#totally not reminding me of that year

[anarchypumpkincowboy]

Sklonda Gukgak telling riz she doesn’t like “the ball” and riz being like “no I like it it’s meant as a good thing” is definitely, totally, for sure not reminding me of when I was in high school and all my friends and several classmates called me “cripple” all the time and I was like “this is okay it’s meant to be affectionate” right now

#totally not reminding me of that year #dimension 20 #d20 fhjy #fhjy spoilers #riz gukgak #sklonda gukgak #I do love her so much #remembering further I’m pretty sure a couple teachers called me that too #chronically disabled #queer cripple

[omaano]

“How’d you get stuck with babysitting duty anyway?” Boba asked one day during dinner. “Oh, I volunteered for this,” Fox told him. “Why the kark would you do that?” “Language,” Fox admonished. “Well, I was just living my normal boring life and I thought to myself, ‘I don’t get called an ugly piece of banthashit often enough.’ So I decided to adopt you.” Boba snorted. “You’re a psychopath,” he told Fox. “I’ve been called worse,” Fox replied breezily. Boba doesn’t find a new family and Fox doesn’t become anybody’s dad; an adoption story.

@bilbosmom-belladonna commissioned me to illustrate a scene from her delightful fic Trying to Escape What You Can't Let Go. She was amazing to work with and you should absolutely check out her fun little found family story!

#boba fett #young boba fett #commander fox #star wars fanart #tcw fanart #my art #digital art #cc 1010 #sw fanart #sw tcw #artists on tumblr #fanart #I've only ever drawn baby Boba with this one expression on his face but I love him with it so much #also I was recently reminded that 12-13 year olds are actually teeny tiny so I guess he got his growth spurt early? #can you please appreciate Fox's barely visible shirt? #I'm so glad Bella let me work it in in the end!! I thought I was being very funny #also totally check out the fic!! the banter is A++! and boba is such a traumatized little shit I love him! #they match just right with fox

[iraprince]

Hiii, i love your stuff and kinda from a distance really look up at you for, in my perception, being able to express yourself without giving a fuck. Thats sick dude, Im so so afraid, of absolutely everything, its nice to think like i might grow into someone less apologetic of my existence. Nice to see people just being yknow

hey, thank you, this is really really nice. the secret that is probably not a secret is that i am also deeply afraid a lot of the time lmao -- but less than i used to be, and in ways that feel less stifling and self-suffocating, if that makes sense.

like, it used to be "i'm scared that if i express myself the way i want to, everyone will find me obnoxious, so let's just sand those edges down to be safe" -- now my fears are more like "now that i'm expressing myself in a way that feels natural and real, i'm afraid that it's all stupid/vapid/not worthwhile or meaningful" (<- specifically abt my art) or "i'm happy that i talk and act the way i want to now, but what if it makes me impossible to befriend," etc etc etc. which still feels bad and puts me in a funk a lot of the time but at least it's a fear that comes After/in reaction to doing stuff, rather than a fear that STOPS me from doing stuff, you know? like, it's evolved into a kind of fear that's less in my way.

anyway. i believe you'll experience something like this, because wanting to grow is the first step of growing. the fact that u hope or wish for something different means you're already on your way. to fewer fucks!! or at least distributing the fucks u give in a way that serves u better

#stuff like accepting that i'm reserved and i'm not very accessible via messages. #or that my online tone isn't very bubbly and it's weird and uncomfortable to force it. #i stop letting fears about that shape my behavior ('i'll look mean or snotty so let's force markers of Friendliness to avoid that!!') - #- and instead act the way i want to and then trade it in for new fears that come After the action. #also a good reminder to give urself is that if ur fear is abt how other ppl perceive u (as 90% of mine is personally) #u really... can't actually control that. and being very very anxious abt it all the time is usually ur brain throwing a tantrum abt not-- #--having that control. bc it is understandably very scary that u don't have that control #as much as it sucks + is terrifying the truth is the only thing u can do is ask urself 'am i behaving in a way that i'm proud of' #'am i behaving in a way that's in alignment w my values + what i think is important' #bc if the answer to that is yes and somebody hates u or is deeply offended by ur existence anyway. well. literally not ur problem #but obv being at peace w that is way way easier said than done + requires tons of practice and will take. probably. years. which is fine #i am stuck with myself. i can either contort myself forever trying to be someone everyone will like and find totally nonthreatening and- #inoffensive and in the process exhaust myself totally and never feel safe or natural myself. OR #i can say okay. so i am a kind of prickly guy with stern and drab speech patterns and close to no social energy. and i think i can still be #-sexy and fun this way. and it is up to other ppl to figure out if they can agree w me on that #ANYWAY enough rambling for now. just another one of those things i think abt a lot so i have a lot of ready-made sentences abt it in mind

