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#what am i supposed to feel? when everyone tells me it’s my fault? when everyonr says i was the one who drank first?
bulletsfrank
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1 year
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getting bad enough i want a drink. ......heh
#it’s been two months since my last drink! rhat usually means nothing with me
#pov yoire a good for nothing asshole who will die just like their father 👍
#and i know my stomach problems are from my yesrs of binge drinking just to make the pain go away
#what am i supposed to feel? when everyone tells me it’s my fault? when everyonr says i was the one who drank first?
#physically i took my first drink when i was 15. mentally my body wanted to swallow anything that would make this go away
#it didn’t matter what it was
#i wake up everyday with sickness so profound i cant leave tbe house
#and i have to let the guilt steep. to know that i did this because i’m too fucking stupid
#to never have tried. i was warned my whole life. my parents were alcoholics. half my family is dead from it. i watched it swallow my brother
#and it swallowed me too. for years. it ruined everything. and now even when i’m finallt clean
#i’m finally sober like i begged and fuxking begged for years. for something to
#knock me out of it. and i stopped. and now everytime i’m sick
#every single fucking day of my life i think about how i did it to myself
#i want to die
#and now i feel worthless because i don’t drink
#i don’t have any fucking social skills all my friends are from when i would drink and be able to actually talk
#i bore everyonr away i say the wrong things always. i just
#whatver. i’m too sick to leave to even get a drink. it doesn’t even matter
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