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From Wednesday to Friday I was spoiled. Then suddenly the weekend began and I haven’t seen her for a day and now I’m dying and I can’t stop thinking about her stupid dumb stupid smile and her dum dum exaggerated hand movements and exclamations

help

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I don’t want to go too much into specifics but today was rough in that I was put into a situation that... caused me to be put on blast.

It had to make a pitch for a (very low stakes NGL) project, and the idea put onto my group is as plausible as... democracy in North Korea - not impossible but highly unlikely at this given time.

By the end of the Q&A session, after I’ve been berated by 3 separate people (grown adults, mind you) D steps in and basically obliterates them. She came to my defence and I just... fuzzy chest feelies

I’m grateful, I’m so fucking grateful. I was just about to burst into tears before she stepped in. God I love her so much. We walked to the train station together again. She checked in with me, ranted about the people from earlier, and we took a short stroll in a department store before arriving to the station.

Today didn’t go smoothly but, fuck, did it end beautifully.

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WALKED TO THE TRAIN WITH HER TODAY AGAIN!! SHE ASKED ME FOR ADVICE WITH EYELINER. IM SCREAMING.

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I created my last post whilst under the assumption that I wouldn’t see her in-person again. But my plans of getting over her were foiled today as she was allowed to tag along for a three day field trip on which half the kids in my grade went; including me.

We talked. A lot. She’s just really talkative in general but it’s been so long since I’ve been in such an elongated state of bliss. And by the end of the trip, we walked to the train together, alone. God it was amazing, I’m grinning like a fucking dumbass also I think I just missed my stop-

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Ok for the sake of my mental health (and because I’m reaching the end of the honeymoon stage of this crush) I’m gonna try to get over her.

We’ll see if it works lol. It might, honestly, if I manage to attach myself to something/someone else but, like, again, we’ll see.

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I found her insta a few weeks back but now that more than one of my classmates follow her it’s not weird if I pop in for a follow too 👀

Jk I’m fucking curled up in a ball panicking lol let’s see how this goes

Edit: ok she requested to follow back thank fuck I’m gonna wait a few min before accepting because I don’t wanna seem too eager 🥴🥴🥴🥴🤡

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🤡 this is why I don’t get work done 🤡

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That’s it. She’s not coming back to school. She’s left and I probably won’t be seeing her until graduation (which she pROMISED that she’s attend for me so fingers fucking crossed). I miss her so much. Our homeroom teacher got back from maternity leave and, though I’m glad to see her, I wish that the school would’ve allowed D to stay as, maybe, a secondary figure in the classroom, rather than have her leave immediately.

I wasn’t able to get D’s contacts the last time I saw her, since I was in a rush to get to class, but I sWEAR I FUCKING WILL when I see her at grad.

I just can’t stop thinking about her and her stupid dumb goofy laugh.

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Fuuuuck why’d I have to like a substitute teacher. I see all of my other teachers 10x more often than I see her 😪

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Gahh I miss watching her crazy fucking curly hair bounce along to her... bouncing. (She‘s probably high on caffeine 24/7 lol)

I wonder if it’s as fluffy as it looks. 🥴🤡

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I got to see her today which is fucking awesome since nowadays she spends most of her time in the AP testing room doing proctor shit.

Anyway, she ran up to me and started telling me about... a sapphic author (I don’t know why I’m still trying to make our interactions somewhat vague when everything I’ve talked about on here are super specific but I digress) and a book that said author wrote. It was ultimately a somewhat purposeless exchange but it felt so fucking good to once again be able to talk to her for more than 20seconds at a time. She’s so passionate about books and literature and watching her just talking about something she loves makes me super happy.

I listened to Joyfulthought by Mom on the bus home. I’m flying.

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Look (friend’s name), I realise that she’s 23 years older than me but in my defence her boyfriend is 20 years older than her so maybe this isn’t as unhealthy as it appears to be,,,,

Yeah, D’s boyfriend (which I’m still surprised that she’s dating a man because her mannerisms basically scream gay ((so I’m hoping that she’s bi lol))) is 20 years older than her which idk why but this gives me a touch of hope-

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Me getting fucking triggered when she talks to anyone other than myself 😩🤡

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Lmao so D might be leaving after the AP exams end (she’s proctoring) so I fUCKING HOPE THAT SHE PROCTORS FOR MY NEXT ONE BECAUSE JESUS SHIT I BETTER GET SOME SORT OF CONTACT FROM HER BEFORE ITS TOO LATE.

I’m screaming, I’ll miss her. I’ve been in denial about this prior to today, but it’s somewhat confirmed and I’m sad. I’m hoping that the school hires her officially (she’s a sub for my homeroom teacher who just got back from maternity leave) so that I can see her if I ever visit, but if that’s not an option then I gotta talk to her next week. Please. I haven’t seen her for so long she’s just been holed up in the exam room I’m in constant suffering.

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My English teacher told me that apparently D talks about me a lot. This makes me super happy lmao idk I’m just kinda really fuckin happy that she thinks of me outside of our interactions.

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I can’t stop thinking about her so I guess I’ll just gush about her on here.

First post. I promised myself that I’d just be a silent spectator in this community but I’ve been thinking a lot about my TC (let’s call her... D) recently and I just want to scream about everything I love about this woman... in text form because I don’t want to annoy the one friend of mine who knows of my... uhh... situation... with my hyperfixations.

My English teacher figured out that I had a crush on D. He didn’t directly state it, but he implied multiple times that he had his suspicions. I’m pretty darn close with this teacher and he is also pretty well acquainted with D, so I kinda gave in and let him know that, “yeah you fuckin got me you want a cookie?” by acting all flustered (albeit doing so involuntarily). I mean, I don’t know what my English teacher plans to do with this info other than to playfully tease me about it every 10 minutes but tbh it’s a bit of a relief to have someone else at least know of what’s going on in my fucking head whenever I’m being a dumbass around D.

Now, on to my fucking monologue about D.

Jesus fuck, where do I start? She’s a fucking weirdo. I’ve never met anyone else with mannerisms so similar to those of my ADHD ridden ass, and yet she is shameless about her loud jokes and wild movements and sudden breaks into dance. I fucking grin and chuckle like a dumbass every 10 seconds when around her.

We share similar names, as in my name is a shorter variation of her own, kind of like how “John” is derived from “Johnathan”. I guess that this piece of info isn’t really important but my touch-starved ass takes pleasure in the fact that we share a mild bond due to it.

This lady is fucking hilarious, and she can talk for hours and I would just have to listen to her talking, and admire her as she goes in on a tangent (possibly jokingly but I can’t tell sometimes) about something mundane that annoyed her, or some embarrassing event that took place 2 decades ago when she was in high school. And then she switches from her tone of (possibly ironic) annoyance to something more gentle as she addresses me.

Aight so I feel better now. Also I’m tired so I guess I’ll just butcher this post here. Thanks @ the -2 people who’d just sat through this feverdream lmao

P.s. I’m 18 so uhh I guess it’s less illegal than it would’ve been if I were a year younger peepeepoopoo 🤡🥴

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