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If you follow Selmers to the poetry society meeting in Night In The Woods, this is her poem. I loved it and the themes of the game, and wanted to use it as practice to see if i can control the way readers ‘hear’ the words through images.

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writing tip:

if you push buttons on a keyboard, letters will appear on the screen. and with that power you can do anything

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A strange alien doctor stands near the unconscious body of Padme Amidala. “It appears she has lost the will to live.” A older man with a limp hobbles closer with the aid of a cane. “That’s the dumbest thing I’ve ever heard,” says Dr. Gregory House.

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marine biology is so scary because it’s such a small field. i was giving a talk on cetaceans and afterward a woman approached me with her husband and she said, “you did very well. [husband’s name] actually pioneered the research and published the first paper on that. We were very impressed by you.”

Which is such a scientific interpretation/public education win I will cherish forever but also for the rest of my life any time I give a talk I will be haunted by the knowledge that the world’s leading expert who literally discovered/invented the topic might be in the room,

which is like, the opposite of what you’re supposed to do for stage fright. In fact I never used to experience stage fright but now I will.

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I don't think I'm a multiple, but in a similar way trans perspective can benefit a cis person, multiples have been great to learn from. Being able to widen the gap between parts of the cohesive self allows you to see inside and see what's very subtle. It makes you less taut, knowing you can.

Even in something simple like deciding what to cook for dinner when you're too tired, there's an impulse that cries out for care and an impulse that's frustrated to be doing this, and it'll sound odd but I tend to take a turn being each and negotiating with the other. The decision's faster and I end up feeling happier with it.

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Apparently people who don't have executive dysfunction think that actually working on something is the hardest part of doing something. And that's why they get mad that you call the rest of the project "easy" after you've finally worked through doing the plan and know what to do when you're working.

So when you're through with the epiphany of how to make it physically possible to make the thing you're making, and you're sharing the plan with excitement, because the hard part is over, and now you only have to get your hands moving and do it, they get mad at you like

"it's not that easy! It's a lot of hard work! >:C"

they mean it, because

to them, working is the hardest part.

They don't have to fight their brains to get started. They don't have to fight their way through making the choices, making the plan, making yourself make the thing. People who don't suffer from executive dysfunction think that the hardest part is actually doing the thing.

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how come I get served ads for fleshlights every time I open this godforsaken app and then I scroll 2 posts down from the video ad displaying a sex toy being used on a piece of corn to an entirely sfw post that has been flagged mature because it mentioned that trans women exist. which like obviously would be terrible moderating practices regardless, but is made all the more insulting by the implication that a video advertising a sex toy by demonstrating it on a vegetable is somehow less sexually explicit than a comic featuring a trans girl catching public transit and thinking about being trans. actually unreal it is obscene not only to double and triple commit to transmisogyistic moderating when whoever is doing the ad approvals (IF a human even looked at them, which I doubt) is like yeah show them the corn fleshlight ad. I can't open this app in public for fear of being blasted by this fucking ad please for the love of god I can't look at this piece of corn being lubed up any longer. I'm not tagging this post or putting a warning/label on it bc staff put 0 warnings FOR ME when I opened this app on the train this morning I mean jesus christ it wasn't even 9am yet. fuck!

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here we go again

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Unlearning How White People Ask Personal Questions

http://www.samefacts.com/2014/05/culture-and-civil-society/unlearning-how-white-people-ask-personal-questions/

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“oh no we need to practice for our fake dating” is the funniest trope to me cause like. there are so many people who force themselves into a shitty relationship they hate just because of amatonormatiivity that it’s an ingrained part of popular culture to joke about hating your partner.

which is to say, oh my god you dont need to hold hands and go on fake dates, you don’t even need to agree on a single detail of your cover story beforehand. you can literally stand 6 feet apart at all times and look profoundly uncomfortable and all anyone will think is “yikes™. not my problem”