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Valentine’s update!

I just updated one of my works on AO3

Baby, Your Laugh Is Rock and Roll Magic

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Chapter 6 : Valentine's Day

Those green eyes, serene as a lake

in whose calm waters one day I contemplated myself,

don't know about the sorrows left in my soul

by those green eyes that I will never forget

"Aquellos ojos verdes" by Paquita la del Barrio

Take me to Spotify!

DEAN

THEN

He keeps messing with the radio.

"Cas, I swear, just. Pick a damn station. Please."

"There's nothing half decent on, Dean. And before you start lecturing me: NO. I don't feel like listening to your music," he snorts, turns off the radio altogether and turns to look out the window. Dean keeps sparing him sideway glances every other mile. He seems more than a little moody today. The rain drums against the car in a soothing rhythm and with no music, it's hard not to drift off.

"Is there any coffee left?"

Silence.

"Cas?"

"What?" He turns around.

"Wanna tell me what's going on, man?"

"Nothing."

"Doesn't sound like nothing."

Cas snorts.

"See, that's your angry snorting right there. C'mon, spill the beans."

"I'm not angry."

"Right."

Cas keeps struggling for a while with whatever it's on his mind and then finally he blurs out: "What's the deal with Bobby and motorcycles?"

Oh. That.

"He doesn't like them."

"Yes, Dean, I get that much. But why?" Cas looks at him earnestly, like this is really important for him.

"His best friend Jesse got killed on his bike."

"Oh," Cas' stance deflates. "He... He didn't mentioned it."

"Do we ever mention those we've lost?"

"No, I guess not," Cas sighs and goes back to that little place inside his head. After a few more miles, Dean insists.

"We still have a few hours to go, do you feel like stretching your legs? I can pull over on the next exit."

"Sure," he nods and goes quiet again.

Half an hour later, they pull up at a truck stop. After a quick visit to the boys room, (Cas, for the love of God, stay away from glory holes!) he gets to the convenient store as Cas takes a walk around the parking lot. Dean makes a bee line to the coffee machine and smack his lips in disappointed. The coffee has the consistency of an oil spill. Given the very sad caffeine situation, he rummages through the candy isles, picking gummy bears, a few Snickers bars, and gum. Next to the register there's a big plastic fish bowl with cassettes tapes for 99 cents and that definitely sparks his attention.

"Gotta love a good treasure hunt," he mutters to himself as he carefully goes through them. The big guy behind the counter chuckles at his comment and that's his cue. He looks up and sees a name tag.

"Amirite, Larry?" Dean grins widely at him.

CASTIEL

Three cigarettes later, Dean comes back with a shit eating grin. He opens the driver's door and toss the plastic bag inside. He makes his way to him with the beaten Stanley tugged under his arm. He places it on top of the trunk and leans against the side of the car.

"What took you so long?" He hands him the cigarette package.

"Got distracted," Dean shrugs, takes one out and pads his pockets. He makes the grabby hands and Cas has to dig the lighter from the front pocket of his jeans.

"Dude, seriously. Quit stealing my shit," Dean sighs and pockets his Zippo. They smoke in comfortable silence for a while. The rain has since stopped. It's cold, cloudy and altogether a gloomy February day. Cas goes for the coffee and can't help a disappointed grunt when he realizes it's empty.

"Tought you were getting coffee?" He didn't mean to sound so childish, but it's been a somewhat meh day.

"Yeah, didn't look so good. Wanna grab a good cup of joe?"

"Do we have the time?"

Dean nods with that stupid grin still plastered on his face.

"Rufus said he expected us after 2 p.m., we can take a detour. Specially for coffee and pie."

"OK, Dean."

"You can throw me under the bus if we run late, don't worry."

"You'll deal with Rufus?"

"Of course, Cas. Don't worry. I got you."

They finish their cigarettes and get back on the road. Apparently Dean seems to know exactly where he's going.

"Larry said this place has the best pecan pie," he says casually looking out the window.

Don't frown at him.

"Who's Larry?"

Don't frown at him.

"Convenience store guy," he replies. That's so like Dean. Making friends in a heartbeat. Charming everyone on his wake.

"It should be... right... this... way... wait... wait... and... there! Aha!"

"I don't see any parking space," Cas points out.

"Yeah, Larry said it might be packed. But worry not, 'cause I asked Vivian to call them ahead, so they should have our order ready to go. And before you ask, Vivian is Larry's special friend."

Cas has to huff, he has to.

"And no, that's not how I got distracted. You go inside and ask for Fred, I'm gonna drive around the block."

"Who's Fred?"

