#which is h a r d

[crassstitchbeetch]

oh, it’s monday!

that means i can drop my patterns for this week!!

ignoring the fact that i don’t have the money to spend on the listing fees sshhhh

here they are!

i’ve noticed that my beginner friendly-er patterns have been doing a bit better than my more complicated ones so i’m trying to make sure at least one a week is simple.

hehe stitch :)

#i need to stop being neurodivergent and go shower before i put these on my etsy #which is h a r d #so this is a lil preview for you :) #bee’s patterns #cross stitch #cross stitch pattern #twitter #elon musk #this is me btw #go outside #crass stitch

[allykatsart]

Sorry I have FNAF thoughts I must share.

The thing about William, specifically in the fnaf movie but also kinda in the games, is that he's... Just some guy? Like.... yeah he possesses springtrap at some point, but before that... William Afton is second to his creations.

The animatronics are the ones we see killing the intruders, they're the threat Mike has to navigate. William only comes in at the end to interfere when they're not able to kill Abby and Mike.

Even then he doesn't have powers like the kids do. He can't lock doors, make you see visions of a child to follow, he's secondary to the things he has created.

(ye I know this is probably gonna change but like I'm focusing on the first movie)

And isn't it fitting that his ego is what gets him killed? He tries too hard to make the animatronics seem small, like he is the monster behind it all. But really.... He's just some guy and he dies all the same. He thought too highly of himself, thought what happened to the kids could never happen to him.

William Afton isn't as special as he thinks he is. Because he's just some guy.

#fnaf #fnaf movie #william afton #fnaf movie william afton #mathew lillard #five nights at freddy's #hes so small inside and he wants to make himself a big scary monster #but that doesnt change the inferiority he feels inside #he tries to forget it but in the end #he hasn't grown and he hasnt changed unlike our heros who have overcome personal demons #and because what hes doing is hurting people #the consequences of his actions bite him and bite H A R D #analysis #this thought arose from a conversation with my sibling about William getting his ass beat my Michael Myers #which i agree with absolutely #im sorry but pre springlock hes just another guy #still human

[kaus-quietis]

My joy – heavenly bliss My joy – the pleasures I've missed My joy – you move me

#bsd fyodor #bsd #bsd fyodor dostoyevsky #bungou stray dogs fyodor #bsd fyodor dostoevsky #bungou stray dogs dostoyevsky #bsd dostoyevsky #bsd fanart #watercolour #fanart #unsolved and endless #oh Fedya... the first fanart of you that I drew after I came back to my art tools #oh how I felt the d esire to express the symbolic bl00d flowing into your m0uth and mine #my joy... heaven|y bliss my joy #the caption is a reference to Depeche Mode's song 'My joy' obviously #which in turns has references to their songs 'H!gher love' #imo at least #moved by a h!gher love #yes you are seeing correctly -his l!ps here are d r y.. a bit cracked even..the first thing to soa k them after who knows how much time- #- is the r!ngfinger b|oodtrail specific to my fanarts #I can almost t a s t e it

[jorvikzelda]

Five out of this year's six horse breeds have been updated breeds (with the Dartmoor as the only exception). Now, the only horses left to update are five gen 1.5 horses (Danish Warmblood, Morab, Oldenburger, Selle Français, and Westphalian) and a gen 2 horse (Hanoverian).

Yeah have fun with that, SSE

#obviously there are some differences #like the danish warmblood is a little stockier and the westphalian is a little bit more stockier #and the morab has a slightly concave nose #but these are ALL THE SAME FUCKING HORSE #WHICH IS A... SITUATION... TO PUT THEMSELVES IN BECAUSE NOW THEY CANT UPDATE THEM ALL IN THE SAME YEAR #OR PEOPLE WILL BE GOING H A R D ON THE LAZY ACCUSATIONS #unless they do it anyway. warmblood year ig. #z talks #sso #ssoblr

