#writers when we have to actually write in order to have written something: 😔

[kenobihater]

keep opening my docs, re reading the partial chapters i have written up, and closing my docs, ad infinitum. i want to finish and post ch 1 but like. that means i'll have to write it. sometimes i'll get on a roll when writing something only to stop at a certain point, but then jumping back in is akin to pulling teeth bc it feels like i've quite literally lost the plot and things have no flow, especially wrt to dialogue. hate and malice and agony and suffering on planet earth

#len speaks #writers when we have to actually write in order to have written something: 😔 #the bit of ch. 1 i have is starting to feel stale and i'm sure that's bc i've reread it at LEAST 20 time in the past few days and not due #to it sucking dick and balls and like. it's good writing. descriptive and vivid and emotional. i feel like i'm finally solidifying my style #here. but that doesn't change the fact that i'm sick of looking at it but i WANT to write on it rather than sit on it for a week and come #back with fresh eyes. that usually works but i want to work on it rn bc i've already abandoned this idea for far too long and am itching to #post smthn. alas. #i think i'm gonna just force it and charge thru writing the last half with gritted teeth bc writing badly is WAY better than not writing at #all and i'll actually have something concrete to work with and refine but ughhhh i'm SO annoyed by this block i have rn