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What is going on with me?

I don't even know where to start. I feel almost lost right now, but also like I'm on the right track. If that makes any sense. My beautiful husband is in the shower. Naked. Rubbing down his naked body making it all clean. And he's in pain. And I don't really like him right now. So while I can appreciate the beauty of him, I kinda just want him to be gone for a while. I think I'm at an "I want to do me" point. I don't know why. I enjoy sharing my successes with my husband. I really do. Right now though, I feel as if my spirit is still wild and craving to be set free. I'm missing passion, desire, playfulness, foreplay. I'm missing all of that. I desperately want to feel wanted. I want to dress up- Like gorgeous like. I want to show off my newfound confidence. I want to be wanted by others. Not just wanted, I want them to be aching to touch me. I want them to desire tearing off my clothes. Kissing all over my body. Exploring my vagina. Taking their time to figure out how to touch me for maximum pleasure. I want to be tied up and taken advantage of. And I want more than one man doing it at the same time. I don't necessarily want to be penetrated, but I want to be fingered. Like, I really really want fingers inside of me. I want GREAT head. I want my pussy eaten like it's someone's last meal. I've only experienced that a couple of times in my life by what could only be called the Tongue God. I will never in all my life forget how this man ate pussy (I’ll go into more of that at another time, I think men really need to know the secret).

That's what I want. I know I can get this excitement from my husband if I just opened up and said something. But noooooooooooo. I'm going to sit here and fantasize about having my body ravaged by a bunch of sexy strangers doing god only knows what with me. Because honestly, I have the propensity to go for whatever when it comes to sex. Ok, so you want to stick it in my butt, work that ass up first. Ok, you want to cum on my tits, lets make a video so I can be sexy for the camera. You want to see what you can fit in my pussy, make sure it's clean and go to town. You want to tease me for hours on end, by all means, tease me until I'm begging for release.

As I'm laying in bed next to my man, all I am thinking about is sex from random strangers. I know it's wrong. I know I can have this with my man. Unfortunatley, I have that old, lingering sensation - the desire for "naughtiness". That very passionate 1 night stand that is just amazing. That stranger that you don't really know, nor do you care to see again. But the knowledge of not having to worry about what those strangers think gives you the freedom to open yourself up to the most mind blowing sex. Because when you no longer hold onto those inhibitions, you are free to truly enjoy all aspects of sex. The "nasty" stuff that comes with sex is no longer. Those 'ideas' that people hold on to that should be gross, they're really not. But unfortunately most people don't let go of what they've been taught to believe. They allow those teachings to linger in their daily thoughts and actions which eventually spills over over into the bedroom.

I think we all have fantasies. Sadly, we’re too afraid to share. Even worse, we’re taught to be ashamed of loving our bodies. Loving ourselves. There is NOTHING wrong with loving yourself. I’ve battled with this for such a long time but one area that I feel I’ve always been able to truly be open... is all aspects of sexuality.

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