#this update is four pages btw

[cola-vampire]

my brain is braining right now

#fic update #im not gonna sleep until this is complete #this is four pages long on google docs btw

[mister-qi]

Mr. Qi Friendship and Romance Mod: 4/19 Progress Update

It's a working title, I'm trying to come up with something less wordy that still will pop up in Nexus searches.

I wanted to be able to track my progress, mainly for myself, but if you're curious, this is the state of the mod right now:

Writing:

Heart Events - the 2 heart event is fully written (with blocking directions), and the 6, 8, and 10 heart events are outlined. The 4 heart cutscene currently has me a bit stumped; I have ideas, but nothing concrete yet. I definitely now understand why Sam's 4 heart cutscene is him dropping an egg. 14 hearts is on the back-burner as a little treat to myself once I get further into things.

Generic Daily Dialogues - about 1/3 done, probably the highest priority for writing. I'm leaving his vanilla casino dialogue as the two heart dialogue, and the vanilla Walnut Room dialogue as his four heart dialogue, with a few small changes. And, since it's me, I have more marriage dialogue written than anything else...

Day-Specific Dialogues - very few written, lower priority. Hoping to have a lot of these made eventually, and I have plenty of ideas, but they aren't necessary for the core of the mod so they're on the back-burner for now.

Gift Dialogues - all 5 generic gift response dialogues are written, with an additional 22 dialogue lines for specific items/groups of items. I'm also up to around item 530 in figuring out what item corresponds to which dialogue/whether or not he likes it. Certain item groups, like cooked food, still need more lines, however. This is definitely something that should be low priority, but also something I'm really enjoying working on. Some personal favorites so far are-

[if given a fish (hated)]: "Eugh, it's all slimy..."

[if given a legendary fish (disliked)]: "If you must give me one of the rarest fish in the valley, can you at least wrap it so I don't have to touch it with my bare hands?"

And I think that's pretty funny.

Art

Portraits - 3 new portraits finished: "deep frown" "glint" and "glasses-less". I'll probably be messing with "glasses-less" for a looong while; it's first shown at a dramatic moment so it needs to look good. Blushing portraits are next on the docket.

Here's "glint" btw, with a background thrown on so I can have a custom icon. You know I gotta make him do the anime glasses thing a few times.

Sprites - no progress yet. Walk cycle is up next after I finish the blushing portraits. Did you know he doesn't have a walk cycle at all? [1.6 spoilers] in the cheated Summit cutscene where he attacks(?) you, he literally just slides at you very fast. Anyways, I may also change his map sprite a bit as well, since it was drawn to match his old portrait and doesn't actually have the same color scheme as his sprites. Note to self: is it possible to make the sparkles on his outfit prismatic?

Maps - no progress yet. The 6 heart and 10 heart cutscenes both require custom maps, with the 6 heart one being a fully custom asset. 10 heart recycles some existing assets but will still need some custom stuff done as well.

Misc Sprites - in my head, there's a dream version of the 8 heart cutscene that has so, so many unique sprites. Like an incredible amount of stuff. I think it'll kick ass, but also that sequence could be done with a few lines of text. So, for now, it's low priority. But maybe in a few months I'll put out a request for help.

Implementation

Not totally sure how to split this into sections yet, as I'm very much still in the preliminary stages so far. To say that I'm feeling overwhelmed is an understatement; documentation on the wiki swings wildly between "an asset is a file in a video game" and "this is an advanced tutorial. Read these 4 other pages first before continuing."

I've started using Ms. Coriel's NPC Creator which has been good for setting up the basic file structure, but ultimately doesn't cover some of the more complex stuff I want to do. EDIT: Turns out it's completely outdated for 1.6! Had to throw out a bit of work, but I still learned from it so it's fiiine.

I think setting up his "schedule" will be a challenge, in that I don't actually want him to have a real schedule like most NPCs. Not to pull back the curtain too much here, but I want him to "exist" in both the Casino and the Walnut Room simultaneously, which is to say, he does not exist in two places at once in the narrative, just in the code. This will change after marriage, however.

My next goal is to set up placeholder cutscenes for each of the heart events, and then to implement the generic daily dialogues once those are finished.

Final Notes

God, this will be a work in progress for a while, but I'm enjoying it! Definitely enjoying the writing more than anything else, but hey, that's how it be. I've got around 70 lines of dialogue written, a bit of art done, and I've started learning how to actually get stuff in game. I've always been more of a designer than a coder, but it's getting there!

ADDITIONALLY I've decided that if I abandon this project for more than 8 months, anyone is welcome to request my work so far and use it for their own mod. If this blog hasn't posted in a long while, feel free to send me an ask or message! I may say no, however.

Ultimately, I want this mod to exist in some fashion. While there is an existing one, I have a pretty different take on the character and I want to share it with you all! Every line of dialogue, every heart event, every little detail needs to share something interesting about a character and their world. Yet, Mr. Qi is a mysterious guy, and I think some things should be left up to player interpretation. And I think it's crucial to be able to match his tone and voice to the vanilla game, while also expanding on his characterization. It's a fun challenge to write, and I hope the finished product, uh, well I hope it gets finished mostly, but I think it'll be pretty good.

Thanks for reading all this. This is largely just a stream of consciousness for myself, but I hope it's...interesting, or something?

#MrQiFAR #mister qi #mr qi #sdv modding #rambles

[blackstarchanx3new]

Four Swords Returns Pages 348-350

Dark chill. He's just...FROZEN WITH FEAR-

Reminder btw that the last update was messed up and missing a page so you might wanna re-read that one to make sure you didn't miss anything! 😭

Here

#four swords returns #four swords adventures #four swords manga #four swords returns au #loz fsr au #four swords #loz #shadow link #dark link #fsr #fsr shadow link #loz comic #loz fan comic #loz fancomic #loz fanart #loz four swords #zelda four swords #vio #vio link #violet link

[icy-watch]

I originally wanted to tag you in my post but Tumblr is being stupid and glitchy (preventing me from getting to the post) and pissing me off so I'll do it here

Within the past two months I made a post saying

"With how polarizing a season is, Crystalized does get one thing right: Garmadon and Christogern. I took get overly attached to inanimate objects and act like the world has ended if something hapoen to it.

I've done if before and I'll do it again"

^This is what I was referring to when I said I'd tell you once you get to the ep. Garmadon freaking out and going Oni Mode when he thinks Christofern got destroyed when the Vengstone Army attacked is yes x 1000000000

There was a time when I was a kid when I thought I had brought my Pokemon Firered game to camp, but when I couldn't find it, I cried, I sulked, and I refused to do anything else for the rest of the week (this particular cartridge was my very first video game ever so it was special)

Turns out, I left it at home on my bed

So yeah, while I'm not the biggest fan of Crystalized, Garmadon loosing his shit on the Vengstone Army is one of the best scenes ever imo

(btw, as Tumblr been glitching and freaking out on you too? I've barely been able to keep up with your live blogs the past three or four days bc of it)

Oh! Ok, interesting. And yeah, understandable.

Getting attached to inanimate objects is... yeah. That's very familiar.

That had to suck for you as a kid. But maybe it was meant to be? You might have lost it at camp. Hindsight and all that.

(Tumblr has been glitching the past few days for me, too. I've had posts delay themselves for some reason and post after another 1. I do try to keep this page as updated as possible. Altho I am a day or so behind. It's best used on desktop or in a browser app than the tumblr app.)