[deus-ex-mona]

man. this song reminds me of physiology class

#throwback to physiology class [x] years ago when this clique sitting behind me drank a sip of water every time #our lecturer said the word ‘infarction’ #they kept tricking her into saying the word which was pretty funny at the time #but that’s just what this song reminds me of with the frequency at which they say the phrase ‘white day kiss’ #of all of the new album songs to get stuck in my head… it’s this and abs. #can’t stop thinking about meoto but white day kiss is looping in my mind aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #i. i think i need some sleep. but my album’s supposed to arrive within the next 2 hours and aufhhfjfjjfjrjdjdjdjdhs #5-7pm delivery is too cruel of a delivery slot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #g god i really shouldn’t have stayed up for meoto… maybe i’d have a little more sanity then… #i keep going back to my tl to look for typos and im just. wondering if this song is really real. #like. dammit. promises to stay by each other’s sides forever???? even through reincarnation too??? #wh. what are the chances that we’ll get a meoto mv this week? (pls say more than 0) #i think we could all windows movie maker a 1-2 image white day kiss mv from the honeypre event illusts if we tried hard enough sooooooo #i sure hope that if any new song gets an mv this week it’ll be meoto!!!!!!! #pls lemme see them being in love all through the seasons ill c r y #ok i’ll shut up for now see you within 2 hours (maybe) when d to the h to the l finally gives me my album

[botseeksbot]

#images that are for me and lucy #i need the women to be more relevant . i need my woman back and not written out like shit . #thoughts -> #i think she should straight up just be osi still/again (maybe temporarily quit for a bit) #assigned during s4 bc fuck hatred #she wants the boys to have a more normal life -> D is drawn to that -> thats what begins the divide between the boys not whatever s7 was #<- not to say they wouldnt get along during then its just when they start being less together #and i think that would allow more stuff w H + R especially seeing how much H values TV + his dad's approval in general #god theres just so much lacking w H + R in general like their dynamic is so tossed aside its just jokes and uncaring #like the hospital talk in s7 could have been something but it wasnt . i just really like H's relationship w his dad #theres just so much potential w it thats not there #B should have the same rivalry he had s SgtH except better this time and not just for one ep #i think they should be at each others throats whenever they see each other bc they have such different expectations from the boys #and the family in general #very much tries to be a mother figure to the boys which H rejects (like how he started w SgtH) and D has complicated feelings abt it #i think she goes back and forth abt hating R because she hates that their clones but is happy theyre alive but hates that theyre trapped #in the life they have and wants to try to make it more normal #but they would start going on adventures again (which freaks B out) because god damn . i miss their adventures #which ik isnt 'normal' but i think she would also have a different view on 'normal' being osi #basically i need my woman back . bring her back . for me #i think her being around would also push the want for finding their 'real' mom more than like . the reasoning in the movie or whatever #actually im gonna toot my own horn . her presence would just make things work better irt family dynamic stuff #vs whatever the hell happened in s4 and s7 . #anyway . bring her back . im about to rewrite so much stuff for the ladies but god damn she is my woman #<- already did NF . now its her time #my art #okay good bye i wrote a novel

[vaedar]

𝐎𝐎𝐂; I apparently only posted this when it was a WIP couple of years ago but never posted the 'finished' greyscale piece so I am posting here now just to share... Vaedar and his winged baby, Azaes.

#i have such an intense need to draw but when i sit down to do that.... #ofc i am interrupted and it breaks the moment and i get so stressed #and i can feel how am associating the drawing with stress which is not good at all just because i can't sit down to focus on drawing #it's a vicious cycle that i am constantly working through but lately all i can do is quick line arts and always using refs #cuz that's all the time i can make for with as less interruptions as possible... it why i'm gravitating to writing over drawing cuz #dont mind the interruptions as much while writing cuz it easier it doesn't require as much focus as drawing for me #i dont have trouble i think with line art cuz that's what i can do quick but i need a lot of practice for greyscale and color #which is what requires most focus and rhythm.. but i will not give up ok drawing is when i feel alive #but wow yes anyway i rambled am sorry xD just have vae and his big dragon bby #[ d r a g o n l o r d ] vaedar #[ f i r e made f l e s h ] dragons #gallery #mine

[elegyofthemoon]

i am still devastated i cannot adopt an alpaca from brodia like wtf am i supposed to do make amber happy huh???

like the AUDACITY for them to make a little model of an alpaca for his ally notebook AND NOT GIVE IT TO ME >:( 0/10

#snow speaks #i have other thoughts i wanted to share. but this is important #UNLESS IM WRONG SOMEONE CAN PROVE ME WRONG ITS OKAY #BUT IM LIKE ?!?!??!!? H O W D A R E Y O U #idk what the fuck the alpacas would give me. they can give me. love. and spit. #and ambers happiness :) #what was he saying about like alpacas being fluffy but horses can fight #or something idk it was in a support idk which one fjfnfjdjd #fe engage #fe amber #also i didnt finish engage. sorry folks. i forgot bc fates ransacked me so ive been playing that instead #oh yeah speaking of amber: this was in my draft JFJDJDJDJDJ #had a teensy weensy angr time and then decided no.... im stronger than this #well present me is not im still mad LOL

