#though A-Qing isn't a cultivator so can they even do anything with her soul

[veliseraptor]

For the ILCBLT AU, AU where after 10 plus years of domestic bliss XXC dies. Not suicide or murder, could be a lightning strike if you want.

I knew I'd kind of written something for this in the past but it took me forever to find it - I did eventually though! although that's specifically about if both Xiao Xingchen and Song Lan die, which is different.

I can say that it would absolutely wreck both Xue Yang and Song Lan, and a-Qing, but in this case with the 10 years of background they wouldn't fall apart relationship-wise and I think would be more able to lean on each other.

the main issue here is going to be that Xue Yang's inclination, immediately, is "okay, this is a resolvable problem, we just bring him back from the dead" which is not going to fly with Song Lan very well, except for the part of him that is like BUT WHAT IF but also...he knows that's not what Xiao Xingchen would want, he knows it's an abomination against nature that would be imprisoning Xiao Xingchen's soul never to reincarnate, he knows it's the wrong thing to do.

and yet with Xue Yang pressuring him, stalled on the "denial" stage of grief, it is very difficult to hold steady, because Song Lan is human: he wants Xiao Xingchen back, he wants him with them, but it just. He just. How can he conscience such a thing?

Xue Yang, as I said, is totally stuck in denial. He's just not going to accept it! He was always going to die first of the three of them, obviously, his daoshi are going to cultivate to immortality and he won't and that's fine, he can live with it and just enjoy what he has while it lasts. only then Xiao Xingchen goes and dies (probably night hunting accident), how can he just do that, that's not allowed, and Song Lan won't let him fix it because Song Lan thinks it's "wrong" or whatever even though Xue Yang can see he obviously misses Xiao Xingchen too--

there are definitely hurtful words thrown around. Xue Yang almost certainly brings up how Song Lan "abandoned" Xiao Xingchen before and that would set off Song Lan's temper and probably the worst fight they've had in a long time. I don't think Xue Yang would do anything hideous about it - long habit, if nothing else, and he would be clinging to Song Lan as a tether enough to keep him from lashing out physically. but it would be pretty vicious and might lead to Xue Yang taking off (Song Lan's favorite habit of his, and in this case even more terrifying than usual, because Xue Yang isn't the only one clinging a little)

a-Qing has forged a life for herself, for what it's worth, but Xiao Xingchen is still her first friend, her older brother, the person who as good as saved her life and gave her a home, and she is very, very close to siding with Xue Yang on the whole resurrection thing and just barely holding back from it because she, too, recognizes it's not what Xiao Xingchen would want, and she has more respect for that than Xue Yang does.

Xue Yang sometimes thinks that Xiao Xingchen and Song Lan just are tragically misguided about things and don't quite understand stuff and therefore he has to step in and do it for them. sometimes he is right about this (with Xiao Xingchen and money, for instance); sometimes he is decidedly not right about this.

if/when Xue Yang eventually does have to move past the denial phase - if he doesn't sidestep Song Lan and just resurrect Xiao Xingchen anyways, though I'm pretty sure Song Lan would be fairly vigilant to keep that from happening - it's going to be a pretty ugly thing, because Xue Yang does not know how to cope with grief at all. Like most of his feelings, it's big and violent and also unfamiliar. that makes it very scary and overwhelming and uncontrollable.

so now Song Lan (and a-Qing) are trying to handle that while also handling their own grief, which is fun for everybody.

Xue Yang would definitely prefer the murder. then at least he has someone he can blame, and revenge to fall back on.

and incidentally I do think in that scenario there wouldn't be any stopping him from taking revenge, even if Song Lan were to try. and in honesty I'm not sure how hard he would try, depending on the circumstances.

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a qing!!

AHHHH HER!!!

GIVE ME A CHARACTER;

A-Qing

How I feel about this character

excuse me as i *SCREAMS INTO MY PILLOW* okay i'm good

she's just!!! OH MY GOD!!! so our first impression of her after empathy starts is that she's this lively and cute girl, but who is also foul-mouthed, bold, smart and not even sorry to take advantage of people. she will lie and play dumb and just basically be a lil menace andhonestly so valid of her, i always find it funny that she spots an almost dead man on the road and her first reaction isn't to help, but to actually try to distract XXC so he doesn't notice him either skdjhfjk (god, imagine if it had worked......)

SO THE FACT THAT AFTER XXC DIES SHE THEN devotes herself to finding some strong cultivators to fight XY and try to stop him, gets killed for it, starts haunting Yi City after death, endangering her soul by staying close to XY just so she can keep driving people away to protect them, and then finally, FINALLY realizing she's found the powerful people who can help her. she shared her memories, showed them the injustice and until the very end helped them in every way she could, even if it mean having her soul shattered

IT'S JUST..... EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING SHE DID, HOW SHE HANDLED EVERY SITUATION ABSOLUTELY KILLS ME. the scene where she had just watched xue yang kill SL and had to pretend everything was normal as they had dinner together, but she was terrified she couldn't hold back her tears anymore and started crying on the dinner table as she yelled about some made-up woman who called her ugly, and then used that as a way to talk to xxc alone? THAT SCENE LIVES IN MY MIND RENT FREE, she's so incredibly smart and brave, more than most characters in the novel even though she grew up on the streets, with no spiritual power and is one of the youngest teenage characters we have. I LOOOOVE A-QING

All the people I ship romantically with this character

ehhh i really don't have anyone. i see zizhen x a-qing sometimes which is very cute!! and i definitely think he'd be good for her, but overall i think focusing on shipping instead of looking at her relationship with XXC and XY is just doing a diservice to her character

My non-romantic OTP for this character

*POINTS AT XXC* THAT'S A GEGE

My unpopular opinion about this character

she's not talked about enough for people to even have popular/unpopular opinion on her, sadly :( i can't think of anything from the top of my head (except what i already mentioned on xxc's ask)

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

i wish she had learned a little bit of cultivation from xxc 😭 live obviously 3 years aren't enough to do much, especially if you're starting late, but a-qing would be just a little younger than MXY if she had survived... can you IMAGINE?? she could have been qing-qianbei 🥺😭💞

#none of this makes sense i'm just screaming #I LOVE THIS GIRL SOOOOO MUCH TYSM FRIEND!!! #modao #lace speaks #ask