themaybejade

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Not to revive a dead blog for a second but it really does strike me as interesting how the second I made that post about me and Jane's grubs, literally nobody interacted again.

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It's a fucking rough one chat I am not going to lie. I don't know when I'll be back here again. This is the memory that finally broke me.

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I had children. Four of them, with Jane. Four beautiful grubs, that I would get to visit when I came back, as motivation to keep going. I never got to see them pupate, or get named - I died before they were old enough.

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in case the implications arent quite clear: i may have been a mother. jane and i may have had a child. or more than one.

there is still a lot to process. roxy may have successfully made the matriorb for the empress. the empress may have hatched a new mother grub. a new clutch may have been laid. and the genetic material for them may have been synthesised from the imperial court.

including her chosen heiress and most loyal attack dog.

[themaybejade]

there is still a lot to process. roxy may have successfully made the matriorb for the empress. the empress may have hatched a new mother grub. a new clutch may have been laid. and the genetic material for them may have been synthesised from the imperial court.

including her chosen heiress and most loyal attack dog.

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my memory is going absolutely wild right now so i may or may not have some new stuff to talk about once my brain settles down and i can sort out whats real. stay tuned i guess?

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its my birthday sort of. its jades birthday, at least.

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so ive finally confirmed why i can remember both having and not having certain pup-like physical attributes, specifically (but not exclusively) a tail and paw-hands: i was a stress-shifter. heightened emotions would cause these traits to manifest more strongly.

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we were thirteen man

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It's tough to accept that they're all gone, that I'm never going to see them again. That I'm probably never even going to remember them except in bits and pieces. They meant so much to me, and I'm all that's left of them. Of any of us. It's just me now. Even when we were apart, at least I knew they were out there somewhere. But now the best I can wish for is that other Jades from other timelines will find their friends again.

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My name was Jade Cassiopeia Harley

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sorry i dont post much here, things are just in a weird place right now. i dont really interact with people in kinspace any more so its hard to really feel it.

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dont think ill be getting outside help on this one - thats 0/2 now

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i was seven thousand six hundred years old at the endgame

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had a memory that spoke back to me today. not to jade, but to me, the me that exists now. going to be fun to try and figure out who the hell she was.

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i was ten when i lost my only family

i was thirteen when i lost my home

i was sixteen when i lost my universe

i was twenty-one when i lost myself

i was unfathomably old when i lost everything else

im twenty-nine now, and wishing i could have it all back somehow

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a very special doodle done by a very wonderful artist @/rosemarytrash as a gift!!

(not gonna tag him cause i dunno if he wants to be tagged on a kinnie blog)