Three little dark brown spots set
in a splash of milky light brown
On the palm of my left hand,
I showed to my mother, curious.
She took one look and said: "Dirt."
I felt my heart crushed to powder.
My sister, filled with self-loathing
About her appearance, envious
Of how I never seemed to hate mine.
"I love my big, poofy, wavy hair!"
"You love frizz for some reason."
She lamented her dark eyes,
Told her I always liked mine,
They reminded me of black tea—
A deep, reddish-brown; tea-coloured.
She looked closely at my eyes; "Dirt."
I felt my heart crushed to powder.
I never stopped loving my hair or my eyes!
I just loved them less: sad, hateful things.
Returning after prayer in medical school,
Lashes still too wet for my glasses,
I stepped into my sunny lecture room,
My late friend (one of only two) cried:
"You have light brown eyes! Your glasses
Hide them–destroy them." Like a poem!
Once, I sat on my bed, in the sunlight.
Mama insisted on open windows,
I like morning light, but not mid-day heat.
So I always closed them at noon—
I sat in the sun, mama stood in the door
She hurriedly called my dad over to see.
"Look, in the sun, her hair looks golden!"
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