#this time standing aside doesnt mean surrender it means hope it means a bright future

[gaykingslayer]

I wish Halt was bitter and angry about his stolen birthright. It feels all a bit too convenient that, actually, he never cared about becoming king/ wasn’t something he wanted anyway.

Young Halt heartbroken and furious he had to leave his home and now having to find a place for himself in the world knowing it will never be the life he wanted. Years pass and he goes from resenting Ferris to resenting himself for not fighting for his crown, for letting his people down. Of course he’s still content with his life as a ranger, but sometimes it only makes his want for a crown grow stronger. He sees so much injustice around him and even tough he is in a position to punish or eradicate some of it, he will never be powerful enough to get to the root of it. He can’t make new laws or erase old ones. But he could have, if only he stayed, if only he just fought back.

I am just going to let myself be delusional for one second here and say that perhaps you can see some of this back in the actual book canon. He doesn’t really care about disrespecting or antagonising nobles or others of high rank…Perhaps because he knows that in another life he would out rank all of them. Yes, yes, rangers are second only to the king but they aren’t always viewed that way.

Being raised with the idea that one day you will be the most powerful person in your country, that this what you were born for, your sole purpose. And then its all ripped away from you, and you let it slip through your fingers because you didn’t have the heart to become the monter that was hunting you.

And imagine how much of this anger could be amplified to the max when he was in Hybernia? It could’ve been a nice moment between Will and Halt in which Halt expresses some of his own guilt and shame and anger with all the suffering he (indirectly) caused. But no, Halt doesn’t want the crown and is fine actually.

#rangers apprentice #ranger's apprentice #halt o'carrick #mine #my text #bitter halt i see you #shouldve been king #would make the decision to let saun be king even more powerful because it would finally give halt the chance to do something good for his #people #this time standing aside doesnt mean surrender it means hope it means a bright future #mum will is being emo about halt again!!!