#wish this horrible pattern of me missing the last chance i'll get to see someone bc of school first it was my dog and now it's my sib here

[mashmouths]

my parents are selling their house and i'm dealing with it so rationally and maturely btw. the 73 pictures i just took are completely unrelated to my fears of change and forgetting the little bits of memory that made this home

#i've never moved house before but i've been grieving this house since high school idk how to explain it #to have felt so trapped here for so long and then having it as a place i have to come back to every 3 months to the thought of one day never #? being allowed inside it again? how does anyone do anything ever in life this feels impossible but also like the smallest most trivial #thing in the world. hello. #i missed my sibling's spring break visit home bc of finals and now i'll never hurt my back watching tv with them on their bed? ever? for #fucking serious???? #craning my head to make stupid faces at them through the hallway before bed. never ever? :(? #wish this horrible pattern of me missing the last chance i'll get to see someone bc of school first it was my dog and now it's my sib here #and i just. sigh. #sorry to mope on main again i'm just melancholy and this blog is my diary youre all just reading it #a post