#thanks for asking! #qua #little nightfury17

[evilratfag]

here’s all the useful/random things i’ve found on the internet in one place (i’ll also be updating this from time to time to add new stuff)

piracy:

(btw make sure to AT LEAST have a few ad blockers before u start pirating and if u can get a vpn)

nikfilecabinet — their entire account has a lot of useful shit ive just mostly used their piracy section

does the dog die — u can look up triggers that are in movies/tv shows (not directly related to piracy but though id throw it in here anyway)

books:

communist manifesto — it like 50 pages just read it

stone butch blues —

it is frequently discussed as a difficult yet essential work for LGBT communities, as it "never shies away from portraying the anti-Semitism, classism, homophobia, anti-butch animus, and trans-phobia that protagonist Jess Goldberg faced on a daily basis—but it also shows the healing power of love and political activism."

fucking trans women — (cw for lots of nudity obviously)

a zine by trans women, about the sex lives of trans women. It is an educational and instructional tool as much as it is a creative exploration of how we have sex.

all animorphs books — kids are able to morph into animals and have to save the planet or something idk i haven’t finished the first book yet

spanish for beginners — speaks for itself

an indigenous peoples history of the us —

it describes and analyzes a four-hundred-year span of complex Indigenous struggles against the colonization of the Americas

electronic furby manual — a l l h a i l f u r b y s

misc:

native languages — they have lots of reliable info on native things and links to tribal sites

scarleteen — they have articles on tons of important things relating to sex ed, including things on queer sex, stuff relating to being trans/intersex, having sex while disabled/having a disabled partner, safe sex, consent, u get the picture

mending/fixing/taking care of clothes — they also have stuff about “upgrading” clothes (remaking, resizing, etc.) (also i got this from this twt thread that has other stuff too if u wanna check it out)

breast cancer self exam patient education for post mastectomy trans patients — just in case twitter finally blows up here’s the pdf

#mostly making this so that i have a reference post to come back to but figured other might find it useful #feel free to send me anything else u think i should add #and if any of the links break pls tell me so i can try and fix them #i’ll probably redo this post later once i’ve collected more but this is good for now #piracy #pirating #free books #useful #reference post

[seraphtrevs]

hey, i hope i found the right account

i read the inevitable on ao3 and i was wondering if you’re still updating it? i absolutely don’t mean to rush you or anything, i simply fell in love with the storyline and honestly your work in general. btw you got me researching quantum mechanics and oh my god thank you for that, shit’s interesting as fuck

This is the right account! Yes, I do plan on updating - I was sick for a while and took a lot of brain foggy medicines, but I'm back! I have about half of the next chapter of The Inevitable written, so hopefully I'll finish the rest by next week.

Thanks so much for reaching out! I always feel despondent when I haven't updated because I'm sure everyone will have forgotten about it by now so it's nice to hear that people are still reading! (And I'm glad I sent you on a quantum quest lol - it is really interesting!)

Here's a little preview:

Nacho was not sure what to do with himself. The luxury was fun, but he was getting bored. He returned to the kitchen to make some lunch. When he opened the door to the pantry, it turned out not to be a pantry after all. Instead, a staircase led downward to a door.

An ominous feeling crept over him—but why? It was just a basement. He was being ridiculous.

To prove to himself that he wasn’t ridiculous, he descended the stairs to the door, which was a dark, dull red, and the paint was peeling in places. In a house that was otherwise immaculate, the disrepair stood out. He put his hand on the tarnished doorknob and turned. At first, it stuck—Nacho felt a mix of relief and disappointment. But then there was a click, and the door creaked open.

It was pitch dark inside and cold enough to give him goosebumps. Nacho felt for a light switch and found one. He sucked in a breath as he flicked it on—and then let it out in a relieved puff when he saw the contents of the room. Racks of wine stood along one wall—a wine cellar, of course. But on the other wall were several bookcases. There had been many bookshelves throughout the house—Tony was either a big reader or wanted to be seen as one. But these books were different—they were bound in leather and looked very old. Probably valuable—didn’t old books need to be kept in dark, cool places? It all made sense. He couldn’t believe he’d been scared of a basement, as if he were a little kid.

A desk sat in the corner, and on the desk was an open book on a stand, several pieces of paper, an assortment of ink wells, and an old-fashioned fountain pen. The papers were covered in practice calligraphy—must be a hobby of Tony’s. That would explain the fancy note he left. The book was opened to a page that was clearly a work in progress. On the left was an illustration of a naked man in a garden. A snake was wrapped around one arm; in his hand, he held an apple. The drawing was finished, but it was only partially colored. Was Tony an artist too?

The opposite page contained a poem written in calligraphy. It looked like something out of a medieval manuscript. He sat down so that he could read it.

Adam lay ibounden,

     Bounden in a bond;

Four thousand winter

     Thoght he not too long;

And all was for an appil,

     An appil that he tok,

As clerkes finden

     Wreten in here book.

Ne hadde the appil take ben,

     The appil taken ben,

Ne hadde never our lady

     A ben hevene quene.

Blessed be the time

     That appil take was.

Therefore we moun singen

     "Deo gracias."

As he puzzled over the meaning, his gaze drifted to another door. He hadn’t noticed it before—it was so gray it blended in with the wall.  

He approached the door and put his hand on the knob. It wouldn’t open. In all of his exploration, this was the only lock he’d encountered. What could be in there that was more valuable than jewelry, luxury vehicles, stereos, wine, and antique books? He remembered the key around Tony’s neck—what had he said? It’s the key to my heart. Something personal, maybe? Or maybe cash. Nacho hadn’t encountered any safes yet, and Tony seemed to like to keep cash on hand.

He rattled the doorknob to see if it would unstick. Not that he would steal from him, probably. He was already walking out of this deal with $11K—it would be stupid to get even greedier. But he was curious, and the rest of the house had been so open.

No luck. That was when he noticed a smell—faint but foul, like a mixture of rotten meat and fruit. The ominous feeling he’d had before returned, making the hairs on the back of his neck stand on end, but he quashed it. He wasn’t a little kid. Basements smelled weird sometimes. Maybe there was a meat freezer in there that was malfunctioning.

Still, he found himself suddenly eager to leave. He ascended the stairs and shut the door firmly behind him.

#nacho varga #my fics #asks

[corpupine]

parallels, parallels everywhere . . . 

(btw that’s referring to this page in chapter two)

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NemaTale updates bi-weekly at 10am MST. Make sure to bookmark the comic so you never miss an update! Thanks for reading! (Shoutout to @deyawahdan on tapas, whose cute kitsune girl I turned into a fox monster for this page!) Thanks for reading! <3

#undertale #undertale comic #corpupine art

[partnersincrimesuau]

Another Few Updates ☆ﾟ･:*:･｡★

Yes I am aware it's Sunday. Yes I am aware I haven't posted Chapter 2 Page 43 yet. Yes I am aware my Information Centre says "Pages posted every Friday at 8pm Central Australian Time". Yes I am aware I haven't posted a page on a Friday since, like, January.

I'm getting off track LOL

UPDATE NUMBER ONE - Where's Page 43?

I have one week left of school before a two-week holidays, and I'm SWAMPED with homework for now. For clarity; I have three assignments due on Monday, two more I finished today, and one I finished last week. I hope this clears some things up... and explains why I'm so behind on Partners In Crime.

Page 43 IS finished, and IS ready to upload. However, I am still working on Page 48; and for those who don't know, I like to always be ten pages ahead of my posting page. Therefore I SHOULD be working on Page 53. Once the holidays start and my assignments are finished, I can catch up on these pages. Some of them shouldn't be as long as others so hopefully it won't take ages to finish them.

I plan on posting Page 43 next week. So sorry for the delays, I know there's been a few this chapter. I'm not doing this on purpose.

