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I just remembered that I have ice cream in my freezer and it’s honestly ridiculous how excited I got

#mine #text post #emotional eating is the mood for tonight #but also ice cream just fixes everything #the anxiety has also calmed and the lotr marathon continues

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#the only way I’m gonna refer to my bpd from now on #yes I am a beautiful princess

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I think at the end of the day I just want to be allowed to be a complex and complicated human being and know that people are still going to choose to be in my life ya know?

#was thinking about this today in light of where my brain has been the last couple of weeks #and like it really truly just boils down to this #the safety to be a mess and complex and emotional and wrong and just human ya know #like I always have people say that they feel safe to be a mess of they thank me for allowing them the space to be a mess without judgment #but when I ask for the same it’s too much or I’m too much #like I want to know that someone is going to see beyond that #that they’re going to see the person behind all of the complexities an say yes you’re worth being inconvenienced for #like is that too much to ask for? #I feel like this is why I was struggling so much these last couple of weeks #and processing and coming to this realization has been so validating #mine #text post

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if you wanna date me you have to fight my 7 evil anxieties 

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#hahahahaahahahahahaha #ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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Baking chocolate chip cookies, drinking huckleberry vodka lemonade, and watching lord of the rings is how we’re fighting anxiety attacks tonight

#mine #text post #I’ve had such high anxiety these last few weeks 🫠🫠🫠 #think it might be time to talk my therapist about meds because everything is giving me anxiety attacks at this point 😅😅😅 #but for now gonna eat my weight in cookies and watch lotr

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i want nothing more than to draw her a bath, to make sure she's all comfortable and warm, give her a glass of wine or something to help her relax a bit, rub her shoulders and arms, massage her legs gently and just help her become so calm, so relaxed. i want to carry her to the bed in a soft towel i put in the dryer so she doesn't get cold, i want to help her dry off and get ready to sleep and then i want to lay with her and hold each other until we melt away in a sleepy bliss

#🥺🥺🥺 #please #this is the level of care and thoughtfulness that I’m looking for

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the be nice to me button is the little heart on this post btw

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Hiiii, so obviously I haven’t been in the greatest headspace the last few days (or really last couple weeks). A few of you have checked in and sent really kind messages and made sure that I was okay, and I can’t even tell you how much that means 🥹🥹💗💗💗. I know that I made this blog to explore my own sexuality and have fun within all of that, but surprise there’s a human on the other side of this blog 😅🫠🫠. On top of just mental health and life stuff (and also physical health) this week and next week will be pretty busy so I may not post as much or make as much content, but I pinky promise that’s still my intent with this blog for the time being. Not going anywhere yet, but might be a little more in and out as I work through some things and also just be an adult and take care of life stuff lol. I appreciate y’all and sending forehead kisses 💗💗😘😘💗💗

#mine #text post #update #gotta sort some things out and take care of me first #but I’m not going anywhere right now

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hey man I found a piece of your soul stuck in the text messages of old friends you don’t speak to anymore. do you want it back

#ahahahahaha ouch #hey google how do I get back the pieces of me that died with old friendships??

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I need a fucking lobotomy

#like goddamn am I so fucking tired of being in this emotional teeter totter #one second I’m doing good and the next I’m crying about the dumbest things #I’ll be back to my normal posting soon when my brain is a nicer place to be 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 #mine #text post

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— Edna St. Vincent Millay, from a letter to Arthur Davison Ficke featured in Savage Beauty: The Life of Edna St. Vincent Millay.

#I don’t know how to explain it #but something about this meets something so deep within me #like I feel somehow seen when reading this

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if you ever want to love an idiot you know where to find me

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Sensitive, soft hearted, hopeless romantic girlie tries to convince herself that sex will somehow fulfill her need for basic human connection 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

#mine #text post #like is sex fun? yes. but does it replace the need for genuine human connection?? no. absolutely not #also this isn’t necessarily about what I post on tumblr #moreso sex as a whole and using that to fill some need or desire that isn’t sexual in nature #take this as an add on to my super long text post last night #I’m just severely lacking connection to people right now and it’s hitting hard this weekend #I want to have long conversations and laugh and learn about someone and connect and do fun things #this casual bullshit is not my jam

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You deserve love now. Not once you lose weight. Not once you accomplish that thing. Not once you move. Not once you get on medication. Not once you start therapy. Not once you get that job. Not once you're more like them. Now. You don't have to earn the right to be loved. You deserve it right now, and always have.