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#well. anon i hope you see this šŸ§Ž sorry it took me a bit
mattodore Ā· 3 months
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ocs aging is my favorite thing to read about, so i wanna ask you a question - how do you see matthias and theo (and their relationship) in their fourties?
and generally for how long you have their story planned? you think only about times when they young or you have ā€œplannedā€ their 50s, 60s etc
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Oh I really love where Theo and Matthias find themselves as they age into their forties.
For Theo, heā€™s fully out from under his parentsā€™ thumb by the time he reaches forty and heā€™s also been clean for a good handful of years. The first twenty-something years of Theoā€™s life wereā€¦ well, they were really hard on him. He thought of himself less as a person and more as an extension of his parentsā€™ will. He did what they said when they said it no matter how little he wanted to, but once he let go of all that appeasement and supplicationā€¦ he finally got to relax. Theoā€™s had pretty bad identity issues his whole life, but in his thirties and beyond itā€™s like heā€™s finally found himself again. He was lost before, you know? And in his forties heā€™s comfortable. Iā€™m not saying heā€™s magically healed and well adjusted or anything, like he has C-PTSD and he still begs off therapy appointments and taking meds butā€¦ he knows who he is and he can see the world in the same colors he saw when he was five and still playing in the garden, unafraid of all the things a child shouldnā€™t know about.
For Matthias, heā€™s settled into his forties with grace. I think heā€™s more grounded after having Theo in his life for two decades. I think Iā€™ve said this before, but he was numb to pretty much everything in his twenties and totally disillusioned and nihilistic. Let me be realā€¦ Matthiasā€™s personality hardly changes as he ages, but I think his outlook on life is a little less bleak with Theo in it. Hmā€¦ I think in his late thirties heā€™s finally processed a lot of the trauma he experienced in his teen years, butā€¦ I donā€™t think his insomnia ever goes away. I do think he can sleep a little longer, but he still has auditory hallucinations for sure. Nevertheless, Matthias is fulfilled in his forties. He has his best friend and the love of his lifeā€¦ itā€™s all he needs. I think Matthias is really just someone who desperately wanted to be loved and he didnā€™t know what that hunger was for until he was so full of it it got stuck in his teeth.
As for their relationship when theyā€™re olderā€¦ theyā€™d actually defined it, first off. I think they feel like theyā€™re too old to be calling each other ā€˜boyfriendā€™ so instead Theo calls Matthias his partner and Matthias calls Theo his lover. Theyā€™re definitely living together but theyā€™re still not married. I think Matthias mightā€™ve proposed sometime in their early thirties but been rejected. Not that it was a serious proposal, mind youā€”like, the chance that he asked during sex is pretty high I wonā€™t lie lmaoā€”but I think he was probably just trying to get a feel for what Theo wants and that was a good enough answer for him. Day-to-dayā€¦ hmā€¦ Theoā€™s a working man so heā€™s often late to meals and Matthias has to find him in his art studio to get him to eat something. Matthias is still a layabout but he does busy himself with writingā€”just journaling and letters and stories he reads for Theo. Matthias is also sponsoring a few organizations thatā€™re trying to shut down the troubled teen industry. They visit Imani and her husband often and Matthias babysits when askedā€”Theo is very hands-off when Matthias is babysitting since he still has a pretty emotional response to seeing happy kids... ugh. The friends of Theoā€™s who stuck around from his party days will have lunch with him every few weeks, but they still donā€™t like or want to be around Matthias, which, likeā€¦ fair. Theo doesnā€™t really hang out with anyone on a regular basis other than Matthias, if Iā€™m honest. Theo justā€¦ isnā€™t actually a people person, it turns out. Theo also does a lot of volunteer work with animals since itā€™s another kind of therapy for him. Theyā€™re just happy, y'know?
As for the actual extent of the planning Iā€™ve done with the characters... well, thereā€™s no end to their lives in my head since I can just picture them at any age. I know Theo and Matthias very wellā€¦ I don't even really need to think about it (which is also why I hardly ever write anything downā€¦ theyā€™re just living in my head). That said, the actual story they come from (which doesnā€™t actually have a titleā€”echthroi is just a temporary name) only lasts for about twoā€”maybe threeā€”years. Itā€™s not fully plotted out because I would first need to actually make the Big Decisions Iā€™ve been putting off with relation to the plot for foreverrr, but I know where it starts and where it ends. So theyā€™re both forever in their 20s in that way, but to me theyā€™re every age theyā€™ll ever be.
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