"Fred's the man. Here," he fishes some bucks out of his wallet. "And here," he hands him the Stanley. He slows down almost to a halt and Cas gets out and totally jaywalks to the dinner.

"Cas!" He turns around to see Dean rolling down the window. "Tip the man!" He yells and Cas nods. Then he watches as Dean slowly drives away.

He walks in and, sure enough, the place is packed. He manages to get to the counter where a middle aged brunette in a very pink uniform greets him.

"Hey, sweetie, what can I getcha?"

"Hi, I'm looking for Fred?"

"You the Angel?" She smiles like the Cheshire cat.

"Sorry, what?"

"It's you a'right, baby blues she said. I'm Fred, Vivian said you were coming. Lemme get that for you," she gestures for the thermos and Cas hands it reluctantly. She swirls on her heels and goes to the back, where she disappears for a minute and gets back with three containers.

"A'ight, birthday boy! One order of blueberry pancakes, one waffles and bacon, one pecan pie for dessert and fresh coffee for the road. Is that all?"

Dean. Fucking. Winchester.

DEAN

He cruises by the dinner a third time and this time Cas is there holding a big paper bag with both hands, the Stanley tugged under his arm. He thought a second breakfast for lunch would cheer him up but apparently he was mistaken. He hits the breaks and opens the passenger door to let him in.

"You told them it was my birthday!" Cas barks and sits down miraculously balancing all the food, thank God. He carefully put the containers down on the seat and then he practically shoves the coffee at him. "They sang to me, Dean. The whole freaking dinner sang happy birthday to me. And you said Fred was a man and she was certainly not!"

"Did not."

"You totally did!" Cas sounds pissed, but doesn't slams the door, because he definitely knows better than to take it out on Baby. Dean picks up some speed as they return to the barely existing traffic.

"I said Fred is the man. You don't need to be a man to be the man. And you know birthday boys gets extra everything on their order."

"And she asked me if I was an angel!"

Oh.

"Look, Cas," he begins. "Honest misunderstanding, OK? I said you were named after an angel, not that you were an angel. It's not like. They didn't even know about. Just. Chinese telephone, man."

"And then Fred told me Vivian told her I was feeling 'a little blue' because my girlfriend is going away to college---"

"Never said Sam was a girl," he chuckles.

"So Fred explained me in excruciating detail everything Jesus can do for me, including but not limited to, help me with my most primal urges, and, of course, how to have a healthy long distance relationship."

Now he has to laugh at loud.

"It's not funny, Dean."

"I think that's pretty damn funny."

"You're such a jerk."

That actually hurts hurts.

"Oh c'mon! You know the art it's in the details. You need to chill, man."

"Don't tell me to fucking chill! This is exactly what Sam means!"

Oh hell no.

Under any circumstances he'll endure the tone from Castiel. He'll be damn if he does. He sees a spot ahead, hits the gas, pulls up and hastily hits the breaks. Cas obviously didn't see that coming because when he turns to face him, he's staring back, eyes wide open.

"You don't get to talk to me like that, y'hear me? You're not my brother!"

Oh fuck.

Cas narrows his eyes, snorts.

"Believe me. I know," he mutters through gritted teeth and turns to look away.

"That. That came out wrong."

Breath, just breath.

"That's not. Look. I was trying to cheer you up, a'ight? I just thought. We could. I didn't. I didn't mean to. Fuck." He can feel his voice trembling.

Just say it. Just fucking say it God damnit!

"I'm sorry, Cas."

You fucking coward.

"I didn't mean to upset you."

Cas keeps his back turned but his shoulders sag a little.

"We should eat our breakfast, before it gets cold," he looks around. He seems to have parked on someone's driveway.

"Maybe not in Darren and Karen's driveway."

He pulls out and starts to make his way back to the interstate. Maybe he can find that park he saw on the way to the dinner. Hopefully, the scenery will help up with the mood. Probably not. Shit. Shit. Fuck. Years of carefully and thoughtfully phrasing everything that comes out of his mouth to blow up over one stupid breakfast.

I hate Valentine's day.

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                                                          FEBRUARY           2019

 PAGE  RIB

***** I am over the moon at the suggestion of a biopic of Dave Letterman starring Michael Shannon. Will somebody think about really putting this into production??? Please??

***** Criminal Minds will wrap it up after this next and 15th season. The season 14 finale on Feb.6 will have Rossi’s wedding. They will spend the last season chasing after ‘a worthy adversary’ rumored to be played by Harold Perrineau as they jump ahead in time.

***** I am so touched by shows like Grace and Frankie and Schitt’s Creek that look right past the usually discussed issues for interracial and same sex couples .  Gee, just think, it’s like we are all the same.

