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worldwarlove1 · 6 years

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More about me

Please read this whole post and look over the links as I have lots to say in order to get a much better idea of who I am, as I am a very deep/soulful person who has been through a lot (Both bad and good) and I have so much to say/express that it is difficult to even know where to begin, so I have links towards the end of everything I am about to say here.

At the end of this message, I have links that lead to videos 1-15 (Life, hopes, nightmares, dreams/etc), I have been misunderstood before when trying to express myself to others (Maybe it’s ‘cause I’m a man, who knows), so please, whenever watching a video if you could watch it from start to finish that would be great, and please don’t be afraid of me, I really am a great person, and if you have any questions please feel free to ask, thanks so much.

Please check all the vids for descriptions, especially for vids 3 & 5 either before or after watching them. They are quite powerful and deep, and I’ve also got other links that can all be found towards the end of this post/message. Together, they will give you a much better idea of what I have been through, my likes/etc and show that even though I am quiet, often have a rather blank look/expression/etc that I really/truly am a deep/passionate/connected/soulful individual who strives to avoid conflict even with anyone who may be putting me through an awful lot of grief, and would have to exhaust all other peaceful options that are known to me before I would even consider something like shouting as I wouldn’t hurt a fly.

Vices, likes/etc: -I never smoke/hate cigarettes (Can’t stand em). -Emotions, understandings and connections that we share are also very important to me. -Been through a lot in my life and I am an excellent listener. -Want to hear both sides of a story to get both perspectives and if any conflict should arise to talk and come to resolutions. -I am a very deep person “I don’t do drugs. I am drugs.” - Salvador Dali. -I do occasionally drink alcoholic beverages (Mainly Palm bays - My favs for both alcoholic and non alcoholic beverages are ones with super rich creamy flavours of pineapple, orange creamsicle, strawberry & cherry - My fav non alcoholic ones are Stewart’s (Orange ‘n Cream, Black Cherry, Strawberries 'n Cream), Tahiti/Tahitian treat, Crush pineapple & other sweat & creamy drinks. -Since we’re on the topic of consumables, I also love Chapman's orange pineapple, Bryers Vanilla/Orange sorbet Creamsicle ice cream and Chapman's orange sorbet tigerpaw ice cream bars, many types of candies, meats and dairy products and shakes/smoothies. My fav fruits are Pineapples, Peaches, Strawberries, Cherries, Clementines/Tangerines & Bananas. Trust me I could go on and on and on about the healthy and not to healthy foods and drinks that I looooooove, lolz :) -Emotions are wonderful and I have plenty to share, with healthy levels of common sense/level headedness/etc. -A reasonable balance of head in the clouds and feet on the ground. -I am willing to make a fair number of compromises. -Equally split work loads/responsibilities, being fair, being reasonable, talking with/listening to each other. -Not keeping secrets (Do I have secrets, yes - who doesn’t, but the ones I’ve got are nothing worth telling anyways). -I understand, feel and experience a lot more then many people may think I do, a diamond in the rough. -As far as I am concerned, honesty, sincerity and loyalty are very important to me and when two people really get to know each other, are at that point in their lives, the physical is just as important as the emotional and I feel that both should be given regularly. -I am a mature individual with a rich mind, a heart of gold/the heart of a child, the best of both worlds.

As for me, I am doing well here in Grimsby/Ontario and am so glad that I made the move. The rent is pretty reasonable for an old building/studio apartment (As far as reasonable goes for a fair number of us Canadians, lolz), and there’s plenty of trees/trails/nature here with more then enough modern conveniences/everything I need within walking distance.

Being a redhead I am sensitive to the sun, and I also have a condition known as "Polymorphic Light Eruption", so, in other words, not only am I a redhead, but I am also mildly allergic to the sun, but thankfully I have to be out in it for around an hour or more before it takes effect. I am just glad that I don't have one of the sun allergies that are worse then this, cause some of them can actually leave permanent marks and be fatal.

