#ya but then something else happens and im like oh nvm im okay

[1smolbean]

ok rant (? started out as a rant but descended into chaos) time

no but I find it absolutely fucking hilarious that my parents are like "oh just move on from your trauma" and then don't tell me how to do that, trigger me even when I've told them about my triggers, make me talk to people that trigger me, and make me go to places that trigger me. like...ya think maybe, just maybe, that, idk, I might have trouble moving on from those events if I have to relive them all the time? and I've explained it to them but they just refuse to understand it and they don't understand the word "no" either and I just,,,find this the funniest thing ever cause like they don't fucking understand! they don't! and I've told them but they refuse to! and I'm laughing this is so funny they refuse to understand

I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING I'M SORRY THIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY LIKE THEY REFUSE TO UNDERSTAND IT AND I,,,,,I JUST JKDJFKDLSJFLDKJFD THEY REFUSE TO GET IT AND THIS IS THE FUNNIEST THING EVER THEY REFUSE TO HELP THEIR CHILD LIVE A HAPPY LIFE

what kind of parent does that? a shitty one. they're the most hypocritical people I've ever met cause THEY'VE moved on from their trauma and they respect each other's triggers and my brother's triggers but like,,,not mine and why? CAUSE THEY'RE BAD AT THEIR JOB. THEY'RE BAD PARENTS and I'm literally laughing so hard this is so funny to me and my mother has said before that she is proud of me for not skipping school because she assumed I would but she's proud that I haven't. like,,,,wow okay I literally have no reason whatsoever to skip school though??? why would you assume that? and idk I just find it hilarious that my mother both expects me to get an A+ on every subject and also skip school. like bitch excuse me? that's...HHJFDHSFKHFDSKH THAT'S FUNNY IT'S FUNNY THIS IS FUNNY. I'M SORRY. I'M REALLY SORRY THIS IS HILARIOUS TO ME AND I WROTE OUT A WHOLE GODDAMN RANT ABOUT THIS BUT IT'S JUST THREE PARAGRAPHS OF ME BEING LIKE "MY PARENTS' HORRIBLE TREATMENT OF ME IS FUNNY" AND LIKE...IT IS THOUGH!

I feel like Alvar Vacker and Winter Schnee right now. like I just,,,this is so funny but I also want to stab something right now. is this normal? I don't think this is normal. I should talk to a therapist or doctor but I'm my own therapist and everybody else's too and idk it just seems...wrong to burden people with MY problems when they have their own. i should stop telling people when I'm sad, they don't need that. No, no but they care. why do they, though? my parents "care." they yell at me, say I'm not enough, tell me it's hard to take care of me, but they care. I guess. i think they care. caring is bad. caring for someone is bad. i shouldn't...i shouldn't trust people, because trust gets you hurt. and i hate being hurt. and i shouldn't care about people. i shouldn't care. do i even care? did i ever care? yes. but i won't anymore.

I have gone back to wishing I could acquaint a ridgdly edged object fundamentally used in the construction of walls with my biological father's facial structure. (translation: ok nvm I wanna hit my dad in the face with a brick)

maybe if you didn't yell at me i wouldn't listen to music so loudly. father

father (derogatory)

i am going to lie down on the floor and listen to Special Girl by dodie until i die

i'm the eldest daughter but I'm not a daughter i'm a son but my parents don't care

i feel nothing but the crushing weight of responsibility on my shoulders

I believe I need a counselor, or therapist, or- no, I have one already, I'm my own therapist

I can deal with this on my own

hey mother when you look through my tumblr and read this PLEASE GET ME SOME ANTIDEPRESSANTS OR ADHD MEDS IM NOT DOING TOO GOOD

the powerpuff girls reboot script made me speedrun the five stages of grief I hate it so much

cats opening partially closed doors with their FACES is wild and I love it

I want more soda.

