#was dying or.going.to get myself like unwillingmy in thy 3 hospital it wasnt a good time anf like idk its just like.been in thr baxk of my

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#i just need to vent #but oh my god im ready to jump into traffic #i have to look thru the peep hole in thr frony door and lock the door myself evrry night or else i cannot literally fall asleep and i go to #do iy and fucking i xant get into but i thot my literally actuall fycking nightmare was coming tru but it couldnt look away #and my knees fucking buckled and my heart fycking stopped #and like.im alrwdy so fycking parinoid latelty like walking home at nigjt aftet work is so fucking much and its not been good #and like its getting superclose to cbristmas and like this time last year when i had like my l e g it mental br3akdown i thot i legit thot i #was dying or.going.to get myself like unwillingmy in thy 3 hospital it wasnt a good time anf like idk its just like.been in thr baxk of my #mind and like flipp flopping so fycking much between like pure rage a #like comleptely nothing inside like a hole of nothing #or im like liyerally ready to scream abd cut my hair off ive cut like 3 pieces alrady and like 8 had a nightmare i cant stop thinking avout #cause it wss like t h at co cerning #like i legitemntly feel possesed by another entity that is somehow me and also not me like 90% of the tine #90% of the time.i feel liek.im possesed and i say that in the most like legitement non crazy wat possibly but do the rest if yall really #not live ur lives that was cause what the fuckI'm