I love the darkness of night as it does not leave me feeling drained like the sunlight (Even through the window) does, so and do what I can to keep the sun out of my place as I am fairly sensitive to it but am okay to spend the day outdoors with some really good sunscreen so long as I can have access to shade and ot stay still in the sun as that is really bad for the redhead in me and quickens the PLE.

Overall I feel a great eerie peace come over me when I am away from the sun, and even though I am an overall laid back person, if I am with someone, I do enjoy travel as well and love to explore new places/areas as well. Things like hiking, stargazing, exploring caves/nature, some swimming, hot air balloons and a fair number of other activities (Many I haven’t tried, but I know that I would like them), and even though with sunscreen I am fine outdoors, I do still prefer indoor lighting.

I have had my fair share of abuse, mostly back in elementary school and in the workplace (Most from by second last job/boss & some from my last job/manager) and even though for the most part I really have to watch my money now so that I can remain free from the shackles of society by leaving the working world for good, I am much better off for it.

I am very grateful/thankful to have a few people as well as 3 younger brothers and a younger sister, along with my parents/etc who are very supportive overall. At some point I intend to continue what I started a while back, to type my life/experiences into a book to really help to draw people into my world through the senses/mind and the works, and should fate allow, perhaps someday, even a movie.

Even in my earlier years, I have alway had stuff like second hand smoke or other factors that have stopped me from writing at my very best, but I am hoping that someday, everything in the environment will be just right and stay that way so that hopefully at lease enough of the damage that has already been done can heal itself and I can write/express better then I ever have before. Otherwise, I don’t know if I will ever be able to get to it.

I have all the time in the world now to regain the true holy darkness/purity that I have lost over the years do to having more then my fair share of emotionally abusive events in my life before I was able to break free from what was holding me back, and I need to figure a way to get the second hand smoke from other units to stop entering mine, for good cause me cigarette allergies really put me back.

I do prefer to stay at home but even so I do have an adventurous side which I would not mind exploring more either. I do love other things too, and wouldn’t mind going camping again from time to time, haven’t done that in years (Although this time around, I would probably prefer a cabin to a tent, unless the bottom of the tent can be made really comfy) :)

But, for that stuff, I would probably have to spend a few months or so getting into the proper shape, and maybe I could even learn how to scuba diving/dive or even go on a hot air balloon someday, but as for learning something more extreme like bungee cord jumping and skydiving (Well…maybe), and I would be willing to experience many other things too. Overall, I do like being indoors, surfing the internet, playing video games, creating my own videos and typing as well :)

Even though I have not cooked any fancy meals/etc I do enjoy cooking. My dad plays for an old timers hockey game/team and baseball team, so I go out to see some of his games and enjoy watching him and his team :)

I do like going out too see movies and have not really been to any dances and only saw one live play which was interesting, and I think I would enjoy learning how to dance, nothing fancy per say though. I enjoy walks in the park, and I also love strawberry picking which I haven’t done in years, maybe I can get myself a sombrero or something to further help with the sun :)

I live within walking distance of grocery stores and everything else I need as well, but wouldn’t mind from time to time visit some resorts, cottages, getaways as well and I have often wanted to also try out a spa, and see places like Thailand, The Amazon Rain forest, Ireland, The Congo Basin, Tahiti, Papua New Guinea, Jamaica, Tibet, Transylvania and other places along those lines also :)

I am on ODSP (The amount I get increases a bit each year to keep up with the costs of living) now and so long as I keep living in Ontario I will keep receiving it for life regardless as to not or whether I end up being with someone at some point (I do have high functioning Autism and sound/speak well, but even though understandings are improving, there’s still unfair/negative stigma behind the word.

It can also make it a lot more difficult for people to take my word over others without proof of something, and mistakes in life sure do seem to be noticed more by others and manipulators can get away with so much and I am trying to help in changing all that, trust me, I know from experience.

Anyways, please, don’t let the A word scare you away or anything. Even though I often have a blank expression & distant look, again, I really am a very deep individual and have more then enough knowledge & wisdom for what I need to know, and for plenty of other stuff as well.