[sysig]

Ah, if there are slots open still for requestober, and if you'd like to draw this one-- human RGB, and Hero's reaction to meeting him, please? Apologies if I misunderstood any of the rules and this isn't in line with them...

Day 22 - Nuh-uh! That's not a TV!

#My art #Requestober #The Property of Hate #TPoH #Hero #RGB #You're all good anon! :D #As a quick reminder/rundown - slots are open either until they're filled with requests or the day passes without a request #So there's a limited number of slots just through the passage of time >:3c #And I almost called this one on a technicality since I've drawn RGeeBs bunches but didn't remember drawing his human form - #But then I went and looked and no yeah I totally did once lol silly me! It's been a bit but that counts! :D #I actually haven't been caught up in a while so excuse if their designs look on the older side lol #I mostly went based on the one from last year - I'll catch up again after a while :) #They are both still quite fun to draw haha ♪ Hero's got such a cute and sweet design even with all the replacements! #And while I love RGB's TV head he's quite handsome as a human - and his proportions are still the same! #Funnest legs to draw in the West (lol) #Forced to be a bit on the vulnerable side! Crouching down for her to inspect and hunched on in himself hehe #Be subjected to scrutiny! Turned this way and that! Gotta get used to your sounds coming out of this ''new'' face hehe #Cute lads <3

[monarchisms]

i am not immune to being apprehensive to change when it comes to something i really like getting a redesign/rebrand/what have you, but i think what the try guys have been doing lately is an exception. in my opinion, the best like, refreshes of a long-lasting brand/group are the ones that have (at least some of) the same recognizable elements of its previous iteration(s):

from day one, branding with the try guys has had a heavy emphasis on color, with the blue/red/green/purple scheme representing keith/ned/zach/eugene, respectively. the colors were in their intro and outro to their videos, they're still especially present in their merchandise, the whole nine yards. with ned rightfully getting kicked out of the group for his "consensual workplace relationship" (jesus), it made sense that they had to stop and change their branding after this sudden event.

the orange era serves as a good bridge between the quartet group icon they started with and the neon triangle icon we have now, but it was kinda temporary. in a way, the try guys as a brand were having an identity crisis, having lost both a founding member and a (now former) friend. i think the current rebrand is a solid mix of their past and future, the blue/green/purple making a return + the triceratops remaining in the center, and the new elements with the triangles and general neon aesthetic (sidenote: triangle + triceratops + try/tri guys makes me go insane. i love it)

i also really like how the orange is reincorporated with the portraits for each of the guys in the pictures shared on their social accounts. alongside this, their poses showcasing their general personalities with the fact that the triangles are play buttons (which i didn't know until i read some alt text on one of their their tweets, whoops!):

overall present a strong sense of familiarity with the boys, but Also the excitement they have on moving forward with whatever the future brings, and i just think that's neat :)

*i didn't know where to fit this bit besides the very end,

but i like the idea that the triangles can also represent a fast forward button, further pushing the idea of the guys moving forward. likely more of a coincidence here but still cool nonetheless :P

#hey i got the energy to make this post #i had to grab some of these images from the wayback machine #that's how i learned that all twitter profile icons are saved as jpgs and thus lack transparent backgrounds #which is a crime against humanity #the try guys #try guys #i also agreed that on the socials #the hype was greater than it should have for some that is /relatively/ minor #but ah well #and yeah it totally reminds me of doritos (compliment) #a funny contrast to rooster teeth and their new fast food-type logo (derogatory) #that one is garish and childish and ''just playing'' gives off the same childish energy #not great when the whole frat boy culture is one of the most prevalent complaints people who've worked there have had for years #but alas.............................................

