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#will abi ever shut up? a question people have been asking themselves since i was old enough to type
gideonisms · 2 years
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But also, I don't think harrow is going to be "redeemed" as such or that she needs to be for the narrative to work. It's not a story all that concerned with pain/death as a punishment for evil or a force for good. Like desire in these books, death is a neutral force, inspiring some characters to commit even greater evils (john himself is example number 1, but also cytherea, mercy) while inspiring others to change (harrow is one of the only examples here). Redemption is about doing something to atone for your past or suffering a pain that makes you a better person but harrow is not doing any of that. That's not what her choice is about narratively because if it was, it would be necessary for her to actually remember her past and what she's done to gideon. The choice is, harrow can stop using someone else for her own gain, and that will bring her no reward, not even the memory of having changed as a person. OR she can continue using gideon and her whole society will validate her. And she chooses to stop. It's not about the pain or the death it's about the choice itself. And it's not even really about the choice, it's about the fact that gideon still exists. That is harrow's whole justification, she doesn't give a fuck if she's going to be a better person. Because the story's not about becoming a better person, or if it is, that's incidental to the main point which is being an alive person who was supposed to be dead
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nekoabi · 5 years
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On the Verge of a Heartbreak - Chapter 25
Writing on my new computer is legitimately so satisfying! The sound of the keyboard is everything, makes me wanna write even more ;)
Pairings: Moxiety, OC/OC Words: 2291 Warnings: Food mention, mention of orgy, lots of anxiousness. Anything else, please let me know!
Summary: Virgil and Patton face their friends for the first time after they’ve started dating.
Virgil took a deep breath to ready himself before he shut his locker, lunch in hand. He knew people were going to be going a little bit crazy because of him and Patton getting together. He knew full well who would be the most excited and was just trying to ready himself for the onslaught he was about to endure. He slowed as he approached their usual spot, taking one more deep, steading breath before he rounded the corner.
“FINALLY!” A voice screamed as Virgil suddenly found himself accosted by a few of his friends. He stood motionless, unsure of how to respond to the sudden affection that was being thrown towards him. Em, Abigal and Thomas has practically thrown themselves at him, wrapping him in a sudden group hug.
After a few seconds, they released him. They all allowed him the chance to settle down and put his bag under the bench before they began throwing question after question at him.
“So, how did you do it!?”
“Who asked first?!”
“Wait, did you both ask?!”
“It had to be so cute! Where did it happen?”
Virgil just let them attack him with question after question as he ate his food. He refused to respond to any of them, only saying, “Wait until Patton gets here.”
While some of them were happy to wait just a couple more minutes, a couple of them were not so patient.
“Aw, come on, Virgil! We need answers! I need answers! It’s been way too long that we’ve been waiting for thiiiiis! Pleeeeeeeease?” Abigal whined, attempting to use her ‘cute face’ to get her way. Virgil scoffed and shook his head, taking another bite of his food.
Abigal opened her mouth to complain some more, but Ana cut her off, “Virge, stop being a dick already. Just tell us.” Virgil remained silent, only staring at his friend with vague disinterest. “You’re an asshole.” Ana snorted, a wry smile tugging at their lips.
They’d just finished their statement when the cheery voice of Patton rang through, “Hi guys! How are you all?” They all offered up quick responses and allowed Patton the same curtesy they’d given Virgil. Patton took the seat next to his new boyfriend and, before sliding his bag under the bench as well, placed a gentle kiss to the boy’s cheek. Virgil flushed, and Patton giggled before resting his head against the hoodie-covered shoulder.
Only once Patton had fully settled down did anyone get the answers they’d been asking for. All of the same questions were asked to Patton, who was more than happy to answer all of them. He responded to each and every one with the largest, sunniest grin any of them had seen in a long time. Throughout all of his responses, Patton would try and get Virgil included – either by doing something as simple as looking towards hi new boyfriend or something more involved such as hugging Virgil tightly and pressing a kiss to the flushed cheek of the other boy. Everyone around them were infected by the simple love and affection that was radiating from the new couple, causing the other couples in the group to become a little more affectionate and everyone else found themselves smiling warmly.