Even though I am not normally one for social gatherings, I can engage in conversations well enough, and as for talking, I can talk up a storm, most especially about things I find interesting, so no worries about that being an issue (People do notice differences about me, I guess it can just be sensed, but I am a great person to know once people get to know me as first introductions are usually not the easy for me).

I consider myself as one of the lucky/fortunate ones, and even though (Please look at the 1-14 vimeo vids to see why) I have debt (About 10K) that I racked up as a way of coping with all the abuse and for a short time after I left till I was healed enough, I am able to manage my money well and am back on track with everything.

I am away from all the abuse and am very good with my money now, and am able to take a bit off my debt each month with still being able to eat/etc well and take care of all my other bills and especially once I am out of debt (I’m guessing around the early 2020s) tings will really be freed up, so its all good now as I have been able to leave the abuse, so no worries there, I am really good with my money.

As for the possibility of being with someone, I wish to be with someone of whom I can share my soul/being with, the melding of mind/body and soul, someone who can really connect with me, someone who can support me, love me and cherish me and naturally I would do the same in return.

Don’t worry if you are making and/or have little to no money. If you have none and are making none, in at least 3-4 years time I will be able to have enough for the both of us to still eat/live well enough in a studio apartment, so long as you don’t mind things being tight financially.

If together we both have enough money coming in, I wouldn’t mind trying to have one or more kids, if not, I can always have a vasectomy. I want us to truly connect, eventually, body, mind and soul, it just being the two of us to start, giving us more then enough time to truly connect/etc.

Again, I want for us to truly connect, and also, I have never been intimate with anyone before, so this will be new to me. If we decide not to have any kids, then as for the physical end of things, again, I can just get a Vasectomy (All of the pleasures/etc would still be there, the only difference being that kids will not be possible).

Code for viewing vids: worldwarlove2057 1)https://vimeo.com/253553084 2)https://vimeo.com/264179109 3)https://vimeo.com/253552650 4)https://vimeo.com/253552736 5)https://vimeo.com/253552824 6)https://vimeo.com/253740094 7)https://vimeo.com/253552915 8)https://vimeo.com/253740057 9)https://vimeo.com/253740056 10)https://vimeo.com/253552622 11)https://vimeo.com/253552639 12)https://vimeo.com/253552772 13)https://vimeo.com/253553048 14)https://vimeo.com/253740106 15)https://vimeo.com/253553051

May your souls of ghostly liquid light spread their cleansing chills 2 hauntingly beautiful tones in the never ending melodies of mysterious holy darkness in life’s eerily eternal song of infinitely awe inspiring complexities, turning fear into enhanced awareness & illuminate the way for others… I am hyper aware, each sense acting as if the others died... Experiences of D Angels through us T_T

More and more, fear becomes realized as what it is, enhanced awareness, and the "fears" (Along with the other emotions bought on) from/of darkness meld together with the light in healing which is a truly hauntingly beautiful thing. It allows for more growth in understandings, sympathies and empathy. It helps to further raise the vibration to not necessarily get rid of the darkness but to make it a part of who you are, but for the better/with it being healed more and more, becoming greater awareness/wisdom & knowledge :)

I find that Transcendental meditation is fantastic, but I can see how it can easily seem too powerful for many as they have either not been through enough in life or have not been through enough training. Transcendental meditation can seem like evil/darkness when in actual fact it is a further transformation into the light :)

Over time it feels as if you are becoming like that of a ghost made of liquid light (Light, that is warm, hot and cool all at the same time), vibrations and tones (An angel), like you are no longer physically aware of weight, substance or material happenings. You/the light has cleansing chills throughout your entire being and feel many ripples and vibrations (Like that from water and really good quality sound systems from all around and within yourself). You become aware that the night and the understandings that come with it are a holy treasure trove when combined with the light/existence :)

My interests: https://worldwarlove1.tumblr.com/post/166593292324/my-interests/embed

My vegan list: https://worldwarlove1.tumblr.com/post/166599411149/my-vegan-list/embed

How cigarettes effect me: https://worldwarlove1.tumblr.com/post/170183135424/smoking-tenants/embed

Questions, just for fun: https://worldwarlove1.tumblr.com/post/171217915114/just-for-fun/embed

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