UPDATE NUMBER TWO - A brief solution

It's currently 12:03am as I'm writing this sentence and I'm about to jump into bed, so yes I won't be posting anything after this post tonight. HOWEVER! I've decided that tomorrow, instead of posting Page 43, I'll post some concept art!!! I feel like that'll be a good placeholder for now. There are plenty of concepts for earlier pages that I plan on posting, and I might throw some early drawings of Condor in as well!!! ^^

UPDATE NUMBER THREE - Maintenance

I finally went through every "infected" page and fixed the 'next' and 'previous' links. For anyone who didn't know, there were a ton of early Chapter 2 pages that were "infected" somehow, by something I can hardly begin to explain. The "Chapter Start" links, as well as the "FAQ" and Discord links were completely untouched. They worked fine. But EVERY SINGLE 'NEXT' OR 'PREVIOUS' LINK, FOR SOME REASON, JUMPED TO THE MOST RECENT PAGE!!! There were pages from December that sent you to the page I posted eight days ago - it made NO sense.

Thankfully, I've gone back and fixed every one of them. HOPEFULLY, it won't happen again. (If it persists, PLEASE tell me. Don't hesitate to comment saying "Jinxy this page has a disease, it's doing the link thing again" - that's actually really helpful. Shoutout to the readers who did tell me btw, you guys are legends!)

UPDATE NUMBER FOUR - IT'S THE BEST MONTH OF THE YEAR!!!

IT'S JULY!!! That means... NINETEEN DAYS UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY!!! (It's on the 21st of July for those in other timezones, lolll). I'll probably be partying with my besties then so you won't find me online, but I'll probably do a little picture of myself like I did last year. Just thought I'd mention it here, haha.

Anyways I think that's about it... it's now 12:14am and I might go to bed. Or I might catch up on Miraculous Ladybug because I heard the finale for Season 5 is out...? We'll see ^^

Thanks for your patience everyone!!!! See you tomorrow ^^

#partners in crime #steven universe comic #not partners in crime #partners in crime updates #update #love u guys

[viiridiangreen]

I’ve been neglecting the shit out of my destiny page + streams and stuff... but uh, for once it’s actually a positive?? I’ve officially survived my first month of full time half-remote office job & I’m currently making SOUMP

My partner Q is away with their dad talking about a gig at said dad’s company, & next weekend he’s also taking him to get looked at by the ophtalmologist again.

Q has been unable to work or do much of anything they enjoy for about three years on account of an undx’d eye condition. They’re a photographer... among other things that benefit from being able to look at stuff without debilitating pain. Hoping the doctor is finally able to help them.

We’re uhhh also about to buy a motorbike. Which is scary but also pretty exciting.

Sooo in addition to having gone from a part-time paid intern to a legit employee with double the salary plus insurance & bonuses, I won’t be the single earner anymore & we’ll have an actual method of transportation to our name, so we can go downtown without spending 1/8 of my monthly earnings on the round trip like before.

I haven’t needed to supply my income with the rent-an-egirl site, thinking of taking it up again & returning to Twitch too but focusing on building a comfortable space & striking a sustainable rhythm, remaining mindful of my comfort rather than like,, desperately trying to make enough to eat lol. Also any earnings from that are gonna go towards treats / personal projects / actual never-before-seen savings. Like this month I did empty out my acct bc the transitional period between internship and employment was fucking wild and we also had a friend staying with us before that so expenses kinda piled up. But. Apparently I’ll start to have an actual small surplus to stash away for emergencies soon.

Which means!! I can start thinking of updating the remaining fossil-like pieces on my PC, then maybe even getting a whole new one so I can do a better quality & more secure dual-machine stream & create Content(TM) from my gameplay more easily. I wanna learn 3D modeling too, start making custom VRChat avatars or Vtubers and whatnot.

And also!!! Tattooing equipment. And like my first actual tattoos for myself (I’ve done four for other folks, have none myself, mostly bc I want big large blackwork pieces that wrap around the body instead of just sitting in a little corner of it like a sticker. not that those aren’t cute but yeah). Q can probably get their arm piece touched up (it’s been on hiatus since they got it in JANUARY 2020 LMAO) and get the spine piece they’ve thought about so much.

Maybe we can even get a Little Guy To Live Alongside Us in the next few years???? Like an actual pet (which I’ve never ever had btw even as I’m a very Bonkers Over Animals person). While being confident that we can cover the costs of a good QOL for them ?!?!?! Insane.

TL;DR Shit’s going suspiciously well and I’m already plotting my eventual return to tattooing :3c

#viitalks

[dottores]

AHHHHHHHH screamed and sobbed into my pillow when I came home to read the new chapter of Heliotropes. I fought every inner demon afterwards I’m not even gonna lie to you.

I’m the commenter from ao3 of the color purple, and I saw your response to my comment and cried even harder bro. I know it’s only been four chapters (and a segment data page!), but I’m already so attached. The ending of the new chapter hand me audibly going “no nO NOOO”. Arggggg darn you, your angsty ideas, and how well you execute them.

I’m so happy that I was right about how much Dottore has influenced her, even more than we had been originally lead to believe. However all your hints of future fights has me sweating in my seat, but excited nonetheless!! It’s interesting for me to think about how sneaky Ms. Purple must have become over the years. Being a good secret keeper and staying under the radar must be hard, and she’s definitely learned a thing or two, I’m sure.

Seeing how conflicted Ms. Purple is with her family is so interesting, especially since we already know that Dottore probably wouldn’t care for her family no matter how wonderful they are. I love him, but I fear he might take advantage of her distance from them by making it worse or manipulating the situation. She cares for them, and you can’t just stop loving someone, even if they hurt you again and again. This is something I doubt Dottore would be able to understand, since emotions aren’t something he can typically rationalize.

ALSO IM SO HLAD YOU DIDNT MAKE MS. PURPLE A COOKIE CUTTER THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! I’m so happy you’ve become invested in this fic, as I can see just how much it’s helping you explore both yourself and your talents.

When I went back to reread The Color Purple again, I realized how close Delta and Iota must be to her. On top of that, Dottore had already threatened to send Theata to work with Delta. I was thinking about how funny that was, as those three would be the most problematic for Dottore if they found his (their? Technically) soulmate first.

Also I already suspected Brighella of something bad, BUT NOW IM THOROUGHLY CONVINCED HES THE SPY. Which would be so SO bad for arlecchino since she brought him in (yikes).

All of this is making me wonder about possibilities and routes. I’m curious to find out what Ms. Purple will do to earn Dottore’s respect, because even if he does care about her as she’s his soulmate, that doesn’t change the fact that he doesn’t really want her there. The plot thickens.

NO WORRIES ABOUT THE COMMENT BTW!! I’m surprised you even responded, it really made my day <33 Your work inspires me, and I’ll never shut up about how great you are in expressing exactly what the characters are feeling or doing without losing the audience’s focus. I’ve yet to read any of your stories and feel uninterested, even on characters I don’t particularly care for. Thank you so much for your time and efforts, I promise you me and hundreds of others are always thrilled to see that you’ve updated.

Best of luck on your future works!!

STOPPPPP YOURE THE AO3 COMMENTER ????? I LITERALLY LOVE YOU SO MUCH WHAT YOUR COMMENT STRAIGHT UP MADE ME CRY SEVERAL TIMES IT WAS THE SWEETEST THING EVER. YOURE SO BELOVED TO ME, LET ME SMOOCH YOUR FOREHEAD SOBSSSS

ok hehe rest below the cut

GDJHSDHJSJDHSH i actually wasn’t going to end the chapter with that, bc i usually like leaving it at 4 scenes BUT I HAD THE IDEA AND COULDNT LET IT SLIP BY HAHAHAHHA it would be just his luck to get THAT as his word right after all that LMAOOO and yk damn well he’s gonna take it the wrong way

🤭🤭🤭 the sneakiness and having to hide it is something else that it’s gonna be explored more in chapter 5 & 6. i just planned chapter 5 and i’m gonna start writing it friday i’m rlly excited for it, i think it’s the chapter i’m most excited for thus far.

the conflict between her and dottore when it comes to family is gonna be a BIG ONE, djsjdjjsjd i actually literally changed the whole original fic at chapter 2 to center around this conflict. without too much spoilers, i got the idea from the tik tok audio that goes “if i betray you, i betray myself. but if i betray them, i betray my country. my country is very dear to me.” “dearer than i?” “no, not dearer than you” HAHAHHAHA i’m rlly excited to get to that point too

DELTA AND IOTA WERE LITERALLY A TOWN OR TWO OVER FROM HER BEFORE SHE LEFT TO LIVE IN THE CITY. when iota finds out, he cries LMAO. if they had found her first, it would be the end of all things for dottore LMAOO he would be miserable 💀💀💀 the only thing that would’ve made it worse if gamma was there too. he hasn’t been introduced in the fic yet.

