#wait omg i started talking abt drk but now i'm reminiscing on the past again wah

[noxtivagus]

hsjfjdjlfdk i really am a drk main at heart ><

#🌙.rambles #i rmber how the job quests rlly comforted me back then #i cried in most of them #those words felt like a hug yk? n it served as a voice when i was afraid to speak out #n the way they deal with 'self' in the quests n the phrasing of the dialogue n 'you' ;;; #'—yearning to be free. yearning to set YOU free. you need only ask.' #wait these songs i'm listening to rn r making me emotional they bring back sm memories T_T #i rmber how matoya's words (the mushroomery ost as well) rlly comforted me #octopath set me free for a while as well. i really liked cyrus n the music meant so much to me #rufus's welcoming ceremony my most vivid memory of it is my dad humming it when he came back home after work #zanarkand ffx was the first ff i was exposed to cs of my dad. i first played xiii tho #i rmber watching my dad play the witcher 3 so many years ago. i started it myself i think in 2020 but i never continued then #this year i picked it up again. i rmber how nostalgic it felt seeing the uhhh opening for the 3rd time or smth #super mario galaxy was one of my fav childhood games. i never rlly played far into the game itself but i rmber thr music n the stars n stuff #i listened to nier music ever since early 2021 #n for these 3 ffxiv ones in specific. memories of playing the game w my friends across the world #winning a free switch iirc in late 2019 n in 2020 i played a lot of the games i borrowed from a relative #my aunt never was able to play fe3h/botw/octopath again for quite a long time ;;; #n i played a lot of acnh that first summer of the decade. n i finally got to finishing games like ffxv & kh #wait omg i started talking abt drk but now i'm reminiscing on the past again wah #drk's story opened my eyes in a time where i was drowning in darkness. #in my fear of swimming i was sinking. so i let myself free n let myself float. #and so soaking in the water slowly and gradually took away the burden of all the debris i wasn't aware were bringing me down #how freeing it was to be your own best friend. but i'm human. i can't be alone for too long #yeah i feel calmer now. remembering really is both my pain and comfort. how tragic n bittersweet it is to be so torn in the inside #but it's alright. i'll pick up these shards n glasses fragments n put them back together again and again. #maybe some residue is forgotten. left behind. or picked up by another. #i don't mind; i need to continue on towards the future