***** If you haven’t seen Michael Bennet and his senate floor speech about Ted Cruz, government shutdowns and Trump, run to C-span and catch it. These things make me proud to be in a DEMOCRACY!

***** Can this be true?? The constitution of Texas states that one can’t hold public office unless they believe in a supreme being??

***** Julian Castro is running for President.

***** Kamala Harris is running for President.

***** Cory Booker is running for President.

***** HGTV is apparently working on a huge publicity stunt and ratings grabber. They have purchased the home whose exterior was used in the Brady Bunch. A show will reunite the cast, bring in some famous fane and remodel the inside to look like the Brady set. At the end they may give the house away.

***** Michael Shannon and Audra McDonald will team up to revive Frankie and Johnny in the Clair de Lune on Broadway.

***** Rashida Jones and Bill Murray will star in Sofia Coppola’s’ On the Rocks.’

***** Why isn’t extreme ironing a bigger sport by now??** And can we make Petanque a bigger thing while we’re at it?

***** Craig Ferguson is selling his LA compound.

***** China has landed on the far side of the moon!!!

***** NASA’s New Horizons has went further than anyone has gone before for our first image of Ultima Thule.

***** Kentucky has introduced a bill to ban abortion in the state.

***** Told to a reporter: “It’s your job to speak truthfully and precisely, not mine.” –Kellyanne Conway** The new book, Team of Vipers, suggests that The Conways are working in concert.  It is thought that she is valuable to Trump because she has no qualms about saying anything.

***** Super bowl LIII will host Maroon 5, Travis Scott and Big Boi. They will have no pre- concert interview. It is said that many artists turned down the gig because of the controversy. Maroon 5 has gotten some shit for performing but they caution us to just watch.** Roger Waters has asked Maroon 5 to take a knee during the show.

***** Natasha Lyonne is getting raves for her new show, Russian Doll.

***** Tom Sizemore was arrested for drug possession.

***** 6 NFL coaches were fired in one week!!!

***** Pentagon chief of staff, rear admiral Kevin Sweeney is out.

***** Rod Rosenstein is on the way out.

***** Jaymo’s, a Peoria company is suing Wendy’s over the use of their S’Awesome sauce.

***** We should enact the stop the stupidity act.

***** Why does it seem every other show on the air is sort of an entire season of a Twilight Zone episode?

***** There are more people in the Kremlin than in Washington who know what Trump said to Putin. – Tom Nichols

***** Members of congress can retire at full pay after 1 term. Children of congress members don’t have to pay back student loans. Is that true?? Can this be right??

***** Dupont is laying off workers.

***** Check out love your brain.com.

***** The Golden Globes were held and were hosted by Andy Samberg and Sandra Oh.  My best dressed was Isla Fisher, Elizabeth Moss. Danai Gurira, Julia Roberts, Carol Burnett, Emily Blunt, Lupita Nyong’o, Patricia Clarkson, Jamie Lee Curtis, Jameela Jamil, Rosamund Pike, Jim Carrey, Alison Brie, Gemma Chan and Bradley Cooper. Worst dressed goes to Rachel Weisz, Julianne Moore, Layra Dern, Anne Hathaway, Maya Rudolph, Rami Mlek, Molly Sims and Heidi Klum. I was so happy for winners like The Americans (highlight of the evening!!!), Regina King, Lady Gaga, Mahershala Ali, Patricia Clarkson, Darren Criss, Bohemian Rhapsody, Rami Malek, Olivia Colman and Green Book.  The Cecil B. DeMille award went to Jeff Bridges. The new Carol Burnett award started off with Carol herself. I was saddened that Bill Hader, Henry Winkler, Kieran Culkin, Keri Russell and Sacha Baron Cohen went home empty handed. The Fiji water girl got most of the press and gave much free advertising to her product.  Some of the stars did not like her getting in their shots to push a product without their knowledge, both a clever and sad state of affairs.

***** The Kominsky Method will be back for season 2.

***** The Sag awards had their big night and gave the lifetime achievement to Alan Alda. Winners included Emily Blunt, Darren Criss, Black Panther, Rami Malek and Glenn Close. I was especially thrilled with some love goingto Jason Bateman and Patricia Arquette. Best dressed were Amy Adams, Yara Shahidi, Brian Tyree Henry, Sydelle Noel, Eddie Griffin, Holly Taylor, Sofia Hubitz, Emma Stone, Emily Blunt, Darren Criss, Laverne Cox, Timothee Chalamet, Robin Wright, Lily Tomlin, Chadwick Boseman, Matthew Rhys, Keri Russell, and Catherine Zeta Jones. The WTF award goes to Alison Brie.