[grison-in-space]

Since the dental Tribble has been on a strict no kibble, no crunchy, no chewing diet. (In a week or so she'll be allowed to use her teeth again a bit more, but no one wants to see a dog get dry socket.) Spouse feels that canned dog food (perpetually on hand to make into pupsickles) is not experienced as filling enough, and we do know that Tribble has done better on grain inclusive foods for the past decade, so... the rice cooker has been simmering with chicken stock rice too bulk out the canned food all week, and Matilda and Benton have both gotten a fair bit of overflow rice as a treat.

Unconnectedly, tonight happens to be my first night alone as the sole human all evening in quite a few months. Matilda has been doing her job of enforcing bed, of course, but I can also rely on other humans to help make routine happen if she's too tired to be on it.

If I was worried that Tilly hadn't worked out her evening routine enforcement functions before now, I shouldn't have been. I don't think I've ever seen a dog so excited to move the evening along towards the part where dinner and the good cookies are.

#Matilda #australian cattle dog #1 year #the things I'm trying to achieve feel so embarrassing sometimes #like the complex and flexible but not too flexible pressure to do things that are good for me at intervals in the evenings #and yes yes yes it's just that old insecurity again #I grew up literally being told that the audhd was just my special burden to overcome in secrecy: the internalized stuff is not surprising #but it also means I'm watching her cues fairly carefully #and she's now completely reliable to alarmed tasks and mostly reliable to totally uncued pesterbot reminders #it's probably time to work on other grounding behaviors and really practice DPT more but I'm just really admiring my dog's progress so far #she had her first dog reactivity 2: building basic social skills class Tuesday and barely reacted to the five other dogs in class at all #by which I mean that she stared and leaned once #answered her leave it #and relaxed enough into counterconditioning to be rolling all over the floor and grinning delighted at me by the end of class #I'm beginning to see the shape of her grown self coming out #and I think I see why people are willing to go back and keep raising puppies from this breed of incredibly awful adolescences #it's a good shape. strong. very prone to getting distorted over a few generations if a breeder isn't keeping an eye on it #I can see what she's going to be like when she's put on some more emotional development #and I'm really beginning to look forward to it

[pillowprincessvarric]

I was going to make a post complaining abt how annoying everyone is being about the cooking manga but then I realized that I could instead use that time to actually read the cooking manga. Which is quite good!

#also have i mentioned yet how (the early chapters at least) really remind me of this other food-focused manga I used to read #that had a post-apocalypse/soft apocalypse setting? #anyways. Giant Spider & Me. #can't totally vouch for its quality bc its been a couple years but i think it was cute. might be worth a google.

[theabyssgazesalsointoyou]

every time i see a post saying the bmc fandom is dead i am hit with the sickening realization that i am in the be more fucking chill fandom in the year of the lord 2023 at the age [redacted] and i feel so defeated

#like bro you didn't have to remind me this fandom peaked in 2017 when there were a bunch of 14 year olds #and that it's considered 'cringe' by most #it's totally fine i'm having fun. whatever.

[ameliafuckinjones]

The thought of Amelia/Alfred declaring independence and then being immediately thrust into parenthood appeals to me. Imagine if you will shortly after the Revolution the emergence of State Personifications coming about with each admission to the Union (Delaware was the first one). Whether they appear miraculously or are birthed via (unwilling) parthenogenesis (which I prefer) the bottom line is that suddenly America has all these kids to take care of, all of who grow up just as fast as America did. Regardless of how they came to be or how fast they grow, America loves them with his/her whole being and creates a system in which they are always protected and accounted for by the larger government. America promises to be there for them the way England never was.

