I saw your oc requests were up and I couldn’t resist! Your art is gorgeous !
Thanks! Your art is incredible I’m honoured that you’d ask me. The character looks really interesting too! I hope I did them justice.
im closing all new requests cuz I got more than I thought I would - I’ll try to do everyone who asked.
I need someone to behold me in terror. I need someone to see me and scream, "WHAT IN THE 20 LEVELS OF THE ABYSS IS /THAT/?!" I need people to be horrified by my very existence. I need to be so incomprehensible that the unfortunate souls who gaze upon me can not even truly describe what they saw. I need to make someone go mad because they saw my true form. I need people to tell horror stories about me. I need people to shudder as they think of the dragon-shaped monster from the 20th level of the abyss that spits acid from its fangs so deadly it can melt mountains and causes storms just be flapping it's wings.
I try not to be the "why do I have responsibilities I'm a dragon" type of alterhuman but my goodness today I really want to fuck off and light things on fire.
yall i think im making that raccoon linktype. i want to be a raccoon, i love their mannerisms and behaviour quirks and i feel like being raccoonlink would be a fun experience. wont post about it much though other than the occasional moodboard, but yeah. just so you know :D
[ * ARHRRGRGHJRGHRGH this is finally DOOOONEEEEE ]
[ * I've never done such rendering with this method before (painted it and picked the colors by hand in a layer above the sketch/lineart and base color layer) and it turned out SO SO WELL ]
[ * I also wanted to give it a touch of computer-screen-ish-look because that just adds so nicely ]
[ * Took 8 hours in total, drawn on Krita along with a Wacom Intuos S tablet ]
[ * Feels nice to draw my dragon kintype :} i haven't really done a fully-rendered drawing of myself in a while ]
[ * Also a small attempt at poetry... alterhuman poetry.... i don't really write poetry so apologies if it's wonky :P but i'm personally happy about it! ]
i think the greatest and most unfortunate parallel i see in the therian community that i also saw in the trans community is a certain level of identifying with the pain of species dysphoria instead of identifying with what makes you a therian. species dysphoria can fucking suck but it’s not required to be a therian, it’s never been required, it never will be, and even those who know this will still lash out at the idea that some of us find joy in also being human. i could never share my art with the world otherwise. i’m part of this badass species that builds upon technology and preserves knowledge from over a thousand years ago. we have an incredible wealth of culture and experience available to us and that’s fucking magical!!
grieve as much as you need to. grieve the fact that you’ll never quite have the life you want. if you experience this pain, it’s very real, and you need to process it. and at some point, on the other side of grief, you need to let go. let go of wishing for the life you’ll never have, and figure out what you can do with the one you’re living, to bring it more in line with your authentic animal self. don’t take this chance for granted. this body is capable of many wonderful things. i felt the same joy about being trans when i recognized that this experience gives me a unique perspective on the world—and i realized that, had i gone through a different puberty, been raised as the other binary gender, i still would’ve been trans. i would’ve gone on estrogen. i would’ve pushed myself through the black morass of grief, discovering along the way that i’m in charge of becoming who i want to be. i would’ve found joy.