#those words don't sound write. cancel this? idk idc

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

I keep having a day but like. every day and i think it would be nice if life was just boring for a little while 

#hey god im sorry i complained a lil too much about my life being boring #will never do so again! please and thanks return this subscription < 3 #those words don't sound write. cancel this? idk idc #today i woke up at someone else's house #did the walk of shame back and then slept for too many hours and then went to panera with my friend and then he cried at panera #and then we went back to his house and then he cried at his house and then i cried at his house and then we both just cried #for like. several hours #and now im back in my apartment and im crying again #i've been in this city for two days and i think i've spent maybe 6 hours actually at my place #i want things to go back to normal i want life to not be complicated and messy and scary #the biggest problem with love. all kinds of love. is that you care about people and then things happen to them that u can't control #and literally everyone has so much pain and suffering and it's just. u can't take on all of it #all you can really do is lighten each other's burdens momentarily #this is about like four separate things < 3 #anyways. both of those boys will get over their own issues #and more importantly my mom will get better #and no i can't bring her dad back i can't bring his mom back or his dad back #i think it's so so so fucked up how many parents die #but she's going to be okay. it's SUCH a common surgery and ya she's gonna suffer for a bit but then she'll be okay #i'm so sorry that you have to have a body! #so very sorry that u have to have a body #and also a brain that has to experience emotions that part sucsk too #also i think victoria got me sick #and i have an exam in four days i have been blowing off #studying for #and today nicholas did the *you don't get it do u i'm giving u social cues that i like u* talk that i'm getting a lil sick of having #but he was good about it. we both get what's up and also we both bonded over crying for several hours #literally alternated between oversharing crying and him pulling me into his chest and me doing the same for him #what is friendship if not that #and maybe the other boy will get over me soon and stop being mad at his roomie and maybe even still be my friend. i liked being friends