#tl;dr explanation maybe to come later but i may have the ability to buy a house sometime in the next 12 months

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#what i'm really trying to figure out is whether or not i want to move to another state #tl;dr explanation maybe to come later but i may have the ability to buy a house sometime in the next 12 months #and idk like maybe i don't want that to be here #but i also know i'm susceptible to the whole 'this arbitrary life change will fundamentally transform my capacity as a human being' illusion #and i also don't necessarily have a Place i particularly Want To Go #so i'm starting my figuring-out process over here with 'can i establish a Friend Group in slc or is it just too small to make that work' #the last time i felt like i really had that was back at school #and like at least four of the people i was pretty close to i only met b/c one time i said HEY I THINK YOU GUYS ARE REALLY COOL IDK BYE #and then ran the fuck away #and somehow that worked so idk anything is possible #(AVI YOU WERE THERE; IS THAT NOT EXACTLY HOW THIS WENT DOWN)