SOBS ILYSM 🥹🥹🥹🥹 that rlly might’ve been the sweetest thing anyone’s said to me i’m quite literally about to cry, i wish i could give you the biggest hug. i love asks and comments, theyve deadass been what’s pulled me out of writers block like dozens of times. i think i told you in the ao3 comment but ur comment there saved my ass like three times HAHAH. i showed my bf and i was like “if i ever start complaining about being stuck, send me this” and he DID and it worked like a charm every time LMAO. i always try to respond but sometimes it just takes me half an eternity because i’m swamped with work and drained SOBS. so i’m sorry if it ever feels like i’m not responding bc i promise i try to get to it at a decent time but i just get so overwhelmed and then i crash for a few days.

#— asks #series: heliotropes

[the-aesthetician-writes]

September Writing Review

(Also a short update.)

Hey all! I've been gone for a while, I know. I've been trying to keep active in the midst of finding work and life being well... life. So the short and quick version of this is, I'm back-ish!

I have decided to really buckle down and have a try at building up my writing habits. With a couple of months filled with some horrendous experiences I won't detail here, I have realized what I want to do more than anything is writing. I have been attempting the process for the passed couple of weeks and the results have been more than I had expected.

Last month's goal is more or less having a decent amount of work done on all WIPs. And while that can seem overwhelming. I think the way I had set this up this time could hold results. So prior to my recent experiment, I've been writing with the goal of finishing one thing with no deadline (probably not the best method now that I'm thinking about it.) So what I decided to do now is to have a deadline along with tentative goals by the end of the year(NaNoWriMo) and some taking place during the first half of the new year (AroWriMo).

Some of these goals range from solid word counts to more abstract concepts in writing but for transparency (and accountability, really) I'll share them below.

Poco-A-Poco (Webcomic)

Poco-A-Poco is a web comic I set out to make at the beginning of the pandemic. Hoping to create something while in lockdown. It has been abandoned for a couple of years but I have decided to work on it to help build my discipline.

The goal for the last two weeks was to create a total of around 30 "pages" for the web comic. Thinking pages for web comics are often subjective and since I have a passion for graphic design. I felt it would at least work as a warm up when working on it.

The goal after September would be to work on a "page" daily for Poco-A-Poco. Just to build a rhythm and if I manage the time, some day update the comic with what I have worked on.

By the end of 2023, the total should amount to around 122 "pages".

By April 2024, the total should amount to around 243 "pages".

@bybyebitheway

Bi The Way is my ocean punk baby. Also started in 2020 and has had the unfortunate ratio of one chapter released per year it's been alive. With my new motivation with these goals, I decided BTW needed a concrete goal to hit. This was not only to build discipline, but also to build stamina in my writing sprints. I will be trying the Pomodo Method when writing BTW chapters along with the modified Kitchen Timer Method.

The goal of these past few weeks was to write around 4 chapters. I really attempted to give my all these passed few weeks, but haven't managed to work on Bi The Way. However, knowing I had planned beyond these two weeks made me feel better about the initial failure.

This October, I plan on playing catch up on BTW and other WIPs I fell behind on. By the end of this month, I plan on having written 5 chapters along with the four chapters that carry over last month. I feel like the carry over factor will help in building that stamina in terms of writing. After all, the only reason I had set 30 pages in two weeks for Poco-A-Poco was to build in routine. I'll talk more about that later on, but for now my goal with BTW is to have written 4/5 chapters each month. Each chapter having a minimum word count of 1,500 words. BTW will have a hiatus in November for NaNoWriMo.

By the end of the year, I would like to have around 14 chapters.

By the end of April 2024, I would like to have around 30 chapters.

@tobeaspected

To Be Aspectec is another product of the pandemic and also my first dive into AroWriMo. Having failed to achieve what I originally wanted for AroWriMo multiple years in a row, I plan to finish at least one character interaction just in time for next year's AroWriMo.

The goal for the last two weeks was to have two "scenes" written for TBA. With the goal being more subjective and similar to my goal with Poco-A-Poco pages, I opted to have a definition set for what counted as a scene (for my overthinking sanity's sake). A scene would mean any amount of writing needed before the player makes a choice. (Oh I forgot to mention TBA is an interactive fiction piece, didn't I?) Besides the quantity, anything else was up to me.

By the end of the year, I would like to have 6 "scenes" written for TBA.

By the end of February 2024, I would like to finish one "volume" of TBA. A volume would be a total of two characters and all their interactions, including endings.

By the end of April 2024, I would like to have 10 "scenes" written.

@thehuntersacethetic

The Hunter's Ace-Thetic is another interactive fiction project that started during the pandemic. It has been through many different mediums as a way to experiment and learn about different media, but I will focus on ChoiceScript for now.

My goal during the past two weeks was to write out one "episode". Again, with the goal being to build stamina, I added THAT work load into the two weeks as well. More so, the focus these past two weeks was to organize the "episode" structure, with the real priority being on an outline for it.

By the end of the year, I would like to have 4 episodes of THAT.

By the end of April 2024, I would like to have 8 Episodes of THAT.

NaNoWriMo 2023 Project (OMS)

For the month of November, I plan to take on NaNoWriMo and work on one of my abandoned attempts. I hope to write to full 60,000 words by the end of Novemember. If anything, I hope I learn how to be a better writer. The name of the book will be: "Oh My, Starsigns!"

"Oh My Starsigns!" is planned to be a sci-fi/ crime drama(?) taking place in the future where the space police have technology that can take over a suspect's body. Along with the police themselves, suspects also posses different abilities. The story will begin when a prison ship crash lands on a distant planet. Really trying hard to not give anything away just yet.

By the end of 2023, I would like to have Oh My, Starsigns! finished.

By the end of April 2024, I have no further plans for OMS other than maybe self publishing on Amazon or somewhere else if I'm able to find a better alternative.

What I've Written So Far (End of September, 2023):

Poco-A-Poco: 20/30 Pages

Bi The Way: 0/4 Chapters, 0/6k Words

To Be Aspected: 0/2 Scenes

The Hunter's Ace-thetic: 0/1 Episodes

What I Plan to Write (October 2023):

Poco-A-Poco: 40/30 Pages

Bi The Way: 8/4 Chapters, 12k/6k Words

To Be Aspected: 4/2 Scenes

The Hunter's Ace-thetic: 2/1 Episodes

Reflection:

I think these past two months have been a great experiment in knowing what to do different for the next couple of weeks. Hope to update you a month from now with good results.

#the aesthetician writes #updates #bi the way #btwUpdate #thatUpdate #the hunter's acethetic #to be aspected #tbaUpdate #writeblr

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wild one pt thirteen | stranger things ; g.emerson

|| taglist, babes + req rules / fandoms&characters + send ?s + masterlist ||

chapters ;

one + twelve can be found by clicking. the masterlist is here, it needs to be updated... again.

summary ;

-- what goes around comes around. pt 1 of 2, btw.

aka, the one where the cheerleader and the drummer fall in L O V E... all while dealing with senior year, bullies, the usual.

warnings ;

vaguest makeout/hickies, kinda angsty but sweet makeup, lots of internalized angst and doubts left over from pt twelve, fluff that'll probably rot your teeth. {pt 1 warnings}, fem reader with female parts, from birth.

taglist ;

- these are the only people on my taglist. If you'd like to be added, please click the link at the top of the page.