Finally, everyone’s curiosity surrounding the circumstances of the whole ‘asking out’ thing was satiated, and Patton was able to begin eating. The conversation turned to other, usual topics with the usual ringleaders carrying the whole thing. It was comfortable, and Virgil was thankful for that.
He had been nervous since Patton had gone home the night before about how his friends would take the new change to their group. He was worried that they’d all start treating the two of them differently, maybe he’d become ‘Patton’s Boyfriend’ or the opposite would happen to Patton. It had taken him an uncomfortable amount of time to fall asleep with all the worries and fears darting through his head, but this normality was what he needed. Yes, they’d all been talking about the two of them for quite a while, but they’d not been lumped together as ‘the couple’. Virgil felt his shoulders finally relaxing, something that must have been noticed by Patton as he looked up towards the taller boy with a soft smile.
Just then, a loud gasp caught everyone’s attention. Abigal was currently whispering something into Reggie’s ear, something that was clearly amusing to him as he laughed, “If that’s what you want.” Reggie said, looking to Abigal as she leaned away from him.
Abigal, after grinning widely, snapped her head towards Patton and Virgil. Suddenly, Virgil was extremely nervous all over again and his shoulders tensed once more.
“Heyyyy, you two!” Abigal called out in a sing-song voice that just dripped with the promise of an underlying motive.
Virgil swallowed hard, his fear only growing stronger though he fought to not show it outwardly. It was almost as if Patton had a second sense for when Virgil was starting to get scared as he responded for the both of them, “Abi, you know it’s creepy when you do things like that…” The usually sunny boy chastised, his face turning serious.
Abigal giggled, “Oops, sorry dads. Oh! Now that’s another good idea!” She snapped her fingers and seemed to make a mental note, “Anyway, not important right now! I just wanted to offer you two a very exclusive, once in a lifetime opportunity!”
Silence greeted her statement, the only noise being the general chatter of the other students out around the courtyard. Everyone was glancing between each other. It was clear no one really knew what to say in response or who should actually say anything.
In the opposite direction of his girlfriend’s gaze, Reggie seemed almost shocked, yet not at all surprised. He blinked a few times before dragging a hand down his face with a long drawn out breath. His other arm came to rest on her knee, pulling her attention to him, “Abi. Abigal. Love. Sweetheart. Chaton. It’s just a double date, not an invitation to an orgy.”
Everyone reacted immediately. Ana spit out the water they’d just started to take a drink from, aiming it away from everyone as best they could, while Em’s mouth dropped open in pure shock. Virgil’s face turned bright red and his embarrassment was clearly infectious as Ayana began to sink as far into her large jacket as possible and Daniel attempted to hide his pink cheeks by looking out towards the other students. Sophia began to lose it, her arms clutching her stomach as she laughed hard. Asher shook their head with a sigh, unsure of what they should even do. Both Thomas and Patton reacted similarly to Em, with their mouths falling open, but quickly turned to help others – Patton trying to calm Virgil and Ayana, Thomas began helping Ana alongside Em as they were coughing hard due to their spit-take.
The oddest thing to them all was Abigal’s reaction. She simply pouted, mostly unaffected by the whole thing, “Awww, c’mon… just let me be a little dramatic?” She attempted to use her cute face again, but Reggie only responded by tilting his head a little.
Only after she turned away from him to address Patton and Virgil again did she see the chaos. Abigal’s face twisted into an expression of pure alarm as she took in the whole scene in front of her, “What the fuck happened to you guys?!” She practically yelled.
Sophia responded between laughs, “That orgy comment, was the fucking, most hilarious thing, I’ve ever heard. I don’t, I don’t think anyone was, ready for that.” Sophia fell back into laughter as Abigal began to pout and whine about what she’d said, mostly chastising her for possibly boosting her boyfriend’s already insane ego.
Virgil was extremely thankful that everyone else was taking the seemingly off-hand comment almost as well as he was. Sophia was entirely right, he was not at all ready for something like that to come out, especially implying him being involved. He managed to calm down and relax back to his usual levels with some help from his other surrounding friends, some of whom were now also joining in on the debate on whether or not the comment was absolutely hilarious or if it went too far. It was still being hotly debated by a few as they all grabbed their stuff and began to go their separate ways to their classes.