Then fast forward to the Civil War, and America is waging a bloody war against half of her/his children that see hundreds of thousands of their people dead. Brother against brother, father against son, cousin against cousin. And each secession feels like a small death because they are part of America just as much as America is a part of them, practically inseparable, or at least America thought so. To add even more complexity, not all of America's children were white or white-passing. America being neglected because s/he was to far away or denied certain rights for not being British enough was bad on its own, but imagine your parent not being able to claim you or fully protect you or give you basic human rights without public/social/political backlash because your skin is darker and you're legal property in half the country. Or imagine having powerful politicians who want to keep people who look like your children in bondage and you have to compromise with them to keep the Union whole, knowing the opinions they would have if they even knew you had children who were black (some of them do know and make sure their opinions are known). Or your other children starting a war to selfishly keep this system in place at the expense of their black siblings. The relationship between America and his/her children, with America acting as both the federal government that protects the states as well as the greater whole that represents the Union and the states as the children, each an extension of America, an integral part of America's being, pushing back against the sometimes overbearing hovering of their parent, impeding on states rights (whether they believe America is in the right or not) and protecting others and sometimes America will helplessly throw his/her hands in the air and say "fine, ill let YOU decide on this issue because I am not a dictator, despite what some of you like to think, but if you fuck up im stepping in" because America doesn't want to make the same mistakes England made in the past but then America has to deal with the negative consequences of her/his children's actions when they do something unbelievably stupid while trying not to seem like a fire-breathing tyrant. Which, they end up thinking anyway, regardless if America wasn't entirely in the wrong about butting in and taking hold of the situation before it escalated. The negative reaction only serves to make America step away AGAIN so as to not seem completely authoritarian in their eyes. It's a never-ending cycle. Not to mention the complex relationships the states have with each other, especially the southern states among themselves and the southern vs northern states rivalry.

Edit:

also whenever America takes his/her eyes off the states for 1mili second to see what the rest of the world is up to (hopefully not another world war) while usually being like 'back off, geeze! 🤬' America's children immediately switch to 'how come you're not paying attention to ME instead 🥺 you always focus on the world instead of ME 😢'

#i have a lot of thoughts about the states #hetalia #aph america #aph states #hetalia civil war #i can only imagine Thanksgiving at the Jones family estate 😭 #also America having a family outside Arthur and Matt is really makes sense to me #why else would America be so absorbed with itself if not because of its over dramatic children known as the states??? #not even England and Canada and the entire world can draw America's attention away from them #and if for a moment America steps away to bang a few heads together America immediately steps right back to hover over its children #like an overprotective mama eagle #and America totally doesn't have favorites!!! (its New York California Louisiana Florida the Man and Texas the Problem Child in that order) #the other states obviously know the main favs are NY CA FL and TX but they're always surprised when they realize its also Louisiana #and that's because Louisiana reminds America of France with its unique and charming American Franco hybrid culture #also as the years go by America begins to understand a few things about England a LOT more #still feels s/he does the parenting thing better (debatable but not entirely unfounded)

[todayisafridaynight]

hear me out on this one

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #jo sawashiro #snap sketches #cause i asked myself 'what if we have him more layers' i dont want to see AN OUNCE of skin from this dude #another similarity between mine and sawashiro is ive drawn tthem both in turtlenecks. lol. #funny as hell tho ever since i watched we make antiques i actually wanted to draw arakawa in a turtleneck #he always reminds me of a turtle anyway for some reason... #i mean this isnt totally off that mentality either. ttm did look cute in a turtleneck in like. Two Things #Awful tho all i thought bout when drawin the neck part was that Pencil Neck bit from p&f LMAO #omg wait rant time cause i drew this while waiting to hang with my bitchass friend #done with comm work for the morning and she taking nine years so. lets doodle #but then this bitchass friend forgot we were hanging out today even tho SKE asked to hang out today. as she did yesterday. #like UGH im not saying sawashiro is valid for bullying ichi for being late all the time but i get it. #this is legitimately the second day in a row where she forgot we were meeting and its making me explode #anyway she just texted me nw so i guess shes gonna come over soon #which means i get to be mad at her playin y7 LMAO ITS ALL FUN anyway bye

[spaciebabie]

I CANT BE AT WORK THINKING ABT THIS DUMB FUCK MY WHOLE SHIFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JESUS CHRIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#WOUROUROYGOHGORUGH #SAVE ME FROM THIS HELL #spacie spoinks #ive never had my thoughts fueled b4 i think. thats the problem. #its like pouring gasoline on a bonfire #ITS SPRINGTRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SMILING AND GIGGLING IRL B/C OF SPRINGTRAPPPPPPPOSDIOGIUDLHGLJKDHJADGDAHGUJLAEHGJDKLGHOIAUGJ #FUCK!!!!!!!!! #its been 17 years........................ #GET OUT OF MY HEAD I NEED 2 SHELVE BPOOKS #quick someone remind me of how hes a total piece of shit

[fernforest16]