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@sparkletash

@liberhoe

The alarm has gone off at least three times but he’s ignored it. When he finally can’t anymore and his youngest sister runs in and jumps on his back to kiss him all over the face, Gareth sits up in bed, tossing the little girl down gently to tickle her. The alarm starts up again and he reaches out to silence it with a glare. 

Everything about the day feels completely wrong already and he misses you so much.

But he’s telling himself to give you space, to see what happens. He’s got himself convinced that somehow, despite any and all evidence presented otherwise, there’s just no possible way he’s really that lucky and you really do feel the same way about him, let alone, at the same depth. He’s also telling himself that those girls were right, it’s an uneven match and he’s not good enough so maybe it’s just better this way.

“You gotta get up!”

His little sister is grinning and he makes himself smile back. “I am.”

“Uh-uh, you’re still in bed. Aren’t you gonna go see ____?”

The question kills him. But after a cough to hide the fact that like a lovesick sap, he did choke up a little, he shakes his head. “Not today. She’s kinda busy today.”

His little sister is staring at him in confusion, her head tilted to one side, curls sticking up everywhere. “Oh. Okay. But she called ya earlier.”

It has him torn between hope and panic, it really does.

“Who answered the phone, little bit?” he asks, raising a hand to drag it through messy curls sticking up all over. His youngest sister smiles. “Mama did! They talked for a little bit.”

,, if it was bad, she’d say it to your face.”

,, not necessarily. She hates hurting people.”

As the mental debate continued, Gareth got himself up and dressed even though school was the last thing on his mind today. It wasn’t as if they were doing anything, the stupid carnival would be going on all day and just the thought of it all had him rolling his eyes at his reflection in the mirror. He gets into the shower to take his shower when the water’s hot enough.

And while he’s showering, he decides to call you when he gets out. Just get whatever is going to happen over with already, rip off the band-aid.

—-

The alarm has gone off at least four times and if you didn’t have a penchant for throwing hands if not allowed to wake up on your own, Max would’ve come in and dragged you out of bed at least twice by now. But she can’t stand the alarm’s noise, so she tiptoes into your bedroom and turns off the alarm. And then she stops to think about it. If she doesn’t wake you up now, you won’t have time to do what you were telling her you were going to when you were talking in her room last night after she came back from the water tower.

“This is for your own good, sparky.” she mumbles to herself as she starts raising the blinds so sunlight floods the room. Your immediate response to this is to place the pillow over your head with your arms thrown over it, so Max decides to go for the blanket.

You grumble but you’re sitting up. Your hair is a mess, your eyes are still puffy and red from the night before -which is totally your fault because you could’ve called him like you started to at least a hundred times but you were scared and you didn’t know what to say at the time, and your head is pounding because of the crying and all the caffeine you consumed while sitting up on the water tower to stew in your own pessimistic thoughts at the time.

“It’s about time you wake up.”

You grumble as you slip out of bed. Max notices that while you went to bed wearing one of your old Harley Davidson shirts the night before because it’s what you were wearing when you came into her room, you changed at some point and you’re wearing Gareth’s shirt again.

Susan calls you both into the kitchen to eat breakfast and after you make a blind grab for the first pair of jeans, the first bra -a new one, black lace, and the first shirt that’s not wrinkled and isn’t dirty that you know of, you put on your clothes and wander down into the kitchen.

“How’s your back today, sweetie?” Susan asks. You lift the shirt to show her and she sucks her teeth, grimacing. “Did you bruise it again?”

“In my defense, Emma’s the one who told me to picture that tackle dummy Wes rigged up for us out in the field as Caroline. I just wasn’t expecting it to have recoil? Thing knocked me halfway across the damn field.” you grimace as you graze a finger against the bruised skin but then you’re shrugging it off. Susan looks from you to Max. “You two don’t break anything out there today. I mean it, okay?”

“Yes ma’am.”

“Okay, mom.”

After you scarf down your breakfast, it sets in for you. Gareth hasn’t shown up. And he didn’t call you last night either. This could mean so many different things and true to form, you’re only considering the bad ones. Maybe Emma and Eddie were wrong. Maybe when the other girls started to hit on him lately, he realized he didn’t have to settle for you. The thought has you scowling and you sink down into the driver seat of your car gingerly, careful not to lean too much on that bruise on your back. Max comes bolting out of the trailer like she was launched from a rocket, nearly dropping her skateboard as she reaches the passenger door. “You can drop me at Will and El’s, right? It’s on the way.”

“Yeah.”

You enjoy having her around and giving her rides, but today, you’re just a little glad she wants to ride with her own friends because you need to think. You need time to plan what you’re going to say and with silence in the car, hopefully you can figure it out between your house and his. You back out of the driveway and take off down the dirt and gravel road through the trailer park and almost the second you’re driving away, the phone inside the trailer rings.

Susan answers the phone when it rings. Smiling when she hears Gareth on the other end of the line.

“Hey is ___ there?”

“She just left. We missed you this morning, kid.”

Gareth rubs his face. “I overslept.”

—-

You’re turning down his street and you’re still no closer to pulling yourself together. You’re also now berating yourself because this shouldn’t feel like a life or death situation, it’s either going to go one way or another and you know it, and yet somehow… it does.

His truck is still sitting in the driveway of his parents house and you pull in behind it, taking several shaky breaths. You let yourself think too much on the way over and now, no thanks to it, your mascara smudged and you’re fully aware that it looks a little pathetic so when you park the car, you try to clean the smudges off. It takes a few seconds but you finally convince yourself to kill the engine and get out of your car and the short distance to his front door your heart is beating so damn hard it feels like it’ll explode inside your chest.

“If it's the end, it’s not the end of the world.” you’ve repeated it a thousand times on the way over, but every time you say it, it feels a little worse and that sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach is so much worse now that you’re standing at his door with shaking hands imagining all the worst case scenarios while somehow simultaneously kicking yourself because this is just a high school relationship, it can’t be that serious.

Oh but it is. You really love him and you know it as well as you know your own name. It’s not just some phase or something you’ll grow out of at some point and deep down, even if you don’t really acknowledge it, you know it’s true.

You finally make yourself knock and ring the doorbell and you lean against the wall next to the front door to wait, taking a few deep breaths. Going back over what you want to say, trying to parse out the things that are too much and too soon or the things that seem too needy or anything and while you’re doing this, you’re totally unaware that the door has been opened by his oldest younger sister.

“You want me to go get Gareth?” her appearance behind you startles you and you nod nervously. “Please?”

Inside the house, his mother spots you and grins, waving.

“Gareth!”

He’s half ready, having just made himself get out of the shower and throw on a pair of jeans. And he figures that it’s just his mom calling him down to breakfast, so he doesn’t bother with a shirt when he comes down the stairs because he’s not expecting you to be sitting in the living room.

He starts to just rush back up the stairs to hurry and put on a shirt because he really doesn’t want to make it any easier for you to realize you can do a thousand times better, but before he gets the chance, his youngest sister, who happens to be sitting in your lap so she can play with your orange lightning bolt earring, she spots him and gets your attention.

And when you turn around, all you can do is stare. Gape. You’re practically drooling right there in the middle of his parents living room. Your eyes fix on a bead of water as it drips down from his damp curls and rolls down his nose. Settles on his lip. This leads to you, swallowing down the lump in your throat and biting your bottom lip. And stepping closer to him before you even realize it. You’re still distracted but the distraction might be a good thing, because the distraction and the way your eyes fix on your hand against his chest gives you at least a second or two to breathe and think of a way to start saying what you came over to say to him.