[killjoy-prince]

My ANYC haul

I bought some spicy stuff which you can see under the cut

#prince's talk tag #ren dont look #this took so long to go through and sort aaaaaaa my back hurts lolol #man i bought A LOT #i gotta wait for tomorrow for my presentation book to come in so i can put the posters in them #the stickers i can put in my sticker book #as for the charms and buttons i can put some up but not all i dont have a lot of room oops #anyway!! no con makes me wanna spend so much money quite like anyc #ive been to a few different cons in my time but this one takes the cake the artists and vendors are perfection #there was a rally for b/aldurs g/ate where you visited participating booths and either rolled a 20 with a d20 #or bought 10 bucks worth of stuff from each booth to collect stamps #then youd bring it to the last booth to get a prize which was some prints and sticker sheet which you can see on the top row in the 2nd pic #as well as a sticker sheet in the top left of the same pic #and since this game is my current obsession and by extension the vampire in the game i had no problem getting the stamps by spending money #i bought so much of my boy and this wasnt even all they had of him but it was a good chunk #i also bought a bunch of ge/nshin stuff specifically d/iluc bc hes my fave when i was playing a lot and there was an artist who had so much #of him available for sale and he looked so good in their style so i had to #the pic with the flamingo fidget toy i got from the p/r/s/k meetup!! the host gave out little goodie bags as thanks for coming #she was dressed as h/onami which is why the card has her on it #the pic with the cookbook was by an artist ive seen a few times and would buy recipe prints from (the back of the prints has the recipe) #so when i saw they had a cookbook now i had to get it!! its so cute!! #I also bought a bunch of dice bc i love dice and i was with two people who play a lot of d/n/d and enabled me lolol #i havent played in a while but they invited to play sometime and i do wanna join!! so why not #hard to take good pics of the dice tho i get what the sales person at e/verythingd/ice was saying #speaking of: shoutout to that sales person for hustling to get us to spend so much. they are good at what they do. im not even mad #they werent mean or anything but they had a job to do and did it well #the stone dice on the black box was from a different company but i saw those dice and knew i had to get them. they called to me #havent had dice do that since i bought a set at a card shop in italy #the p/ersona tote i got from a booth that had a persona themed pc and you had to take a pic of the display and tweet it to get the bag #we tried saturday but they ran out fast so we had to run to the booth sunday to get it

[koushirouizumi]

{R.E.B.O.R.N!} ~ Ep. #159 + Y A M A M O T O & T S U N A {80+27}

Bonus:

{Caps by Me} {DO NOT RE POST} {DO NOT RE PRODUCE WITHOUT MY PERMISSION}

#koushirouizumi khr #koushirouizumi khr caps #koushirouizumi 80x27 #koushirouizumi tsuna #koushirouizumi yamamoto #khr: caps #khr: 159 #yamatsuna #sawada tsunayoshi #yamamoto takeshi #c: takeshi #c: yamamoto #c: tsuna #khr spoilers #(Not Really Here) #(The F r a m i n g in These) #(Hi I Am E m o t i o n a l Over A Series I Picked Up On A Whim around 2k11) #(And Upset Once Again these ARE NOT GETTING D U B) #(T S U N A S EXPRESs I O N in last cap h E L L O!!!!!) #({It Lingers For Few More Seconds}) #(IWill Probs Fix these up for {Takeshi}s bday in . Apr Later hhhhh) #(COMPLETELY UNNECESSARY F R A M I N G S) #({LITERALLY BC THIS WAS F I L L E R BUT DECENTLY *GOOD* F I L L E R}) #(But the 1st part is continuation of initial 95x86x96 bonding which was main included stuff) #({Still Good Ep} including for Those Moments but Also This) #(Mainly want to point out how Tsuna is SO GOOD here for being Concern about {Takeshi} if maybe a bit Too Concern like) #({Takeshi}s doing this FOR YOU T S U N AAAAA) #({Tsuna Gets It By End At LEAST}) #({Also Tsunas clapping l m a ooo}) #({But like Tsuna PAYING ATTENTION to Something {Takeshi} Actually Genuinely Cares About})

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

neurodiverse tumblr friends, I have some autism questions!! if you have autism, and especially if you were older when you found out about it: at what age did you begin to suspect you had autism? when/if you got an official diagnosis and how you went about it? would you recommend pursuing a diagnosis or at least talking to a medical professional about autism to someone wondering if they may have it? to you, what are the benefits of having a diagnosis/not having a diagnosis (depending on which one applies to you)?

