#which is probably what i wouldve done 2 years ago. ive grown baby ! im celebrating that for my own wellbeing and because i deserve to.

[transgaysex]

im about to go to sleep but everybody needs to wish me good luck i have 3 whole finals this week

#wind howls #i have so many weird feelings #tomorrow is arguably the hardest what with it being the philosophy exam and having to write almost a thousand words abt freedom and not #i am terrified. i want to be done with philosophy so desperately and i want to know and prove to myself that i CAN be okay at school #and yet what a thrill it is to be terrified of a final exam. it means i did manage to make it this far ! #whether im confident or not doesnt matter. what matters is that im taking this damn final no matter what. scared and all #im gonna fucking do it ! and even if i dont pass it ill still have done it and im going to be proud of myself for being able to do it !!! #im terrified ! but im glad i get to be a lil scared and know ill still do it and itll pass rather than letting th stress get the best of me #which is probably what i wouldve done 2 years ago. ive grown baby ! im celebrating that for my own wellbeing and because i deserve to. #tuesday is my french final (even though theres another exam afterwards. dont as me why. its dumb as hell but this is the biggest one) #and thursday i gotta hand in my exploration final (and then ill be done with that!) and present my gym class exam #which im not afraid of. i have to come up with a training routine for like an hour and present it to a classmate and theyll grade me #surprisingly its the one im most confident in. i love being an instructor and i miss it ! and ive built lectures for days that were worse ! #so im actually quite excited for that one hehehe #ah ! i need to sleep now though #everybody wish me luck ! goodnight !