But the fact that you’re staring at him the way you are -intently and dazed, this prompts just the tiniest sliver of hope to bloom. You’re dragging your fingertip over his bare chest and he can’t fucking think straight, let alone get words out to ask you if you’ll just say or do what you came over to say or do so that it’s over with one way or the other. 

But it’s when you quietly mumble, “Fuck.” under your breath in this breathy little whisper that has his body and face on fire.  You’re flustered and it’s visible. And if this were any other time, he’d tease you, he’d ask if you knew how it felt now, because watching you react to him this way makes him think about all the times you bumped into him at the pool. Or watching you jump in the bounce house at some block party at the park you went to together not so long ago, whenever you jumped and your crop top would bounce up and the way your tits bounced with every single move you made.

“Just–” he starts to tell you to say whatever it is you want to say but you raise your hand and press your finger against his lips. “Shhh. This is.. I dunno how to say this without sounding crazy or clingy or desperate, I-I…” you trail off, your hand settling back against his chest because that’s probably the only thing that’s keeping you even a little grounded right now.

“Wanna go up there? To talk?” Gareth nods to the stairs and his room. You nod and follow him up the stairs and into his room. He sits down on the edge of his bed and you immediately start pacing the floor beside it, rambling. At first it’s incoherent, and at least ninety percent of it is you, arguing with yourself about whatever you want to say. He starts to realize this is not you breaking up with him around the time you throw up your hands in frustration and mumble something to the effect of everything you want to say is too much and probably way too soon.

Logically, if you were breaking up with him, there wouldn’t have been a reason to say that to yourself. Or so he’s hoping. 

He’s watching you intently, and more than a time or two he tries to say something but you hush him.

“Okay, fuck it. Here I go, I guess.” you say  this louder, a hand dragging through your hair. Sinking down to settle on his thigh as you stare at him. “Baby, I-” you go quiet. More frustrated grumbling. And then, it all comes pouring out in a long and breathy ramble and before you can stop yourself, you’re crying again like you told yourself a thousand times you weren’t going to do. “You know this is your shirt, right? I-I..” you take a shaky breath, “I spilled food on mine that first time I babysat your sisters and I saw it sitting in the laundry room so I.. This is stupid.” you laugh a second or two and you make yourself look at him. “I grabbed it and threw it on because it smelled like you and I just… It was like being close to you? I was…” you pause again, rubbing the bridge of your nose as you try to think of the best choice of words to use. “I kept telling myself I’d give it back but I… didn’t wanna. Because it’s like you’re always with me, like.. Even when you’re not.”

Gareth’s brow raises because he’s not sure at all what his shirt has anything to do with any of this and he starts to ask, but you speak up again just as he’s about to and you tell him, “I don’t want anybody else. I really, really don’t. And I know it sounds insane, I know this is probably way too much to say, I just.. Me with you has nothing to do with pity or anything they said. I want you. I love you. If I didn’t, I wouldn’t be with you.” you laugh quietly at yourself and shake your head, “This is gonna be too much, I’m gonna apologize right now, but like..” you’re staring down at the way you’re currently straddling his thigh. 

He’s trying to focus on what you’re saying but he can feel how warm you are right now as you sit on his thigh the way you are and he can see straight through the shirt you’ve thrown on inside out in your rush to get dressed and he’s fucked for focus to an extent, because the bra you’re wearing is sheer black lace. “Your shirt’s on inside out.” he mumbles, dazed. Fixing his eyes on you for a second or two as he continues to attempt focusing on what you’re trying to take the long way around telling him and not… You. Sitting so close. Driving him crazy.

“Goddamn it.” you palm your face and shake your head. Then you take another long and deep breath so you can continue what you were trying to say. “Baby, I love you and when I say that… Like it’s not just me saying it. I really, really, really love you. As in, I have been crazy about you for so long now that I just…” you’re fidgeting with the sleeves of his flannel. “It used to scare me? And I-I..” you have to stop talking for a second, take a few more deep breaths. 

You squirm a little in the way you’re balanced against him and he sucks in a deep breath, one of his hands curling against the dark colored comforter on his bed. “I know you deserve better and you can do so much better than me and like… I know I’m lucky? You’re amazing, you’re smart, you’re so fucking handsome and you’re the sweetest man I’ve ever known?” you go quiet. “They were wrong, alright? I.. Look, if you’re tired of me, that’s fine. I’ll deal with that but like.. If you’re freaking out about any of what you heard, please don’t, baby?” you’re finally able to make yourself look him in the eyes and you take his face in your hands as you lean in a little. Carefully. Giving him enough space that he can easily extract himself or pull away if he chooses too. Dragging the pads of your fingers over his cheeks as you stare at him and immediately start to overthink everything.

The thing is, the space you’re giving him is too much space and space is the absolute last thing he wants right now. As he tries to wrap his head around everything you’ve just said and realizes that you’re crying and from the closer look he has right now, it looks like now isn’t the first time you’ve cried either, he’s quiet. Because his mind is absolutely blown right now, this is not what he imagined happening. Everything he had himself convinced was about to happen when he walked down the stairs and saw you sitting in his living room has not only not happened, but what has happened is like one of his wildest dreams come to life. 

His hands settle on your hips so he can pull you closer because he feels you starting to tense up and you act as if you’re going to pull yourself off his thigh and stand and this is the last thing he wants. 

“Yeah, this was too much.” you mumble quietly, laughing at yourself. “I shouldn’t have… I could’ve kept that to myself.” but when you try to make yourself stand so you can leave before you make an even bigger mess out of this than you already have, his hands squeeze your hips to keep you balanced on his thigh and then he pulls you closer. Close enough that if there was a way for two people to fuse together, it would happen right now with both of you. 

He raises a hand and grips your jaw, pulling your gaze up to meet his. “Hey..” he mutters quietly. “ ‘ts okay, baby. It wasn’t, alright? I…” he goes to take a breath and it comes out shaky, “I feel the same way.” he laughs a second or so, the laughter dying away because all he can do is stare at you, his hands running up and down your sides. “I mean it, alright? I don’t want anybody else either and thinkin I was gonna lose you last night was driving me crazy, princess. I shouldn’t have let it get in my head the way I did, I just..” he trails off, his forehead pressed against yours now and he’s trying to think of how to say what he wants to say next while using your tits as a distraction to stare at.

“I know you could have anybody you want but..” he swears quietly, “Fuck.” and then he takes another deep breath or two admitting quietly, “I want you all to myself. I don’t want anybody else either, you gotta like.. You have to know that, right?” as he makes himself stop and look you in the eyes, “I’m the lucky one, princess.” His hands are wandering again and you bite back a whine, squirm a little against his leg before you manage to stop yourself. He sucks in a very sharp breath, capturing both your hands in his as you melt against him even more. 

“Agree to disagree.” you laugh as you nuzzle into his neck because this entire conversation has both drained you and made you feel lightweight. Your lips graze his skin and he barely bites back a groan, giving your ass a squeeze as he glances at you. You’ve raised a hand and you’re doing it again, dragging your fingers over his chest. Thinking. Thinking that leads you to blurt out quietly, “I’m yours, baby. I mean that.” and you go quiet. Your breath on his neck has him squeezing you again, his breath catching in his throat. “Mine.” he repeats, letting it sink in for him.

You both go quiet, just sitting there. Touching each other softly, your body melted against his.

“I really don’t want to move.” you break the silence and you pout about it. 

“If we don’t, we’re going to be late.” Gareth points out, grumbling about it a little. “I guess the upside is there’s not any actual classes going on today.”

“Mhm.” you mutter, dragging your finger over his chest. When he shivers and grips the comforter, you stare up at him a second or two, dazed all over again. He finally reaches out for his Hellfire shirt and the flannel vest, feeling his face burn hot when you pout at him about it just a little. He’s pulled on his shirt and the flannel and you reluctantly slip off of his lap. 

