#which >is only comforta8le with neopronouns >GRIMACING.

[cornflowercanine]

me s33ing ppl talk a8t how sad it is to never come out irl; yea me remem8ering i plan to never ever come out as non8inary irl cause it would positively affect jack shit; oh right lol

#clove rambles #like itd 8e NICE and i MIGHT get actual social dysphoria if/when i stop 8eing so dissoci8y #8ut my goals with coming out as n8 would 8e -stop misgendering me -stop using my old name -stop s33ing me as a 100% cis girl #which >is only comforta8le with neopronouns >GRIMACING. #>the only ppl i interact with irl are my family and i dont WANT them to know a8out actual me self clove for a world of reasons #>i already dress and look Like This for all i know ppl ALREADY s33 me as Girl; 8ut Weirder and if i came out as n8 #that might change it from 'girl 8ut weird' to 'pretending to not 8e a girl' which is -eye roll- #coming out str8 up would not positively affect or change anything; at 8est #no8odys like outright shitty to me for my identity 8ut i still have to Convince people of what i am every time they s33 me #i have to explain my identity and why i use it and 'why' i am it and i have to dance around how many genders i am #and i have to correct ppl on my pronouns every time they talk a8out me or i have to deal with the 'saying name over and over- #-to a humorous degr33 8ut not once using my pronouns' that i ALREADY deal with enough of online #and then i have to explain how im non8inary and a les8ian and those dont cancel eachother out and 8lah 8lah 8lah 8lah 8lah 8lah 8lah 8lah 8l #it would cause me way more trou8le and questions and constant justifying of my existence than it would ever 8e worth #ESPESCIALLY as a 8orderline nondysphoric person like. this str8 up will do exactly nothing to help me; short-term or long-term #i MIGHT n33d to come out as aro at some point 8c -in tears- 8ro i care so fucking little a8out ur rel8ionship 8ro im NOT gonna d8 anyone ple #8uttttttt idk how me 8eing alloaro would go over with my mormon family lol. #its just. im openly a les8ian and thats good enough. that is all anyone n33ds to know #in fact if i hadnt come out as a les8ian already id have come out as aro and aro alone instead #cause itd ditch the 8iggest annoyance of 'SOOO WHEN ARE U GONNA GET A 8OYFRIEND/HUS8AND HUH :))))' #just. god lol anyway never ever f33l like u HAVE to come out if u dont want to or it wont help you