#who starved once a week to stall his metabolism and worked his muscles to death to gain weight faster

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sorry but im not fatphobic for losing weight while recovering from a literal eating disorder that can rupture my stomach and crush my bones and organs from exessive + rapid weight gain. im not fatphobic for being happier in my smaller body that is nearing its set point while in eating disorder and body dysmorphia recovery. sorry not sorry, and if you think its morally better for me to have a disorder that can kill me and be miserable in it than recover, lose weight as part of that recovery, and finally learn to be happy with my body at its set point, then you are beyond despicable.

god, i hate haes activists.

#vent #anti haes #fatphobia #ed recovery #ednos #reverse anorexia #yes thats what my psych called it #i dont think its an official thing LMAO #idk if im even diagnosed (but the diagnosis is probably BED if i am bc ednos is universally understood to be restrictive) #(and thats the LAST treatment we want for me) #ppl would rather i cry about only having eaten 3600 calories as opposed to 5000 (true story) #as a broke fucking teenager who cant afford the food he would need to come up to that calorie count #and who cant eat too much at home lest they notice #who starved once a week to stall his metabolism and worked his muscles to death to gain weight faster #but was terrified of exercise because it would make him lose fat #haes activists would rather have that than a slimmer boy who is happy with his body #taking care of it by eating what he wants when he wants #working out what he wants when he wants #which is still mostly weightlifting btw bc cardio is torture lol #i wouldnt be surprised if they want a world of obese people #which i do not support #i want people to be in bodies they feel good in #for some its a bigger one #for others its smaller #sorry for the rant lolz im just. fed up.