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“One of your alters doesn’t like me!”

My dude some of my alters don’t like ME. You ain’t special.

[the-sprite-agency]

Dissociative plural culture is learning something important, and actively feeling it slip away because the other people in your brain won't let you keep it.

Knowing that it's important and knowing that you don't get to keep it because it's potentially harmful. And knowing that it's to keep you safe but still feeling angry that you don't get to make the choice.

Making the decision to stop fighting when it happens, because at least then you can pretend that you're choosing this - 🐦

It's the worst feeling in the world

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im doing simplyplural profiles, and quite a few of us dont have faceclaims

so they're ferrets.

if you dont have a faceclaim, you are now a ferret until proven otherwise

[the-sprite-agency]

plurality is not defined by switching.

plurality is not defined by headcount.

plurality is not defined by an inner world.

plurality is not defined by distinct headmates.

plurality is not defined by communication.

plurality is not defined by getting along internally.

plurality is defined by multiple consciousnesses/identities in one body ((because of trauma)). if you say you’re plural, we and many, many others will always believe you. no two plurals are the same, and no one can tell you what you are or aren’t 💕💕

[the-sprite-agency]

I think if i explained my exact complicated source memories to a singlet they would simply die

[the-sprite-agency]

Hey, shout out to systems with "frustrating" or "socially bad" traits.

systems who seem indecisive, "hot and cold", disloyal, dishonest, etc. to others due to subtle switches, passive influence, being median, amnesia barriers, etc. between headmates with very different opinions, wants, and moods

systems who have headmates with "scary" attributes/symptoms, like hallucinations, delusions, anger issues, hypersexuality, low/no empathy, selfishness, need for attention, etc. especially those afraid they're perpetuating the "evil alter" stereotype

systems who never know who's fronting. especially those with memory barriers, those who struggle with feeling any sense(s) of personhood, and/or those who struggle to keep close bonds with people due to this

systems who struggle with meltdowns, tantrums, outbursts, pathological demand avoidance, poor sense of social norms, and other tendencies/issues that make being social or just existing in public difficult

systems with fluctuating sexualities and/or triggers that make it difficult to remain with a partner/partners (or to date in the first place)

systems who infight in-system and have trouble making decisions without intense internal backlash

systems who have trouble keeping self care (and may go out of the house dirty/disheveled) due to other mental illness or due to frequent fronters being unmotivated, forgetful, or having sensory issues or triggers that interfere with self care tasks

systems whose "self defense" relies on people pleasing, avoiding stressors, getting overly defensive, or getting angrier than "reasonable"

You are loved, you are appreciated, you deserve to be a part of society, you deserve to be happy, you deserve to be understood and given patience... you deserve to be able to create, love, heal, be respected, be treated like your own age, to lead, to have a voice, to feel safe.

[the-sprite-agency]

pluralcutlure is having two introjects who in source fucking despise each other and then in sys they r literally the besties

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What it feels like when one of the trauma holders experiences peace for the first time

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every time I'm in front and another alter that accompanied me leaves I become the audio of "Michael don't leave me here!!!!!".

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how do i uninstall Severe Childhood Trauma

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a reminder that the host isn’t the only person in the system who should be respected and made to feel comfortable.

the host is not ‘the important part’, we are all completely conscious and capable of our own thoughts, feelings and our own boundaries. our brain created us because it decided that we are all important and needed.

the host is not the only member of a system you should care about.

[the-sprite-agency]

you can absolutely have a childhood trauma disorder as a child. btw. you guys are confused with the fact that OSDDID is usually diagnosed as an adult.

[the-sprite-agency]

Bitches in my head having anxiety, call that a nervous system

[the-sprite-agency]

“One of your alters doesn’t like me!”

My dude some of my alters don’t like ME. You ain’t special.

#ill say it before and i'll say it again😭^

[the-sprite-agency]

Here's to the ones with exomemories!

Shoutout to those who:

Are fond of or comforted by their exomemories

Don't like their exomemories

Have exotrauma from their memories

Feel invalid for having exomemories/exotrauma

Have source memories that change over time

Have exomemories which cause them to miss their friends and family

And anyone else! If you experience exomemories, this post is for you!

Whether you rarely get them, or most/all your memories are exomemories in nature, you're so incredibly real and valid!

Drink some water today!

🖤💜💙💚💛

#validation

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Exotrauma is real. We are real, and you are too. Your experiences, your thoughts, your pain is real. The body need not have went through your pain for you to experience the effects of suffering. Exotrauma is still trauma. You still deserve love, care, and peace. We still deserve to heal.

#validation

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It sucks when you've had exotrauma that has caused panic attacks for you multiple times, and it's trauma that the body hasn't experienced anything remotely similar to, and you're also the only one who's experienced it in your system of 50+ people.

And like... I'm glad no one else in-system has experienced it, but still, what am I supposed to do?

Plus I worry about talking about it because I worry about the misconception that exotrauma has to be related to bodily trauma in some way. The body has absolutely not gone through anything like it, and even anonymously pretending to be someone that's physically experienced it here in this world would be too risky. But the fact that the body hasn't experienced it doesn't stop it from having a pervasive, negative impact.

Anyway, exomemories and exotrauma are very real, and if you struggle with it, you're valid.

#thank you :)) #validation