everything hurts and I'm dying

Okay so what the hell happened here Nina please get yourself into shape you need to figure out why you did a 180 from being sad to being angry to being sad to being angry and also that gender can fluid you really be switching from "gender is for mortals" to "none gender left boy" with your emotions too

this picture of Winter Schnee perfectly encapsulates my mood right now

im in pain everybody! were in pain! specifically in my chest! what the hell is happening with my lungs

nevermind we're good now

YOU WILL NEVER HAVE TO HURT THE WAY YOU KNOW THAT I DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I FEEL LIKE I'LL BE OKAY AND I HOPE I CAN JUST MAINTAIN IT I WILL NOT LET MYSELF BECOME MY PROBLEM

AND I'M JUST WAITING FOR THE DAY YOU SAVE ME FROM MYSELF 'CAUSE I CAN'T HELP THE WAY I FEEL FOR YOU FOR YOU

AND WRITE IN EVERY SPACE THE WORDS "I LOVE YOU" IN REPLACE THEN MAYBE TIME WOULD NOT ERASE MEEEEE IF YOU COULD ONLY KNOW I'D NEVER LET YOU GOOOO AND THE WORDS I MOST REGRET ARE THE ONES I NEVER MEANT TO LEEEEEEAAAAVEEEEEEEE UNSAID EMILYYYYYYYYYY

*muffled sobbing*

it's projecting onto fictional characters with trauma hours everybody

DO OR DIE YOU'LL NEVER MAKE ME BECAUSE THE WORLD WILL NEVER TAKE MY HEART GO AND TRY YOU'LL NEVER MAKE ME WE WANT IT ALL WE WANNA PLAY THIS PARY I WON'T EXPLAIN OR SAY I'M SORRY I'M UNASHAMED I'M GONNA SHOE MY SCARS GIVE A CHEAR FOR ALL THE BROKEN LISTEN HERE BECAUSE IT'S WHO WE ARE

hey remember that "fuck therapy I'm becoming a knight" post I spam reblogged yeah that's my current mood rn

anyway that concludes round one of my annual mental breakdown don't worry I'll be back in approximately five minutes after drinking an entire bottle of soda

#don't even know what to tag this with so just. lmk if you want this tagged #coco's annual mental breakdown #that is a tag I'm making that a tag #anyway yes I'm fine either join in on the chaos or leave me alone please

[thewomaninlilywhite]

Miss Peregrine’s Movie Reactions

I finally watched this movie on a flight last weekend.

***WARNING CONTAINS SPOILERS*** NOT JUST FOR THE MOVIE, I REFERENCE THINGS FROM ALL THREE BOOKS AS WELL anything with various *** marks is something I didn’t fact check, so I apologize if I am actually wrong about any of those

Sorry that this is so freaking long, but I had issues Also, these are the things I wanted to say to my screen, so I don’t have context for them, sorry

Short Version: I thought the movie itself was well done, but it’s an awful adaption

