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Liberation of suffering is knowing oneself completely

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It’s one of those days again. A thought spurs into a moment when I just feel like I don't want to do it anymore. It feels too overwhelming, too complicating, too deep, too much. I am tired of living so dependently on what others feel and how others see me. I'm tired of not being so powerful and confident that it shows. 

I close myself in and I don't want to to let in anyone because the feelings are too painful. Like they can be so misunderstood.I want to feel the feeling but what do you do when you just don't want to feel it again. 

I enjoy my job and I think it could be fun, however im just out of it. Out of reality. Tapped out. Too much in Piscean dream like head. Sometimes I feel so comfortable in being in my head, thinking about what could be, what I am, what i'm not, what I need to work on, what this feeling feels like- that I unground myself heavily. And I don't want to make the efforts in this life. 

Ive created this complex that if I could help it, I will try to hide that pitiness, shameful person of who I am. I am over being in this paradox and I wish I can have the magic solution to resolve it - so I can . Or maybe I do, but I think its too hard I believe that there has to be another way. 

I never realized how filled with fear it’s been. Navigating tat fear has been cripiling for me. 

I am powerful

I confident

I am properous

I am loving

I am me

If I cant see it, not else will.

9/14/20

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My inner child

Know Each Other.

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Become more in tune with yourself. Your true self. The self beneath the name, the clothes, and the personality. The self that radiates your essence. That thrives within the silent mind. That sees beyond all physical barriers and labels of the world. Once you find this self of yours, there is no more need to search, but instead moments of endless blissful discovery.

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My beautiful, peaceful, strong home. Love meditating here.

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I simply cannot take anymore abut George Floyd. I can’t take anymore of separation. We are all one.

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(by tiffpenguin)

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Everyone wants to talk about whose fault is it. We know racism is real, however, does anyone even have a plan on what to do about it.

Like we can scream, the water dam broke, but anyone want to propose real ideas on how to fix it aside from just holistic understanding?

Anyone?

5.27.2020

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I am so tired of these waves of doom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to be happy. All the time.

Is it my self, my empathy, or the keto flu?

So frustrated.

5.21.20

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Spoke to Nakita yesterday. She thinks that I’m ready for seeing me every other month. I don’t know how to feel about. Half of me is happy she thinks I’m improving, the other side of me thinks that I have more to go and cover.

Let’s see. I really look forward to seeing her every other week but it may just be a codependency creating.

5.20.20

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I think the key to a happy life as an adult woman is to channel your inner weird little girl and make her happy