***** The Oscar race is on. Best picture could go to Blank Panther, Blackkklansman, Roma, The Favourite, Green Book, Vice, Bohemian Rhapsody and A Star is born. Black Panther also got some love for music and costume design.  Fingers crossed for Isle of Dogs in the animated category. Actor nods had a few surprises. Willem Dafoe and Rami Malek , Lady Gaga and Melissa McCarthy are up for leads and supporting mentions are for Mahershala Ali, Regina King, Adam Driver and Sam Elliott. I am so hopeful for Spike Lee and I want to hear that speech.

***** If you haven’t seen Trigger Warning with Killer Mike, you gotta check it out. He and Sarah Silverman should go on a tour of teaching acceptance for their fellow man.

***** So.. Fox news said that Ruth Bader Ginsberg was dead??

***** In sexual harassment news: Harvey Weinstein is hiring new lawyers.** Les Moonves is seeking arbitration with CBS.

***** Cher has sold her Beverly Hills cottage.

***** Cindy Crawford and Randy Gerber’s daughter, Presley was arrested for DUI.

***** CBS news has named its first female President, Susan Zirinsky.

***** What is happening to the butterflies?

***** Illinois has refused a concert permit to R Kelly and Sony has dropped him. The pressure is finally starting to pay off??

***** Get ready for biopics about Harriet Tubman, Elton John and Ted Bundy.

*****  NY mayor Bill De Blasio has given healthcare to every resident of NY city.

***** 25% of Russians do not have indoor toilets. Putin and his buddies have about $1trillion tucked away from London to Miami.

***** Days alert: I wonder if Leo’s real name ‘Matthew Cooper’ is a nod to out actor Chad Allen from Dr. Quinn??!! It is also fun to see Judith Chapman take on the role of Leo’s Mama, Diana. The pair played Mother and son previously on The Young and the Restless. Is she really Diana Colville from John’s past??** So Stefan has been played by Tyler Christopher who asked for some time off and a sub was put in place who will take over in March. Since Christopher left, he has since decided that he will leave permanently so things are up in the air. Will Stefan and Gabi hook up? Days has been renewed for season 55. HOORAY!!!! Ratings are up 4%. **Loved the line when Chloe told Rex he should wear a cup. **Leo and Xander’s playful “lust” was so sassy!!

***** Happy Valentine’s Day!

***** Steve Buscemi will play God on tv’s Miracle Workers.

***** So, the new Conan format has ups and downs. I miss the band and the desk but I am Loving the fade in and fade out at commercials. I have always hated the, “We’ll be right back “ nonsense. I was sad to lose a half hour at first but Conan and Andy do seem refreshed.

***** Still waiting for the release of Apple Seed which is written, directed and starring Michael Worth. It is one of the final films of Rance Howard who stars with his son, Clint, Adrienne Barbeau and the other Father and son team of Robby and Zephyr Benson.

***** The January Bob Segar concert in Illinois at the Peoria Civic Center is the top selling concert ever at this venue. Old rock acts take note.

***** Bob Costas is out at NBC after 40 years.

***** Trial and Error has been cancelled. BOO!!!

***** Steve Carell will star in Space Force which he is co-creating with The Office showrunner Greg Daniels.

***** Despite some people I admire that are giving Alexandria Ocasio Cortez a talking to like she’s a child, I say ‘Give ‘em Hell!’  She could well be President so fight girl!!

***** Word is that Karen Pence is now teaching at the Immanuel School in Virginia. The school refuses admission to students who participate in or condone homosexual activity. The application for the school states that misconduct includes heterosexual activity outside of marriage, homosexual activity, polygamy, transgender identity and use of pornographic websites. The application goes on to state that ‘a wife must submit to her husband’ and a pledge must be signed to that effect.

***** There is controversy over the bill to give people a day off for Election Day. Many people will still have to work, the country never completely shuts down. How many fucking times do I have to say it: VOTE BY MAIL!!!!!!!!!!!

***** So, Scary clown told us Mexico would pay for ‘the wall’. During the campaign he gave actual ideas for that like Mexico giving us a one time payout or else he would not allow Mexican immigrants to western union money back to Mexico. Another idea was that there would be a great ta on that Western union money. It does not seem like they tried any of that and just decided we would pay for the stupid ‘wall.’ How about the money he makes off Trump merch which his website and hotels still sell to pay for it?? How about the $35 million that Trump sold in real estate in 2018? The ‘Wall’ go fund me did not reach its $1billion goal so the $20 million they did collect is being offered for refunds. Some of those people still want that money to go for its purpose so Trump is creating a non- profit. Can’t we use that money to help the border patrol agents and get the backlog in immigration court moving?? That we are still talking about this ridiculous wall and that it had a go fund me page is enough to boggle the normal brain.** I think Kimmel said it best when he suggested that Trump just tell the red hats that the wall has been built.  They believe everything he says so why wouldn’t they believe that??  It would save the country a lot of headaches. ** What the Hell is with his new “wheels and walls” mantra??** Russia caused Brexit too? Putin is a menace.** Another sink hole appeared the White House. WTF?

