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butch-bakugo · 3 years

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Not sure how else to explain this but the whole idea that if you tell someone to stop hyperfixating on something or tell them that you cant consume certain things critically is ableist is bs.

Warning, bitch long, yeet

Like, its very very centered around adhd people who have bigoted interests and value their fandom over actual support of oppressed people. Its very clear yall veiw adhd and autisitc people as children who " just cant help it" which is ableist. I personally am professionally diagnosed with adhd and autism, i cant fully control (to an extent) what i hyperfixate on but i can control my own actions.

Like recently, ive found myself wanting to go watch pewdiepie videos and rewatch the anime hetalia, both are things i HEAVILY hyperfixated on for 4 or more years. Both things are horribly racist and i am well aware of this now after their inital popularity waves have died out. However, i am mature enough to notice when my hyperfixation is about to start rehappening cause ive had it before.

Ive hyperfixated and unhyperfixated on fnaf and undertale on and off for years. I know what that first itch of " oooo... Im kinda getting attached again" feels like and any adhd or autisitc person CAN. Its litterally one of the first positive things about haveing these disorders that people notice. We know when a new interest has the potential of starting and wr can quite litterally feel it like every other person, nd or nt.

But the difference between a person who is using the whole argument of " i have adhd so you cant hold me morally responsible for supporting harry potter" as an excuse to keep helping a bigoted creator vs a mature adhd individual who can not control their hyperfixations is their actions after the intial " shit! its by a bad person/its bigoted!"

If someone with adhd and/or autism is drawing and posting fanart, buying shitloads of merch, making cosplays, posting about it, talking about it constantly to friends and reccommending it to people as being the holy grail of interesting things? Thats not critical consumption. Your just being a intentionally blind consumer. Even if they are re-entering an old interest and have old merch, your still wearing it out/posting it in public to advertise it to others.

Your that bigoted creator's walking propaganda

Just cause i noticed that im wanting to rewatch hetalia or pewdiepie dosent mean i dont have the self control to go watch something or someone else that im interested in that isnt racist. People with adhd and autism have self control over these actions. Yeah we cant control if we start stimming or bouncing our legs cause we are getting hyper, but we can control who we watch and what we monetarily support.

I have old hetalia shirts, i dont wear them in public. Thats a pj shirt now because i dont want others to ask about hetalia and get interested in it because they saw me in it. I dont want to advertise that i was a dumb kid who liked a racist old anime. Liking hetalia isnt a good thing and i should feel at least abit of shame that i ever liked it.

Im not gonna shame my 13 yr old self for not noticing racism that wasnt blatant and hateful but instead romantizing nazi japan but im still gonna shame myself for not noticing racism period. Yeah, i do believe the 13 yr olds who still support dream and buy his shit and post fanart but think its ok cause they are " consuming critically" should feel ashamed. If you know you like something or someone regardless of their horrendously terrible actions, you should be ashamed of yourself. That dosent mean kick your ass about it but you should still feel that.

Basically, us adhd and autisitc people know when we are about to hyperfixate on something and we feel emotions strongly enough that if we find the bigotry in it to be bad enough, guilt will build up( as it SHOULD. Cause you are guilty of supporting a bigot.) Till we dont feel comfortable fuckin around with it anymore and boom! Hyperfixation gone. I was hyperfixating on fnaf till the shit about scott came out and suddenly, my hyperfix took a u-turn. I was starting to hyperfix on oran high school host club as i was watching it then they started saying tranny and being weirdly transphobic/homophobic and condoning/glorifying incest and boom! Hyperfix is dead in the water.

The thing about autisitc people is we tend to have our own strict moral code that we do NOT want to break. I dont think stealing from random people is a good thing so when i play a video game, i get crazy nervous trying to steal things. If i break one of my own morals, i feel like im rotting alive in anguish. I looked through my gfs phone once cause i suspected cheating, didnt find anything. I think looking through your partner's phone is a pretty shitty and invading thing unless cheating has already been a confirmed issue so i felt very guilty. Planned on staying quiet about it, didnt happen, i told her in under 10 minutes of it happening and she forgave me. We still feel bad for shit that happened when we were like 8.

So yeah, the only time an autistic person wont feel guilty about supporting bigoted work/bigoted artists shit is if that bigotry dosent go aginest that internal code. Yes, that autistic friend of yours who unapologetically supports dream, dosent think racism is bad enough to feel guilty about it. Its not that hard.

Another thing is that we can control our own actions. We arnt immature enough to just be utterly incapable of not watch pewdiepie 😭 when our brain remembers our old interests. We can control ourselves enough to understand that and not click on his videos. We are mature enough to sit down, sigh, remember his actions and the things he promotes, understand the harm he caused to many people, understand that if this hyperfixation is ignored that it will pass then click on a markiplier video and forget about it. Any adhd or autisitc person who tells you otherwise is either a. Not getting the help they need to cope,b. Telling you some bullshit just so youll stop asking why they think a racist is funny or c. Dosent actually care about the damage done by racists enough to feel moral guilt over supporting one.

Final note: people with adhd and autism, though can not control their hyperfixations, can control their own actions. They can stop themselves from consuming shitty bigoted content by shitty bigoted people and " critical consumption" is an excuse.

#levi speaks #anyone who calls my disabled ass an ableist cause you cant critically consume dream while posting fanart can pay me $500 #ableism my ass #you can control your own fuckin actions you just dont want the backlash #either that or get some fucking self control #either your immature or you dont care about the bigotry #either option dont worl

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