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learning my love language is reciprocity.

but there's good and bad in that.

the good thing is, im gonna treat you like the Queen that you are. giving you the best of me, with nothing back.

The bad thing is, if I don't receive the same, im going to let you go.

loving without expecting anything in return is beautiful in fairytales, in real life, mature love requires a delicate balance between giving and receiving, everything that isn't mutual, turns out to be toxic.

also.. i can't do bare minimum

my love seems too expensive to me, to have by my side, someone who doesn't love me the same.

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you gained more than you could have imagined..

but at what cost big dawg.

she was more than you could have ever imagined same way..

this is a crazy lil journey,

ima be honest, im gon look back on these years from now and smile

#life #ItIsWhatItIs #Alhamdulillah

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hate that lil mood i get in where it feel like all i need is her..

and that's the one thing i can't have, Her. that line is realer now than it ever was.

funny how this the exact same mood fuxked it up for me in the first place.. wanted her, couldn't have her, so i filled the void with something that doesn't even come close to.. but this time it's different, im in control.. no longer that lil boy overwhelmed by emotions

the mood just annoying is all 😮‍💨

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"regardless of the situation or circumstances, if she wanted to be here, she'd be here.."

and just hearing that, flicked a switch in me

the reality of it, broke something inside me, but it fixed something else all at the same time..

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i genuinely fuxking wish you were here.. 😔

they say he always gives you better than what he took away.. ima be honest, i not sure i wanna hear all that, I just want Her.

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craziest part about my life rn is who im here with. not the what, where or how.

i know myself, so i knew I'd be here, the how was never my business.. how Allah chooses to do his thing is all him. but the who!?!

see, i thought id break bread with the ones I starved with, come up with the ones that held you down youknow? that's just how my programming is 😅

but erybody folded.

i put that ride or die shit to the test & im surprised still breathing, I kid you not, when twas time to ride, e v e r y b o d y f o l d e d . .

realised i was riding this one out solo, had to hold a memorial service and erything..

lately i find myself being grateful for it all thou, even for the ones that bailed at my lowest, might sound dumb but I needed that.

i had to hit rock bottom to realize them rock at the bottom is something I can bag up 💰🤑

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last night of my 1st stay. nothing but grateful for the experience.. alhamdulillah

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Guyana

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No one cares, work harder.

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they asked “do you love her to death?”

I said “speak of her over my grave and watch how she brings me back to life.”

-Mahmoud Darwish

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savage tf up and handle yuh scn Q

the reality is, you are alone on this one.. All Of It.

fuxk the opinions, fuxk the perspectives, fuxk the naysayers

you're the only one who is actually gonna feel the upside or fallout anyways..

trust yourself, trust the process, trust in Allah 🤲🏾

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honestly, I don't know the exact details.. but I know it will all work out exactly the way it was ment to 🤲🏾

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As A Retired Liar & Manipulator I Know When Somebody Lying & Tryna Manipulate Me 🤗

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took me a while to get here, but iv grown to realize my love language is reciprocity.

you can get anything from me, literally. im a giver and i lack boundaries, there's no limit to how much id give.

but you gotta be pouring into me, just as much as im pouring into you..

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once you've experienced a TRULY feminine woman

it's hard going back to fighting them tigers, bears, and silverbacks. 💯🙌🏾

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Teach your son🙎 NOT to move in a woman's house 🏠

get his OWN everything..