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[theawakeningofthebroken]

Goodbye

This week I have lost one that used to be one of the people I love... My grandma. But I cannot mourn for her because of what she have done to us in the past. When my dad was dying of cancer and me and my siblings was looking for ways and money to get him treated, I found out that she and all my dad's family was lying straight in my face about my dad's money (this was supposed to help him with his medical bill). They said they did whatever they did because because me and my siblings are just gonna use it for our agenda. From all the people that would think I am capable of doing that.... My grandma laid straight in my face... The one that I thought I was the favourite... My favourite grandma. This broke my heart into million piece and till now never to be mend again. I hated her.... I hated them...but I know time like this will come. Now... She's gone and I now I don't know how I feel. And I hate the feeling. It's like a poison in my heart but a poison that I gladly take because I wanted to mask the pain of what she did. I loved her and I think I will always will. But in death she takes my hate with her and the hate I have to live with.

May your soul Rest in Peace and I still love you even when I still hate you.

#Death #Hate #Forgiveness #Love #Diary #Nanay #Acceptance

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Struggling

Dear world,

I am struggling.... Really struggling...

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The Cry

Sea of people yet the sound of the commotion can't hear can't feel

Try to smile yet darkness pull me closer

Trying to grasp air even when I'm out in the open

Breaking all the broken pieces

Cutting me whole

Thought your love have saved me

But it was only a distraction

Justification to the right to feel loved

When you touch me I feel nothing

My heart cries for the love I once I called home

Will you hear me cry when I call your name?

Or will you hear the masked laughter covered with tears

Will I find the road to find

To you to me to everything we shared

Or will I drown and burn  cut myself and die bleeding

Hold me close for I am slowly fading

#Song #Own #Composition #Poem #Love #Hate #Despair #Help #Wanted

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The Start Of The End

Today....

The Start....

The journey....

To the end....

Will you stay....

Or will you just walk away.....

#Diary #Broken #Startoftheend #Misunderstood