He’d almost been able to forget about the whole ordeal, his brain being filled with useless math and science knowledge that he’d likely forget about it in a couple of weeks’ time, but he was reminded once he arrived home.
Virgil had just dropped into his chair at his desk when his phone buzzed in his pocket. He pulled it out and saw a text from Abigal, causing his flashback. After trying to clear his head once more, Virgil unlocked the phone and was able to read the whole text.
Cat Mom: Super sorry for what happened at lunch today. We didn’t mean for it to go that far or to fuck you up. Legit just wanted to ask if you wanted to come double date with us, we’re going to the amusement park just outside of town on the weekend and I thought you two might like to join us!
It was only once a reply came through that Virgil realised it was a group text.
Sun Dad: Thanks! That sounds super fun!! I’d love to go, if Virgil’s up to come too!
Suddenly, Virgil felt the pressure. He didn’t exactly know what was at the theme park they were talking about, but he knew he was not a fan of rollercoasters or most rides that threw you all around. But he also didn’t want to disappoint Patton by not wanting to go, meaning that either Abigal and Reggie would go alone and Patton would be left out and likely upset, or Patton would go along with them and have act as an awkward third wheel for their already planned date.
Virgil quickly dove for his laptop and threw it open. He nervously drummed his fingers on the edge of the desk as he cursed his laptop for being so slow, giving him even more time to stew in his anxious thoughts. Finally, he was able to log onto his laptop and open a blank notepad document, while the group chat sat open in the background. Virgil felt his heart racing as he stared at the blinking
This was a habit for Virgil. If he wasn’t sure how to respond, wasn’t sure how to phrase exactly what he wanted to say or was worried about his response being sent early when he wasn’t happy about it, then he would open something that he could type into and have it in the bottom corner of his screen. It meant he could write and re-write as much as he liked without having the texting icon pop up for everyone else and he couldn’t accidentally hit enter or send the message before he was ready.
Virgil spent the next 10 minutes typing and re-typing his message as well as watching the minutes slip by on the desktop clock in the bottom corner of his screen. He was still hotly debating in his head if he even wanted to go along, but his want to make Patton happy was slowly proving itself to be the victor. Finally, Virgil copied and pasted his message into the group chat. He paused for a little while, wanting it to look natural and all that.
Moon Dad: I mean, if Patton’s cool with it, sure… I guess. Which place is it?
Virgil was a little taken aback when he saw the name he had. Now, he was curious.
Moon Dad: Wait. Why is my name Moon Dad? Wtf.
Cat Mom: Because Patton is Sun Dad!
Virgil felt his cheeks flushing slightly. That was… surprisingly cute and he really liked it. Them having matching nicknames on this chat just made his heart flutter a little, which somehow flipped an anxiety switch that began to wonder if he was ill. He rolled his eyes and shook the thought away, focusing on the wonderful feeling he felt.
Cat Mom: Also, yes! I am so excited!! Cat Mom: It’s called ‘WonderZone’. Cat Mom: Trust me, it’s way better than the name it has. Cat Mom: We’re going on Saturday! Meet us there at around 10? We’ll be outside the main gate, so we can all go in together!
Sun Dad: I’m so excited!!
Asshole: Sounds good. See you guys then. Asshole: Hey. Rude.
Asshole change their name to Perfect.
Perfect: Much better.
Cat Mom: Uh, wrong!
Virgil smiled wryly as he watched the other couple bicker over their chat, refusing to get involved in their argument. He muted the chat for a while as he knew this would last for at least a solid hour and went about his usual business online. It then occurred to him to look up the amusement park they’d be going to, just to see what they had to offer.
The page was as garish as most theme park websites tended to be, but Virgil was still going to press on and he looked at the attractions the park had to offer. His stomach dropped when he saw that the first group were all a bunch of popular rollercoasters and thrill rides. Virgil stopped researching pretty fast, letting the dread consume him as he really didn’t want to see too much more of these rides.
Virgil was pretty sure he’d just made a huge mistake and he wasn’t sure how he was going to fix it.
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