I didn’t know Georgia Pemberton was in this Opening credits music cuts off oddly Who is this chick driving him Abe doesn’t sound Polish ?? Did it really take that long to get to his house? Aight Sam Jackson I miss Spike (I know that isn’t his name) - like, I don’t think this chick has a gun on her Chick = Shelley Oh she does But it’s a .38 not a .44*** so… I feel like this happened rather fast? Don’t think that’s a letter opener either Find Emerson - it’s “find the old man, get to the bird in the loop” or whatever 1943???? Not 1940 Who tf is Emerson Told him what, we haven’t even been told about the stories ????? WTF is that. That is NOT a hollowghast A hollow is only like 8-10 feet not 3 f king stories (unless I misread the books) ——-side note: I always subconsciously pictured the hollows as something (from some movie or something) that I know they didn’t actually look like buttttt) Who’s this shrink. Shouldn’t she be Sam Jackson - what? Case. CLOSED - sorry AWE “everything’s already been discovered” - iconic!!! Tikrisko?? -  Yakov!! NO Jake doesn’t see the pictures until they’re going through the house ?? What is this He doesn’t know what Miss Peregrine’s name is nor that she can turn into a bird He’s not supposed to know the names Bronwyn is older No Emma can create fire, olive floats THIS IS OLIVE Nope, Alma found him. He wasn’t sent this. His family died Doesn’t know what hollows look like. Finds that out when Abe dies All these Jakes are adorable Can they not say Nazis? Because he’s being very nondescriptive The surprise party ong Why are there twins. I’m uncomfortable oh my gosh the essays, at least they did something right Shouldn’t the letter be from Emma ugh So that’s Goland? what the heck Oh now they bring up the birdwatching The doctor isn’t supposed to know about the home*** Cairnholm - good Nope I’m yelling Not supposed to see the bird until they’re in the room And his father isn’t supposed to know Alma Ugh 19 minutes in and I’m screaming I relate to Jake on a spiritual level Whet Defeats the whole sneaking away trust ugh He’s so tiny YAS he shoulda said piss instead of priest but the  rap was nearly verbatim* What is this river? Where’s the sheep shack Wondrous Exactly how i pictured it Where’s the old man Oh that’s how Emerson falls in Jake is supposed to have his own room ugh Oh so he is sneaky But where’s the cairn AND THE OLD MAN the twins aren’t introduced until the second book Enoch’s lair is supposed to be in the basement -The kids and the hole. It’s iconic They’re not supposed to address him Whet I hate this I don’t even know where to begin the twins shouldn’t exist And Millard shouldn’t have clothes on There’s just so many issues This is not a bog UGH this is not wrong it’s sickening the twins are pissing me off oh my gosh -Tim just fell in love with them, didn’t he Okay, the cairn is not how I imagined it but I’ll live They literally didn’t even address the priest hole This is 20s music not 40s ong Goodness Oh now he stripped Why is Millard like 7 And he hasn’t even formally met Emerson yet what is going on He’s not supposed to be taken He’s not supposed have this much information yet Whet Olive and Emma’s powers are switch gosh This like isn’t Yea Alma? Kinda appreciate it though like #relatable And Enoch is supposed to be much younger I give up. I’m going to take a break until Goland arrives … if he arrives GEORGIA IS FIONA OH MY GOSH. I CAN OVERLOOK THE HAIR BECAUSE I LOVE HER Imbrin NOT Imbrine - book 3 literally tells you this Now I’m on break 30 minutes later…Jk: Yes Enoch/Victor Hi bird man - you’re ANOTHER new actor “Air - it does what I want” - what does that even mean olive. I mean Emma Since olive’s supposed to be like 10 the photographs At least some are taken from the books Baron - so like forget Jack/Bentham Guess there won’t be sequels rip Hollows can’t enter loops I’m still annoyed by this At least they got the tentacle right Actually it was controlling them but you don’t know that yet Oh, so they ARE  called hollows - good Disaster of 1908 - wait. Is the experiment address in the first book**** Because if not this means that Burton has read the other books and there should not be this many issues Oh so Burton Didn’t acknowledge the immortality first Well it’s the souls in the first book But the third book acknowledged the eyes so… THEREFOR there should be more hollows than that jeez Disaster of 1908 - Siberia - ANYTHING ??? Oh, second book ref So bird man’s not one of the identities? Jk he probs is Yup whey No. That’s not it. There are several issues Yea? Hollows. Can’t. Enter. Loops The twins are annoying me Is it a hint that there won’t be a sequel Whey IT CANT ARRIVE HERE GAH Alma my bby This would be so much better if it was Jack cuz I love any good sibling showdown Or, are they setting up a second? but they can’t with the whole baron thing because if he’s not her brother, he can’t disguise himself as a falcon Miss Avocet is still with them ?? *sings* she should have been kidnapped toooo That’ll surely screw up the space/time continuum There we go Wait. Did it just eat her?? So much for a sequel That thing shouldn’t even be there Oh wait, yes it can cuz it’s an evolved one. Right!!!!!!!!! If they’re not doing a sequel, they better not kill Fiona and Claire now* awe they never got to bury Victor’s body… Ugh, but the freezer scene is iconic No lighthouse scene either Wait, there’s an half hour left ?? And why Blackpool and not London - what are you doing with your life Really The tiny boat though !!! Goodness I’m so mad Right, of course, let’s steal the sunken CRUISE SHIP No she won’t, because they’re in 1940 But it’s 1940 1943, way after the disaster of 1908 so it doesn’t work that way You literally CREATED plot holes Bloody hell You’re literally wrong Aughck Still saying Ymbryne wrong… What are you doing So no other movies… rip #salty Oh it’s blackpool instead of london because it’s closer to wales. gotcha Oh look, they reference London and the loop in the tube —but not the one in ST. PAUL’S ya know, WHERE THEY FIND THE TWINS ————-AKA the key inspiration for my crossover fic that’ll never happen Where’d everyone else go The story book is one of the best parts of the series, c'mon Whey What are those *eye roll* SIEZE ONE YAKOV and this is books two She literally left those shoes at the home what is this inconsistency ??? Sorry, no sympathy, Malthus That sounds like your problem So unnecessary Such a Burton Movie-esque score jeez Actually LAUGHED at the hollow getting hit by a car goodness Well, that’s one way to kill a Wight Wait, was it ever acknowledged that they’re called wights? Oh, of course, skeletons What is this music I just want Jake to shoot Baron What the f YAKOV They got the black blood thing* —-that was a thing, right I’m over it oh poor you Eye-dly ??? I hate myself Why are they turning into animals ??? What is Horace’s peculiarity supposed to be in this because it’s like wrong ??? Death by flowers - I appreciate it Nope Cuz Enoch just carries hearts on him wait, that’s actually true nvm WHERE did that elephant come from so the twins are medusa? cause I just thought their scream was piecing Cuz then that stone thing’s so not their pecu- I give up Oh, Fiona and Claire are little so let’s kill Olive WHICH IS IRONIC BECAUSE SHES LIKE 10 IN THE BOOKS oh, true love’s kiss wakes the dead. OKAY I’m so done I don’t even know what’s happening anymore Was that supposed to be funny? YAS Alma Hopefully it’s not Alma though Why is she blue ? I just processed that Why would he stop him Oh right shape shifting Ugh IM PECULIAR yo. You’re opportunity was right there WAIT IS HE CONTROLLING IT but does it count if it’s a wight’s eyes Like, why would a hollow attack a wight UNLESS JAKE MADE IT So, no one’s dead? but how is he supposed to get home - you don’t have an Ymbryme !! Wait Alma’s alive nvm So are they gonna kiss or what Well okay then Aren’t they in 1943 though ?? Nice timing Shouldn’t he have missed calls from his dad? Why is Abe alive? Oh, right. blah Why I just I’m cringing No, you’re supposed to say “but you know WHEN they are” Goodness Right of course. So he’s just gonna live in 1943 now okay Do his parents like even know ANYTHING Are they dead? Sure okay Wow right LONDON Oh now they kiss It’s titanic I love Georgia Damn, it was Alma Why isn’t she with them, she’s their Ymbryne Oh they just needed the dramatic shot Mary Poppins is a rogue Ymbryne Crossover fic - it’s happening I actually started writing it when I reread the books over winter break, but haven’t committed to it because of ALNF… What is this credits music ?? I just don’t even know what to say I think I would have enjoyed it if I never read the books but since I did… AND NO SEQUEL the whole Devil’s Acre sequence is sick (and I also love Sharon) and I also just wrote an essay on these books sooo

