#why cant everybody be as honest and forthcoming as me

[clownpassing]

think i'm leaning into the anger stage of grief like why did all those people i opened up to get to just do whatever they wanted with me and then as soon as i reciprocated they cut me off. are you that fucking scared of me? am i that fucking stupid that i didn't see their hands about to yank the rug out from under me?

#txt #op #i'm sorry i just genuinely don't fucking understand at all #i am a catch. i do my very best to spread love and i care so deeply about people and i'm cute #what is so wrong with me that people push me away so readily after i have started to feel safe #i dont wanna self victimize or anything but fuck all of you honestly #i deserved better #i deserve to be wanted. i deserve to be sought after #instead of me having to do all the fucking work. being autistic is so fucking tiring sometimes #why cant everybody be as honest and forthcoming as me #sorry not to sound full of myself but fucking seriously i feel like it's the least we can do for each other #for fuck's sake. ugh