume.

8:32 am

On the way to John's annual update... Preparing..

Uncle DD is here, my stuff will be here, hope nothing will be missing while me and John are outside the house...

8:41 am

Fuck you DJ! Giving hint homicide? Did I hear it correctly??? No guns... Just barehands... Knife can be but no throwing of knives...Fair fight no guns!

9:48 am

Just got back from his annual shots...

Anti-rabies and 8 in 1...

11:02 am

Thanks Uncle Jun from babyJohn for the food. A simple token of appreciation.

11:55 am

Uncle DD will fix their house again....I wanna leave Cavite. It is a personal thing.... He just gave a cheap assistance for food though of course "thank you"! But not enough for me to be presentable in the society... I mean my other toiletries will be coming from Ely my friend. But I know Uncle DD doesn't have enough fundings, something like that... I want a man who can lift me, a handsome man that I like, hoping there is a chance for me to be liked by him example Pilot Garret my super crush and Superman Chef Cedrick.. I wanted to leave Cavite.

Hoping to entrap Pilot Garret but it is somehow impossible...

Issue on wifi that why Uncle Jun didn't pay for it... I said I don't know... Uncle Jun should know his responsibility on that wifi, coz he said he will really shoulder the wifi..

It is not my ideal thing to grow old with them here but I hope there will be an organize harmony here... They are still "my family"...They are still "my blood and flesh" that we need to show off a lil in the society that in a way we are ohkay but not really ohkay... I lost my sweetish side it is now bitterish and lacking of fundings for my personal stuff and my vanity and toiletries made me bitterish...

The wifi should be stable....I feel bitter...

12:32 noon

I need money... I tried working in a call center though not my ideal thing but I know I was good at it... But there were/are people who are always smashing me.... That supposed to be I can travel or fix myself... I have low self-esteem... I want vanity to remove my "deep smile lines". Unfair to die without a fight...

I wanna travel, I feel so frustrated... I wanna buy Starbucks everyday,my shallow happiness even with my super2x crush Pilot Garret, I don't like so much of signatures but I want some fashionable cute stuff, what I wanted is my vanity,my dogs, my Pet Shop and my Starbucks Tumbler... I'm asking only for a middle-class life not elegance not even sophistication. A middle-class country girl but with maintainance of stuff that we need in the house like those steam vaccum, dog stuff blah2x dog stuff are expensive... Just a middle-class that I can do my botox, join a dog show... Have my regular foot spa and my nail gel polish. I wanna curl my hair... My nose perfection...

1:28 pm

Next month, John will have his KC... On May 3rd... It is already paid for me not to worry... It is part of his annual shots....

It is really hot here, I need ac... Whew! John needs ac even nana, it is so fucking hot...

I feel so frustrated.... I wanna leave Cavite...

I want a bathroom renovation but all of my money were all gone now...

I need to leave Cavite, angels... Thinking of my own personal money... I want someone I want... Someone who can lift me... I'm not happy being this way...

I wanna renovate the bathroom outside, supposed to be... The bathroom inside, I need to change the sink and covering on the shower.

4:52 pm

I still have windblow...

It is not my ideal thing to live here with my 2 Uncle's this is just a show-off that we are still "family" coz I have no job.. There are people who are smashing me... But in a way and of course, we are still "family"...

Example if Pilot Garret will take me as his flesh, I want US to have our own life away from here... To take me as his flesh or allowing me to pull out one of his ribs to allow me to be united with him... Of course I have a right to demand that I want US to have our own life. My life with him... My right to get coins from his pocket.

10:04 pm

I still have windblow... My aunt Teresa is not replying on me...Sometimes, I'm doubting on Uncle DD and Aunt Teresa. Sometimes I want my Aunt Teresa be in heaven or to go with God coz she is not helping me now...

I hate people who are jealous of me... Did Mitch give me a "simple battery"???

I wanna get a life away from here... I'm surviving but not happy or the right thing is not satisfied... But still again,I need to keep my "family" but with smart way of linking with them...

I feel self-pity, why I can't get a bf that I want... Is that bad if I want someone from youtube? Or I can't find a new "true love"???

10:36 pm

I'm not yet fixing... People on youtube how did they fix themselves???

Sometimes, I feel jealous, like the girl with Pilot Garret coz she is well-fixed... That's why they are perfect together??? Tell me angels... Am I ugly not to have him???

10:41 pm

He will not like me coz I have scratch on my left hand today, I accidentally bump my hand on the trycycle...

I have ugly hands these days coz I'm moving now... I don't have assistant... I'm not a "Damsel" but "Cinderella" of guilty and mean, fucking people for 17 years??? Will you hate coz I have scratch on my left hand now...

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4.17.24 Wednesday

8:26 am

Whew! Still,have windblow... I still wanna leave Cavite coz nothing's new from the past 17 years until these days...

I feel fat,old and ugly just for nothing... I feel old for nothing here and I feel HURT!

No progress since 2007....What did I do wrong on some people that I know, I didn't do anything to stop their fucking growth... Some are fucking guilty fungus, who stopped me to grow and be a progressive person. It is OUCH in my part. I'm HURTING and you guilty you! You didn't take my word HURT seriously...

Where are Mark and Mitch??? Mitch did you give me this "simple battery"??? Since 2007???

Mark are you just nearby since 2007 or within those years from 2007 until this 2024??? But why not approaching me? Why??? I can't understand... Tell me, Mark...

Now, I have EMOTIONAL DISTURBANCE... I have COMPLEX....I'm WORRYING & PANICKING getting older for nothing. How can I get the one I wanted like my super2x crush Pilot Garret and my Superman Chef Cedrick... Will they LIKE me? Will they BELIEVE me now? Will they TRUST me? Will they LOOK at me now? You get my point angels... I have a curse here in CAVITE, I wanted growth, I wanna leave this place.

I still want future, vanity and my rightful job... I feel SMALL here for 17 years, they changed me and just simply waiting for me to be fat and ugly and worst be wrinkled without FROWNIES & BOTOX!

8:46 am

8:14 pm

I still have windblow... I still have data and my simcard is on a "dead spot"... They hacked my simcard... I'm here in Ely's house just to check if I'm on a dead spot.... My bar on simcard signal is almost gone... Hmmm... Suspicious... This is being hacked .... I still have data...

I have no signal on my simcard in our house... I'm also checking the phone of Ely he got 3 bars on his simcard but good thing they have a line wifi...

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4.17.24 Wednesday

8:13 am

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7:39 am

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