***** The congressional budget office says the shut down cost the U.S. 11 billion

***** Trump is talking to Herman Cain about a job on the Federal Reserve Board.

***** The GOP is selling fake bricks that cost about 50 cents for $20 each to send to Senate Dems. Some have said that the Dems should sign them and sell them and give the money to government workers. ** Why are Russian jets fucking around on the North American coastline??

***** Roger Stone has been indicted on 5 counts of false statements, 1 count of obstruction and 1 count of witness tampering. The FBI officers who arrested him were part of the shut down and they still did their job!!  He publically and privately claimed to have communicated with Russia. Predictions are that many more indictments are coming down the pike that involve many familiar faces.** Roger Stone has a Nixon tattoo on his back. I feel sorry for his cell mate.-Bill Maher

***** Bill Maher got some flak for comments after Stan Lee died. He wasn’t slamming Lee, but wondered about comic book fans putting away childish things. I suppose that could include weed but point taken.

***** Jared Kushner along with 30 other White House staff was denied top secret clearance but Trump advisor Carl Kline overruled that decision and gave it to them anyway. This has never been done before, this is a job for intelligent agencies.

***** Empire star Jussie Smollett was attacked in Chicago in what cops are saying was a possible hate crime. The attackers were yelling that this was MAGA country, poured bleach on him and put a rope around his neck.  The actor was previously sent a letter full of homophobic and racist slurs which he FBI had been looking into.

***** Ellen page gave us some memorable, powerful words to chew on with her appearance on Stephen Colbert. I am sure she gave courage to many who suffer because of our hate filled administration.

***** Gwyneth Paltrow is being sued from a 2016 ski incident for 3 mil.

***** I gain more and more respect for Seth Meyers. I did not really understand the choice of him as host in the beginning. His notice of local stations, choice of guests and revolving drummers makes for a great show.

***** A Dutch company may have invented a small device that converts heat into cold and Forbes is saying, ‘it could save the planet.’

***** So looking forward to Ryan Murphy’s The Politician which will star Jessica Lange, Gwyneth Paltrow and January Jones.

***** I know that is has happened little by little and we go thru times in our history when things get worse and then things get better but… When did this country get so fucking corrupt?? I mean seriously.. Why is Brendan Dassey still in prison and why is there no real justice for Teresa Halbach? ** Why is Trump still in the White House?**Why are government workers being told to work for nothing?? Why is R Kelly still living it up?? Why are some states going backward in time when it comes to women’s health?? Why do many corporations care more about their own pockets than the children of their employees or the environment around them??** Why does our justice system so often punish big for small infractions and allow the powerful to do anything they want?? **Why is a wall a better idea than infrastructure or warm beds for the homeless or food for our children and why are so many children in cages??

***** How can it be that we are still in a world where people are not allowed to reach their full potential?? Why do so many selfish humans actually fight to live in a world where they actively hold others back? Shouldn’t we all be concerned about the greater good?  We should all be allowed to see a Doctor when we are ill. We should all be able to excel in education if we choose .We should all be able to get a job to fit our skills and work ethic.  Opportunities and the pursuit of happiness should be available to all. Why is this so fucking hard for so many to grasp in this world? Imagine!

***** Sundance premiered the new flick, Big time adolescence with Griffin Gluck and Pete Davidson. Pete has since made no bones about filming in Syracuse. He hated it.

***** Jeff Flake will join CBS news as a contributor.

***** Tom Brokaw is in a bit of trouble for saying Hispanics should work harder at assimilation.

***** The Tom Hanks/ Matthew Rhys film, A beautiful day in the neighborhood has pushed back its release date to Nov. 22.

***** People are illogical and self- centered. Love them anyway. -Hedy Lemarr

*****R.I.P. Bob Einstein, Millie Wiesehan, victims of the Torrance. Ca. bowling alley shooting, Captain Darryl Dragon, Jo Andres, Lamin Sanneh, Carol Channing, Sandra Harmon, Bradley Bolke, the victims of Mediterranean shipwreck, Lorna Doom, victims of the Florida bank shooting, Kaye Ballard, Willie York , Barbara Claman , victims of the mining dam collapse in Brazil and James Frawley.