#tw abuseive dad shit just itgnore or don’t whatever

[campirebites]

me internally: how can someone eat rice SO angrily

my father immediately not being able to hold it in any longer: you SERIOUSLY. need to consider that job opportunity. You’re never going to be able to support yourself [ a freudian pause ] working at a craft store

#tw abuseive dad shit just itgnore or don’t whatever #he then talked at me for a few minutes in front of our family and then my mom was like WHY DO YOU LOOK LIKE YOURE GOING TO CRY #and I just shook my head and was like no it’s fine and then picked at my food cuz wow suddenly not hungry #and then I just sat there silently and didn’t eat bc I know from previous experience I will get screamed at for going to my room early #and then she tried AGAIN #fuck like I’m trying to keep it together so your abusive husband doesn’t yell at me for having emotions #I’m so fucking tired of him #I’m so fucking tired of noting I do ever being good enough #I have never I will never be enough for him #no matter what I do he fucking hates me and I don’t fucking understand #when he finished his tangeant about how I’m not enough not good enough once I was visibly upset he was visibly happier #which was probably the first time I’ve ever visibly noticed it and for some reason I’m floored #I’m so fucking tiered #camshrieksintothevoid #who wants to just fucking kill me im fucking done #now my stomach hurts and I wasn’t to fucking die thank u father hope u sleep like a fucking baby im sure u will #it’s 6:30 maybe I’ll just fucking go to bed #I was having such a good day too fuck #also like JUST SAY IT WITH YOUR WHOLE FUCKING CHEST #IF YOU THINK IM A DISAPPOJNTMENT FUCKING SAY IT LOOK ME IN THE EYSZ U FUCKING PUSSY #fuck whatever idc #I don’t fucking care