#we've established that i sometimes spontaneously want to kill myself sarah what do you think is going to happen

[elytrafemme]

feeling very grateful for my mother and therapist who find it in their hearts to tell me every single time i mention therapy that i should "consider doing every other week" while denying that it's strictly a time/money incentive for them because i will always explain very clearly that i cannot do anything other than weekly and they'll go okay i get it and then next week ask me again. Like hearing this from my mom, whatever, she doesn't know my issues. hearing it from my fucking therapist, though?

#neg #we've established that i sometimes spontaneously want to kill myself sarah what do you think is going to happen #suicide tw #sorry. but like they're doing this shit AGAIN. #because i canceled under 24 hr advance she is charging a fee and she wrote me an odyssey of a text message like #do you want to go every other week also this helps us not breed resentment - r u fucking joking #and FINALLY my mom FINALLY told me that it's because of money that i should start canceling appts i dont need #but like. for ages she just refused to mention this to me so it was like Okay. well stop telling me to cancel for no reason then #like literally for the first three years of my therapy journey it was every other week but they'd cancel so it'd be #an hour once a month and it was absolutely horrible #so i'm not sure why everyone wants me to stop going to therapy now #just because i have friends and i'm generally happy doesn't mean that i don't have intense breakdowns jesus christ #whatever. no therapy today she can fucking rot #Time to work on an essay ^_^