Well, there. Here are my thoughts on Tim Burton’s Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children

If you actually read all these, mad props. Shoot me an ask and let’s chat about it

#Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children #Warning: Spoilers #Hollow City #Library of Souls #Tim Burton #Miss Peregrine's Peculiar Children #Ransom Riggs #let's chat #jillian rants #but I jeté #lefay

[harrystylomylozzffjeje]

Dear soul mate/Best Friend, 

im writing this because I feel like a need to do it and I don't know why but here goes nothing HAHA. First of all I wanna thank you for coming into my life from 2014 it was hella fun knowing a dumb ass person like you, remember how we started out as friends? HAHAH me you akid rinesh were in a chat group and we would talk about the most stupid and retarded things and constantly making fun of people HAHAH hais its funny how times have changed, well in 2015 I guess we both started to develop feelings for each other out of nowhere and I guess thats how it all started right? HAHA this journey that we had throughout our life was kinda fun despite all the fights we had , its kinda sad to see how things are right now but isokay I've come to a point where I have to understand that I can't be selfish for someones else happiness, I feel like im always dragging you down cause im too clingy and shit haha im sorry if I am like that, u don't understand how much u mean to me ok nvm ignore the bullshit let me jump straight to the point. Its been very hard for me these past few weeks altho I act like im okay but im not man idk why its so stupid to miss u altho you've completely crushed me but all is good sooner or later ill just get used to the pain and move on , I even made a spam account posting all our picture everyday I miss u// think of you haha,  I heard from my friends that you've been talking/seeing someone and thats good!!! like on a real im happy for you. I mean it was probably faster than what I expected but who cares maybe you had been talking to him before we parted ways but thats okay, as long as your happy I am . To the new guy you're currently seeing please take good care of her bro please treat her like a fucking princess, shower her with all the love she needs, be there for her at 3am, stay up late to talk to her I mean if she means something to you isn't she more worth it than your sleep?, send her goodnight/goodmorning texts so that she can sleep properly, call her constantly so that she will feel loved/important,tell her that you love her everyday, be her shoulder to lean on when she's down or sad, bring her out on dates, make her happy, endure when she's on her period cause I know she can get real fucking moody when she's on her period but she's worth the pain in the ass, get her chocolates or whatever that makes her happy when she's down, whenever you guys fight learn how to cool down she may say a few nasty things whenever she's angry but whatever she says she dosen’t mean it so don't worry she’ll probably say sorry for whatever she said 1-2 days later,  accept her flaws, get excited whenever you see her, please take care of her okay because she holds my heart// this is sort of a appreciation/goodbye post sozzzz thats why I decided to put all the photos of us from 2014 till now, HAHA if you ever do see this I just wanna say thank you for showing me what is it like to be truly loved by someone, thank you for the bittersweet memories we had thank you for being the first girl to bring me out on my birthday HAHAH still very thankful for that , damn I was so down to spend my whole life with you but....haha shit happens, im sorry that I can't be there for you anymore since...haha but whatever it is from the bottom from my heart I wanna thank you for the things you've done for me like really I can't thank you enough, thank you for being my first true love, thank you for annoying me everyday on a daily basis, thank you for FaceTiming me just to see my face or whenever you wanna fall asleep, all these things that you do for me may seem small to you but it means a whole lot to me, I can go on with more things but I don't want to write a whole fucking essay out HAHA soooooooo thats all I guess...? and if anybody ask me about you ill just tell them that you're actually a good person on the inside and I know that cause I know your heart OH YA and please don't give up on school pls pls pls the last thing you wanna give up on is your studies because without a cert you can't really get a job I mean its for your own good and you're future, ok lah but at the end of the day I just want you to be happy with whatever you do okay?  

take care//think of me once in awhile 

see u around- 

goodbye;

[ashleelorayne-blog]

Trish.