#autism #neurodiverse stuff #neurodivergent #I'm really trying to get serious about answering some of my questions about myself and my oddities before I go to college #and since we're currently at about....9 months? if everything goes as planned? before I head off to school #I really am trying to get on top of this now #also I was helping my mom take the RAADS-R test last night and reading thru all the questions again made me remember #how much I related to a lot of the autistic traits described in the test #and ftr: I'm not saying I /AM/ autistic #I just suspect that there are some Things that I Experience that aren't necessarily true of a vast majority of humans #and I'm trying to learn as much as I can about different forms of neurodivergence in order to hold them up against my experiences #and see if any of the hats fit. as it were. #I still very much think I have ADHD and autism is just a slight possibility but I gotta be frank here and say that #the more research I've done on autism--esp female-presenting autism--and really the more I've read behind the experiences #of people /with/ autism (especially women) #the more I've noticed similarities and discovered what may be explanations for things I've experienced #some of which I hadn't even fully noticed I was experiencing until I became aware of their existence due to reading others' experiences #gurt says stuff #reblogs on this are totally fine btw!! and feel free to leave your answers in either the tags or the comments/replies! #considering making an AD(H)D version of this too so I can get some opinions on that from people who've lived with it as well...

[imoutoni]

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ @whirling-fangs Continued from [ 🌸 ]

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀" Come on, Senpai. My brother wanted me to do this to help out your Grandma. He was going to do it, but he had to work at the bakery and Zenitsu-senpai has to stay after school for help with Math. "

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀Honestly, she was excited to be the one her sibling relied on to assist their friend. It was a big responsibility and a chance to her to prove just how capable she is. As a middle school girl with a lot of upperclassman friends, Nezuko often felt a bit immature in comparison, gushing over sweets and reading shoujo manga. At least with Inosuke she didn't have to worry about that. He was so new to modern society.

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀Slender fingers were coiled around his wrist, both firmly and gently at once as she dragged him along behind her. " The more clothes you have, the less work she'll have when you need to get ready, right? And it's satisfying to be able to choose for yourself which clothes you want to wear. " She kept a pleasant smile on her face as they entered the shopping district. Hisa certainly worked hard. Her life deserved to be a little easier and the animalistic young man will have more options than just his nightwear.

#whirling fangs #🌸 ◜b u r n i n g l o v e ◞ ⦗ in character ⦘ #💥 ◜b r e a d c h a n ◞ ⦗ verse 04: kimetsu academy ⦘ #( maybe as an added bonus nez will teach him how to coordinate outfits ) #( which he won't do but at least she can try~ )

[whisp3roftheheart]

I really am the most embarrassing person when I like someone lmao

#eden speaks #i really had my best friend drive me all the way to the boy i likes work so i could visit him during his shift #and then i was awkward 😭😭 #i was stupid and hit a friends pen a few too many times and i was high as hell when i went which made interacting so h a r d #i told him beforehand that i was high too so i prewarned him that id probably sound stupid lmao #i should've smoked after i saw him #he had a face mask to hide under too since he has to wear one for work and i was just perpetually awkward #i was so busy trying to look normal and overthinking that i forgot to say bye to him lmao i was like #im... im gonna go over there and then i left like what kind of exit is that smh #i see him again today i think we're going on like... kind of a date of sorts? we're going thrift shopping #originally i thought we were going with his rommates but from the questions hes been asking me i think it might just be us #hes so pretty i kept getting flustered when i looked at his eyes when i saw him yesterday #like sir your brown eyes are my weakness #we've been texting like non stop every day for a while now so clearly he feels some kind of way about me its the only thing that makes sense #when i get paid im gonna get him this sanrio and jjk collab shirt because he loves jjk and i love sanrio and if he likes it ill be so happy #we're gonna see the fnaf movie next week im so excited i gotta get a fnaf tshirt or something when i go to buy his shirt #i asked him to go with me on that one and im so excited for it #okay let me stop rambling lmao my ass never knows when i stop #*when to stop

