#your brain is so fucking rotten that I'm asking for help and you are complementing me

[mynameisbillandimaheadcase]

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#the next person that complements me when i mention that im very skinny is getting smacked #that's why i hate diet culture #your brain is so fucking rotten that I'm asking for help and you are complementing me #and it's never “I'm so skinny haha'' #i always say that I'm underweight and keep loosing weight #and for some fucking reason their response is always yeah your body looks so good i could never #i shouldn't either #but something isn't working right and hasn't since i was an infant #i sometimes just don't feel hungry and i just don't eat #and especially in therapy i get called lucky #so i never continue talking about how i managed to connect hunger with something positive #so now when i feel hungry i feel good about myself and when i don't i just don't eat bc i really struggle #it's not normal sustaining yourself with one or two small meals #but i can't help and feel good about my body #i shouldn't #my body is weak #i want to build muscle but i can't bc my body needs that energy