Pushed the queer slider to full today

#Got new makeup brushes and had to try em out immediately #Also i think masc clothes full face of makeup is funny #I should do this more often #Also listening to studio killers always reminds me of the girl named jenny (spelled differently tho) that i had a crush on for like a year #I made a total fool of myself but it was fun lol

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

what frustrates me abt the nevers being cancelled is not necessarily the story like it felt sort of complete. complete enough for a season anyway, openings for a second but, like, done

but all the little things like i get why Knitter, you Knit flesh back together it's like stitching but different. but why Stripe? it's the soldier, the brute force (maybe?), the just following orders, good for using your body to protect the more valuable members of the team but nothing more than that ("im not good, im no leader, im not smart, im just a stripe"), why do we call that Stripe, what does that refer to? and the leader i think of the team was Crescent? why do they call people 'gray'. does it really mean entirely the same thing as 'green' bc i dont think so. theres so much abt the future world we could still find out

how did the galanthi...arrive. how did it start. the parallel situation to the victorians getting spored what was the reaction in future-society. when exactly are they?

#they mightve said that and i just missed it #do i start tagging the nevers #the nevers #nobody has posted in that tag since a year ago when the second half of the season came out fhkjhgjg #im lying people are still doing fic recently #why are names so precious! reminds me of the southern reach trilogy #is it to focus on function not get distracted by identity? is it bc of like information security? #what WAS the political situation like? #i would totally take like a sequel novel or comic or whatever #or what they did with orphan black an audiodrama #i just wanna know more #ugh okay im sucked in now arent i. they got me they got me #im looking for the music to make a little video like i did with lidia poët #maybe i can drag someone down with me #if the interest lasts i'll make a sideblog #i just dont expect it to. for now

[starteas]

do what you want forever actually. just because more people have eyes on you doesn't make you less human. I think you should be kinder on yourself and remember that you aren't just here to make content: you're a complex individual with a lot of thoughts on things and you shouldn't be afraid to share them out of fear of backlash. and if you ever feel like "maybe I shouldn't say something?", take a step back, deep breath, and ask yourself why. Please take your time and remember that you are loved and appreciated, and that those are the people who should matter most to you. not meaningless hate from people who don't even totally understand what they're defending. now go have a spectacular day, I was possessed to write this

Thank you so much. That means a lot. 🥲

#I’m gonna be totally honest sometimes I forget I’m a person #because my following has grown so much over the years it’s hard for me to see myself as anything but thre creator of Lumi #like it’s a title I love and I’m very happy to hold #but it’s also just… difficult in a way #seeing people see me as a huge inspiration is cool and really sweet #but it’s also very scary #i feel like I have to be a huge example for other folks out there #and if I mess up or write something regarding an opinion it has a bigger impact than I’d realize it to be #as someone who’s trying to break into the animation industry it’s. a lot. for sure #i constantly worry about messing up and not doing things properly #but seeing this was a great reminder that I am after all just a person. I’m complex and flawed and no less human #so thank you for this genuinely #it means more than you could ever know #Evan bleats #anonymous

[thiefnessman]

cmon tumblr there was a new stardew valley update there’s GOTTA be new posts about elliott. why aren’t you recommending me them :(

#look i mean im glad tumblr isn’t super algorithm driven but out of all the posts it chooses to show me #it somehow doesn’t show me any from all the elliott tags i follow? :( #ok i haven’t actually played sdv in years but that doesn’t mean my love for elliott is gone #i don’t know why i like him so much (lying. i totally do. it was bc i came off of a fe3h BEagles playthrough right before i started stardew #and elliott reminds me of ferdinand (who i am also inexplicably obsessed with)) #get cubed idiot

[missholson]

Ralph Bates as Lord Courtley

Taste the Blood of Dracula (1970) dir. Peter Sasdy

#taste the blood of dracula #peter sasdy #ralph bates #lord courtley #hammer films #cinematography #costume design #ralph enters the world of hammer films by making his debut as a flamboyant lord #the performance gave him four more roles with the studio #all five films within the years 1970-72 #ngl it took me a month to get these done (still not totally happy with them all) #endless remaking & refining & learning until my body screamed for exercise #(a good reminder for those who think that everything here is free to repost without giving any credit to the creator) #his style in the movie is such a splendour #especially the cloak with blue satin lining & the velvet bow tie #ralph bates project #own gif #own post