I have a best friend. Her name is Trish. (Not her real name) we've been best friends for 2 long years. One of the first times trish has come over to my house all day she played on my phone and computer. We were gonna go outside so I went out and built like 2 snow men I think waiting for her. Like about 3 hours later (it got dark by the way) I went inside but as I was leaving my backyard trish just barely came out. I shook my head 'no' and we went inside. I was so sad. And she did that for like a month. She would come to my house and play on my computer, my phone, or my PlayStation. It got so bad I had to hide them from her in my parents room. I needed my phone to charge one night so I hid it in my room where it was on the charger, she found it and was on it all night. How I know this is because my phone was dead when I got on it. She did that with my computer too. And so on. But as we developed more into friends she began to stop. Well, kinda. I changed my password on my phone so many times because Trish would always go on it without my permission and look through all my stuff, like read my personal notes about my crush and depression. But she'd always make me give the password to her. Pretty long before this, she and Becky, (not her real name again) were known as "the popular kids" well, in 5th grade at least. I wanted to hang out with them because (I have no clue.) and I would follow them around at recess (like how the other people did) and they would walk another way then a different way so I was basically chasing after them. Until me and Becky became really good friends, then Trish got mad that Becky said I was her best friend when Trish was her best friend, it was all just so confusing. I stepped out because I didn't want to be involved and look where that got me. You'll understand when I continue the story. ANYWAY while me and Trish became friends "someone" vandalized in the girls bathroom saying "Becky is a brat a slut and a bitch" and Becky told everyone that it was me. When I found out it was at the end of the day at school and we were packing up to leave, then I start crying like a little baby and my teacher, miss kinn, (again not her real name) starts asking why, then I tell her and she confronted Becky about it and asked why she said that and she said, " because she does it at lunch" I AM SO TRIGGERED AT THIS POINT. Like she was my friend WHY WOULD I TALK SHIT ABOUT YOU IF YOU WERE BASICALLY MY BEST FRIEND AT THAT POINT? I dun get it. So then my teacher talks to me and calms me down, forgot what she said, and I go home, and nothing else happens. Well a long time later I ask my friend Trish if she did it because she was talking shit about Becky and said the SAME EXACT WORDS AS THE WALL. And she got so pissy about it, and I was like "did you? I'm not gonna tell on you if you did I promise." And she said it was her that did it. Blah blah blah and maybe a month later I slapped a sexist asshole in the face for being.. well an asshole. Then I almost get suspended blah blah blah I'll tell you guys that story later, and we're back, the vandalizing happened again, and miss kinn had enough of it, she says to the whole class that, " if someone knows who did it and tells me gets a reward." Then I ask the miss kinn what is their punishment if they get turned in, she said, "they will get a call from their parents and they will have to paint the walls." I told Trish that she should turn herself in so that no one else does and that she wont get in as much trouble if she does it herself, and she says "no I ain't paintin no walls." I'm like cowgirl much? Lol no I didn't say that. But we were going in an assembly at the gym and Trish says, "and I didn't do the vandalizing, I was just testing you to see if I could trust you." LIKE BITCH WHAT? YOU DONT "TEST" YOUR BEST FRIEND HOE. But whatever. Then, this year, (2016) she messaged me one night, and said stuff that led to her hinting me that she was going to kill herself. I freaked out so I called her mom, and Trish got mad at me for calling her mom BUT DO YOU BLAME ME? She messaged me again when my friend Amelia (not her real name) was sleeping over at my house, and said, "Is she your new BFF and am I the duff now?" And I'm like "what are you talking about? You're always gonna be my best friend Trish, no ones going to replace you." And she says, "are you sure about that because I'm not" I'm so triggered typing this oh my fucking god. I said "what do you mean?" And she says, "a lot of my friends use me." And I'm like "do you think I'm using you?" And she says "idk" THIS WHOLE THING STARTED BECAUSE AMELIA WAS AT MY HOUSE. And I said "aren't I aloud to have other friends?" And I forgot what else we said. Then she says "you're crying aren't you." And I'm like "why would I be crying?" And she says "because you always do." Like bitch get out the way. I forgot the rest of the conversation. and then I start to have a lot of family crisis's because my mom is sick (cancer) and I can't hang out with Trish as much. On Monday Trish apologized and I forgave her instantly. I'm