You’re about to walk out of his bedroom together but he stops you both. Your back meets the closed bedroom door and one of his hands settles on your hip, the other one pinning your hands above your head as he leans down and into you slightly, his lips crash against yours.

Your mouth falls open and you whimper into the kiss as his tongue slips into your mouth, massaging against your own. His forehead against your forehead after the kiss is broken and you’re both trying to catch your breath. He’s touching you all over now, he can’t stop himself from doing it because every time he does you make the cutest little sounds and he can’t get enough of that, especially not after the afternoon and night he caused himself to have yesterday. When his lips stray from yours and start to dance down the side of your neck, latching on carefully, you bite back a whine and do the same, leaving just the smallest mark behind where neck meets shoulder. His hands squeeze your sides and he groans against your skin, applying just a little more pressure and this makes you dig your fingers into his shoulders just slightly.

“I really don’t want to leave.” he pulls away a little, frowning because the second he does it, he wants to get closer all  over again.

“Me either.” you admit quietly. Leaning against him with your arms around his neck. You’re trying to pull yourself together, he’s gone and completely flustered you, gotten you all worked up and if you had a choice you’d choose to stay here with him all day. Where it's only the two of you. No outside bullshit.

You both finally make your way down the stairs and out to your car. As he pulls your car out into the street, one hand leaves the wheel and settles on your thigh as you reach for the dial on the radio to attempt tuning a station. Once you find the one you both usually listen to on the way to school, you lean against his side, your head on his shoulder and he gives your thigh just the slightest squeeze.

“We’re… we’re okay, right?” you ask quietly.

“We are, baby.” Gareth answers, grabbing hold of your hand and raising it to press his lips to the back of it.

#gareth emerson #gareth the great #gareth emerson imagine #gareth emerson fanfiction #gareth emerson x fem!reader

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Four Swords Returns pages 91-93

Oh what a hopeless situation it felt like for our poor hero.

Also the thing I held back mentioning: FSR Link is mostly mute.

Don't worry we're almost out of the depressing pages btw.

Got about 2 more updates of it. Don't worry about the rapid fire pages btw I've just needed to color them. X'D I've been taking plenty of breaks.

#four swords adventures #four swords manga #four swords #four swords returns #loz fancomic #LOZ FSR #loz fsa #loz fs #loz fsr au #four swords returns au #LOZ comic #loz fanart

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Soooooooooooooo......

Can you share some upcoming stories you have in mind?

Not that I am impatient or pressuring you, I'm just curious how your WIP list is looking. (I kinda imagine your WIP list as 10 pages long 😂)

Also curious how you decided on what to write, what to finish, what to start. Is it just what you feel like at the moment? Do you have deadlines for yourself? Do you write every day?

As you can see, very curious.

Hi! This is going to be a long answer because there isn't many things I love more than getting the chance to word vomit about fic ideas so Buckle Up.

First things first-- I decide how to write based on my commission list (fully funded gets written first) and then occasionally I get The Itch to write a specific idea and have to write it immediately, which is how both Risk and Rest happened-- they weren't commissioned, I just couldn't get the idea out of my head. With commissions I try very hard to set deadlines for myself to give my readers a fairly quick turnaround but this year with my health issues I am very far behind and have apologized approximately 80,000 times for not being able to stick to my usual update schedule.

And YES I write every single day. This last week (Thanksgiving to this most recent Friday) I was hunting so I wasn't writing those days but other than that, yes I write every single day. I use Google Docs for everything that way even if I'm at work or at the doctors office I can open a doc and write down ideas or flesh out outlines or sometimes just straight up write chapters on my phone. I have a healthy dose of ADHD so I can't even watch a movie without needing to do something else at the same time, so I've gotten in the habit of keeping my laptop open while a movie plays so even if I only manage a few pages in a fic, I still can write every day.

OKAY FIC IDEAS.

(BTW I have a collective 50+ pages worth of Steddie ideas/plot points, another 50+ pages worth of BillySteve ideas/plot points and another probably 30 pages of Marvel and/or pairing blind ideas/plot points all stored on my google docs. It's... out of control.)

Upcoming Steddie fics I'm super excited about:

Omega!Steddie-- post season four just softy soft Omegas falling in love with each other. Literally tooth rottingly sweet.

Ghost!Eddie-- will be spooky and angsty AF, Got some really amazing scenes in here I'm stoked to write.

Vamp!Eddie-- will include a gratuitous and definitely unnecessary amount of biting because I've come to accept my biting kink and now will be imposing it on all yall.

Prince and the Pickpocket-- it's giving Oliver Twist and 1800s London and Fagan-esque/artful dodger esque Eddie and rich boy Steve getting mixed up with Eddie's little gang of pickpockets, I am OBSESSED with this idea.

Upcoming BillySteve Fics:

Flayed!Billy Soulmate AU-- this one will, and I mean this with all seriousness, mcfuck you up. I've cried just an astonishing amount of tears just jotting down ideas for this. The angst. The trauma. The soulbonding. The recovery. The falling in love. It's gonna be too much in all the best (worst) ways.

The one where Neil Dies-- I don't have a title for this yet, but Neil is gonna die, guarantee it. This one is Omegaverse as well ft. Alpha! Billy who thinks Steve is an Alpha and cannot handle the idea of Steve being an Omega.

Mob!Boss Billy-- this one came from the TS Song "gorgeous" and sort of snowballed if I'm being honest. Twists and turns and under the desk blowjobs cos why not.

Alpha!BillySteve-- for all the Omega!Steddie is softy soft mcsofty face, this one is just straight up SAVAGE

UD!Billy-- not a whole lot fleshed out for this one but it's my take on the probably already over used trope of "steve goes through watergate and billy is alive on the other side" and its going to be FUN.

I also have probably 15 short stories for each pairing, another several long fic ideas that aren't fleshed out enough to talk about yet and about a billion "wouldn't it be funny if..." blurbs jotted down. I'm basically exploding with ideas.

The flayed!Billy soulmate one will be the first fic I write after I finish up Rest (this month) Codependent (January) and MAMC (we've got.... seventeen more chapters?). It isn't funded yet but I've got a couple people lined up to commission it so that one will be first and then probably the Omega steddie one cos I literally can't stop thinking about that one.

I feel like I have about two years until Season Five drops and shatters my dramatic little heart so I gotta cram all my best ideas in to the next 24 months!!!!

[cmdonovann]

Accomplishments! Quantum Break fansite in progress!

(originally posted June 8th, 2023; crossposted from dreamwidth.)

Well, I removed Tumblr from my phone to prevent me from wasting so much time there, which means I now have nowhere to easily and quickly post my inane thoughts (at least not without feeling like I'm bothering people on Discord or in direct messages, though perhaps that's something I should work on). You know what that means! It means I'm probably going to try posting them here instead. Thing I want to post about: I'm making a Quantum Break fansite! I've been wanting to do this for ages, and actually started putting together a couple of little graphics for it during the "Quantum Break Appreciation Month" event I ran on Tumblr in April, but I hadn't made much progress on the project since then... until the past few days, anyway, when I started brainstorming what I actually want to do with the site, how I want to lay it out, and so on. Yesterday I put together some CSS for the site, and today I did The Hard Part: I set up a git/GitHub repo for the site, and got the "deploy to neocities" script working for it, so I can easily and quickly make updates to the site in VSCode, then push from there to GitHub to neocities all at once, like I do with my personal site. Was this an absolute pain to set up? Yes! Somehow, it took me even longer to do it a second time than it did the first! But I did it myself, with a lot of encouragement and rubber duck-ing from a few very helpful people in the Fandom Coders chat. Can't say I'm not proud of myself for that. I would not have had the skill or confidence a year ago to do something like this, especially not all the mucking about I did in the terminal trying to set up the git repo in the first place. Anyway, I am, to put it mildly, extremely fucking excited to continue working on this site. I've got big plans: first order of business is to get an archive set up of all the Quantum Break fanfic I can get my hands on (and get permission from the authors for). After that, I'm probably going to do the same for fanart and image edits like photosets and gifsets from Tumblr, since the CSS page styling for those will likely be similar (though I expect to run into some attribution problems with older Tumblr posts, what with so many deactivated or moved blogs post-2018). Once that's sorted out, I'm considering looking into the best way to archive fanvids, but honestly that might be put off for a while longer, as video hosting and video players are way out of my skill level currently. Maybe I'll import some of my Quantum Break playlists from my personal site, too? Oh yeah, and at some point down the line, I want to make a searchable wiki with transcripts of all the in-game narrative objects. But "searchable" is probably going to be a stumbling point there, and transcribing takes ages, so this will be last priority, I think. Wow, that's... a lot, actually! Damn! This is gonna take a while. Not that I mind spending a couple of years poking at a project, obviously. *Gestures at my longfic that took four years to finish...* I've been neck deep in this fandom for over seven years, what's another five or ten? XP

btw, since it's fairly easy to post images on tumblr (compared to dreamwidth, anyway), here's a screenshot of the section that's currently in progress: the fic archive index!