[deus-ex-mona]

starting the year ✨wrong✨

#(this is about work ok. long rant in the tags bc auauauauauauauuauauauauauauauaaaaaaaa) #i’ve worked for just t h r e e (3!!!!) days this year and i think im already all burned out lmao #first i was stuck doing 2 workstations bc this freakin’ b o z o of a coworker decided to take the week off without prior notice #and *t h e n* the internal components of one of said workstations kicked the bucket and was only replaced today. sads. #rip to our wasted time and futile fixing efforts though. flashtag wetried #that’s not all t h o u g h i was told that i have to jump to the other work shift bc one of my coworkers is resigning #b u t the thing is. all of the other dudes in that shift are from [insert bordering country] and always speak in their nation’s language #so i won’t be able to communicate well with them for the most part ​esp s o bs #and if [insert country here] has a national holiday and a l l of them decide to take the day off.. #well. um. ahahahaha. im ✨screwed✨ #(but speaking of taking the day off… one of said guys on that shift has an approved leave for cny. which is funny bc he’s not even chinese) #(rips if the actual other chinese dude on that team has his leave request rejected bc of that guy lol. happy cny to him ig) #a n d also i was made to (sorta) teach these two new coworkers (of sorts) the workstation i’m at for the week #b u t the thing is. i do everything here by left (didn’t receive formal training either lmao sadge) #and i also couldn’t explain anything well in general bc it seems like my flow of thoughts can’t streamline itself ig #so i think i confused the poor guys more than anything. but like. why me??????? aaaauauaaaaaaaaaa #idk why one of them came back for more ‘education’ from me thoughhhhh #i’ve tried teaching ‘em stuff at another workstation before this and my feedback was ‘wait slow down you talk too fast’ s o o o o . #ig i’ll have to guide them though again in the morning though. sighs. this wasnt in my job description :( #speaking of job descriptions though… this h e l l a annoying guy no one likes who resigned a few months ago (to much rejoicing)… #is!!!!! coming!!!! back!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #w h y. like. w h y. why is he so attached to this company he l l o? why is our manager so attached to him helloooooooo????? why him??????? #our workloads literally t r i p l e when he’s around bc he’s just the way he is. auauauauauauauauaaaaaaaaaaaa #aaaaaaaaaaa i dont wanna work aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #science industry (derogatory) questionable laboratory conditions (derogatory) #felt cute; thought about retiring early idk

[monogatcri]

━━ ˟ ⊰🍁ANGRILY GLARES ...

#* // ♦︎ 001. — › I C #* // ♦︎ 017. — › D A S H #* // ♦︎ 018. — › C R A C K #* // ♦︎ V3. — › HEART FROM IRMINSUL #erabundus #mmriesoftvat #// disappointed in the usage of THE BODY WHICH IS TIED TO THE WEAPON WHICH IS AN EXTENSION OF THE BODY! #// ALSO SEEING YOURSELF AS A WEAPON! #// grounded

[cloneslugs]

ik rusty and brock are very nonchalant about the clones 19 years down the line but i do think the first time they had to use them must have been awful, assuming jonas sr didn't have it perfected/completed for rusty . the clone slugs are one thing, but the computer housing their memories/selves (the computerized [souls]) is a whole different mess, plus it also just means watching your kids die (for the first time) . and it's not like competent clones are a thing you can test for. sure you can check that the slugs are functioning and healthy, but it's not like you can test your backup data is gonna work bc once you put that into a slug then it's not a clone slug anymore, now it's your son, and neither of you are gonna kill your son . one of you is supposed to keep those kids alive (well really both of you, but one of you is specifically hired for it) & one of you is such a failure in all things science, all you can do is hang on to your father's coattails and hope he keeps you afloat, but you call these slugs your life's work. and sure your dad was doing some clone research when he was alive, but these boys arent his, they're yours. And you dont want to be your father as a father you want to be your father as a scientist, and you make these clones because you're a father, not because you're a scientist . etc etc dont know where i was going w this . rips off my shirt to show off another shirt that says "ask me about my ideas on the vital relationships related to clone slug twin sons"

#rusty has such a special relationship + view of the sl/ugs vs how everyone else sees them it makes me crazy #text tag #really odd to think about in the magic sense that H+D (presently) dont have souls bc . theyre clones #theres not some [magic] afterlife with 15 Hs + Ds somewhere bc theres just those lost original ones #which means something to dr.o but not to rusty . bc his boys are always his boys even when they die #also really interesting from TDB&TBG . B has a very special relationship w the boys as well . separate from the clones #he keeps specific track of every death + which number set died how and when and where etc . very meticulous #two separate relationships w their kids in a sense #R values the boys but has no hangups w using the clones if accidents happen & B is very meticulous about avoiding accidents at all costs #i can imagine as someone [hired] to protect them . from the start its going to feel like your fault. youre a failure #not that R is okay w them dying whenever over and over again or as if he doesnt care. seen in s4 hes a lot more careful w the boys #he stops adventuring altogether . and he has that one like w H in the lab in 0401 #this is not an issue of one of them loving or caring for them any more than the other . bc there isnt a clear winner imo . its just diff #stances on things