stupid. Because SHE MESSAGED ME AGAIN. (Ok so '¿' means someone else talking, and '?' Means me talking.) She says "I want to move to cali." And "I'm so done with the people that call me names" and I'm like "you okay?" ¿ "I want to move to cali." ? "Why?" ¿ "So I'm away from my haters" or something like that. ? "It's gonna be okay, don't listen to the people that call you names." Then she sends me a picture of a random 16 year old boy and says," he's my new best friend now and he lives in CALI." ? "Then what am I?" ¿ "someone from my past" LIKE BITCH WHAT? Then she says, "at least he has time to talk to me and hang out with me" ? "Really? I don't hang out with you as much because of my mom YOU KNOW THAT." ¿ " I get that your moms sick but don't put that on me!!" ¿ " but I didn't put that on you." Dumb bitch. "Then she says ,"I'm not a freak or a geek and that's not what I wanna be." ? "I never said you were." ¿ " well that's what you and all your friends are. Sorry but it's true." WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. Then we fight some more. Then she said "LEAVE ME ALONE" and I said "fine." Then she said "FINE" We get done talking and I'm so mad. The next day my mom ran out of her depression pills and grabbed my dads gun and tried to shoot herself. It's not her fault, her brain doesn't work correctly.. anyway.. at school I ignored Trish all day. She texted me and said "what's up with you looking at me like that??" And I say "what's up with you saying I'm a freak and just 'someone from your past'?" And she said "nvm" ya, thought so. Blah blah blah few weeks later I forgive her AGAIN and like last time that was ANOTHER stupid decision. Because the day after Christmas break she messaged me AGAIN and said "I dyed my hair back to blonde! No more blue" (she has a thing with dyeing her hair.) and I say, "why did you dye it back?" ¿ "because I don't like it when people kept calling me smurf" ? "Don't let people control you Trish. It doesn't matter what they think." ¿ "I'm not" ? "Are you okay?" (She sent me a picture of herself frowning. ¿ "ya" ? "Are you sure?" ¿ "YES ASHLEE IM FINE" ? "I'm just concerned Trish! Jeez" ¿ "so? It's annoying. Bye." ? "Promise me your okay then I'll stop." (Or something like that.) "IM FINE ASHLEE GOD DAMN IM ABOUT TO STOP REPLYING!" And "I'm fine Ashlee NOTHING IS EVER WRONG OK GOODBYE" And "LEAVE ME ALONE" and I'm like "this is the second time you told me to leave you alone. This time I will. Trish I don't want to be your friend anymore. The way you treat me isn't okay." And I think I said more but I don't remember. Can't remember what her reply was. On Christmas she snap chatted me replying to my snap of me showing my new tv, mini fridge, and PlayStation 3. And saying, "I'm gonna come over tomorrow jk if that's okay with you." And bitch I know you just want to come over to hang out with my new shit not me. So I say "I have to be with my family sorry." ¿ "ok you still hate me so it's fine." ? "I didn't say I hate you" ¿ "still it's true." She's trying to get me to feel sorry for her because she's done this to me before. Ya I know your tricks. So, I didn't reply. Later she apologized to me and asked if we could be friends again. I said I need to think about it. She said "ok fine." I went on musical.ly and went on my cousins account and saw that he was gonna delete musical.ly because of people bullying him. Well, one of those people were Trish. So I go on her profile and see that she posted "people who hate on me better watch out" but the funny thing is she posted that while hating on my cousin. That's funny shit right there. So on my cousins musical.ly I said "leave him alone Trish." And she texted me "blah blah blah why did you come at me? Blah blah blah." ? "All I said was 'leave him alone trish' I didn't 'come at you'" ¿ "we were just joking around blah blah blah." I asked my cousin if they were joking around and he said NO. And she was like "it's not just me okay?" ? "Ya I know I messaged the other people that hated on him too okay not just you." ¿ "he was being rude" ? "He's a 10 year old little boy Trish!" Blah blah blah. I've been seeing a counselor, and I didn't know how to tell Trish I didn't want to be her friend in a nice way. she told me what to say to Trish. I said it. She replied with "bye". Next day, (today) her cousin texts me and says "this is trish's cousin, blah blah blah, you were faking your friendship, it's so messed up how it took so long, blah blah blah." I start balling my eyes out, I start to have like my 5th panic attack that month, so the first day of 2017 was GREEEAAAAT. My dad replied to her. Not me. I couldn't even breath I was so shook. Long story short, I blocked her number, and all her social media. It's 5:24 a.m because I couldn't sleep because I was crying and having little panic attacks in my room. I needed to talk to someone so bad but my parents are asleep. So I'm using tumbler as my escape. That's my story of Trish. The girl who thinks I was faking our whole friendship that lasted 2 years. I feel great. Can you tell?