(ignore my filler text... i usually use karkalicious as my lorem ipsum, so at least i'm not committing THAT particular crime here.)

i'm still futzing around a little with the styling (negative margin my beloathed) but it's coming along pretty well! i've already got a branch where i've started... you know, actually adding fic to the site, but i won't merge that into the main and add a link to the front page until the style problems have been fixed (or at least, fixed enough to be easily navigable on mobile, which... is not the case right now, lolrip).

#quantum break #coding #fansite #dreamwidth #cmdonovann #well that was surprisingly easy! i didn't expect copypaste to preserve the formatting... #also added some commentary #because it's been a couple days since the dreamwidth post #and i've been working on the site since then lol

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Allow myself to get a little RETROspective over FusionFall for a bit...

You may have noticed my Tumblr page now looks like a Windows 7 computer operating system. You like it? Along with that, I also updated my "find me elsewhere" list of virtual places to include FusionFall's second revival, OpenFusion (soon to include Retrobution, the revival of FusionFall Retro). In addition to that, I made a page just for my Creature Feature, which you can find in the pinned post or by clicking here. . After making that page for my four Creature Features, I began thinking back to my time in the Future...both times. What do I mean by that? Well, lemme first take you back: late September of 2018... (A VERY long and unfocused post past this point.)

. FusionFall had came back to life/into my life with the beta release of Retro, housing the first four levels and the entire Future Zone. I remember the days and nights leading up to the 29th (which was actually the 27th) being spent with the local players hunting Bad Max to pass the time until the Past was released to the public (or you could say until the time machine was finished). I can't remember if I found Don Doom while Retro was out, but I did in OpenFusion since the Future Zone was empty of players. . Eventually, one afternoon, I logged onto to the Universe Team's website (what used to be fusionfallretro.com, I think) to find that a glorious update on the front page. I don't remember what it said exactly, but you can assume that the Past Zone ergo the entire rest of the game was finished. With this release, Przzyfied (one of the bois on the team), whom I was subscribed to and looked forward to his FuFa (FusionFall) content eagerly, released a Smash Ultimate-type video showcasing all the characters in the game much like the source material did to announce this update.

This, of course, was around when the EVERYONE WAS HERE tagline was hyped to the max. I saw this as a second chance to finish what I started about a decade before. As I said in a rant addressing the DCMA takedown, I came a few levels close of crossing this game off my bucket list before it shutdown, but luckily with OpenFusion, I have that chance again. Third time's the charm. . So, yeah, the Past Zone was open, TIME TO GO! (this mission was removed in Retro btw) I bid the characters farewell and Samurai Jack'd my ass outta 'ere i have not watched samurai jack anyway fast forward past the shutdown to OpenFusion where I restarted my journey to save the Cartoon Network Universe. . This is where my Creature Feature showcase started. I also began an external and complex log of every mission, Boss Monster and Thromnambular locations, along with other details and I'd like to share it with other Notepad Purists-- I mean everyone when I finish it. As you may know, I've only done four monsters; those found in the Future Zone. I didn't spend as much time here as I did in 2018 and I was a bit less thoughtful with my decision to leave but it felt just as sorrowful having to go. I kept playing until level 12 where I just stopped. . The reason I haven't posted any more than the four I got is because I just hadn't found any more interesting monsters to showcase in the Past. I couldn't find any thing to like. However, be ready for the Oil Ogres when I get there-- I will post about them, I will gush about their greatness. . NOW. "Present day" post-Majora's Mask again after eight years. Seriously, I haven't played that game since I was in metaphorical diapers. I used a guide to get through that game my very first time (masks included), but the last time--the most recent time--I think it was nearing the end of Spring, early Summer, anyways I 100%'d the game ALL. BY. MY. SELF (save for the one heart piece from the treasure chest game won by being a goron, i don't know how i would've figured this out in-game, what? do i talk to someone in clock town AS a goron to get this information idk maybe i should try that next time in eight years). But in this last playthrough, I had what may have been my greatest yet most melancholy memory with this game. . Alright, lemme paint this picture: uhh let's do 4chan. >be me >like 90% done with mm >stone tower is left along with other things

BAH forget it. Yes, I was very close to finishing this game. I had the Stone Tower Temple (and its 15 stray fairies) left to do along with the Anju and Kafei three-day-time sidequest, maybe a few masks, too, and the remaining Heart Pieces (excluding the Moon, those were easy enough to obtain). By the way, I fucked up the Bombchu aiming needed to get to the one kid wearing Twinmold's mask, so the first time beating Majora was without the Fierce Deity Mask, but just a week or two ago, I went back and absolutely shat on Majora because I got the FD mask after simply

getting good.

Maybe it was meant to be; to do the final boss as base Link, then the bonus is a rematch using the sheer and raw power of the Fierce Deity Mask. . Sorry tangent, yeah I was close to the end of the game. I began the three day cycle anew. In this timeline, before heading to the Stone Tower Temple (STT, from here on), I had a rematch with the prior dungeon bosses, Odalwa, Goht, and Gyorg, before moving on to the penultimate frontier. Snowhead took me more than the three days (inverted Song of Time activated, too) to figure out the earlier puzzle in the central room, so I had to reset time once to complete the whole dungeon. Surprisingly, STT took me only two and 3/4 days (inverted time activated also), or until midnight of the Final Day to complete. I can't remember what I was more stuck on, the puzzles or the fairies. . I had to listen to the greatest dungeon song for about 3 hours. . But man, upon seeing that cutscene of the four giants' spirits(?) being released, that just felt "it" for me. I had nothing else I wanted to/could do (time-specific sidequests) since, again, I was nearly 100% done with the game, so I returned to Clock Town for a drink: a nice alcoholic Chateau Romani. After a nice swig of three-day-magic, I just roamed the fields with Epona until I had pulled out my Ocarina at the last second to reset time to the Dawn of the First Day. I nearly let the world end, and it was such an indescribable, unhappy feeling. You know "My Friend and the Setting Sun"? yeah well I was "My Horse and the Falling Moon".

So that brings me back to FusionFall. With nothing left to do but wait til the world ends (well you dont actually see the world end, but it's implied that it does after you travel back in time), it left me with that feeling of, I guess, "I don't wanna leave this place but I have to because this game has an important story ahead". . Or maybe it just has something to do with me and my idea of timelines. I'd have to leave something I cannot return to, and I find it difficult to leave things I grown attached to. Yeah, it's a videogame at the end of the day, but it's more to me. The characters I met, the things I've done and the things I've seen will be gone when I leave and no one else will remember. Makes me sad, really. . sorry Where was I going with this? I forgot.

#fusionfall #fusionfall universe #cartoon network #majoras mask