#this just in: cinna gave her thasdorah back and alleria is eternally grateful

[warwaged-archive]

"Can you tell me what happened to my aunt. Nera doesn't want to know, and Bella doesn't care, but she's the only family we have left. Why did she leave? -- If you don't know, that's okay too. Our mother just never mentioned her so I guess I'm just curious and she spends a lot of time with you... -- Or at least, when we see her she's with you so I'm just assuming -- are you dating? No that's not the question that's important, the only thing is more important -- "

REQUESTED ASKS // always accepting ic asks.

Why did she leave?

It is the question that sticks with her, in spite of what follows. Alleria knows only too well what happened when Willa left; there are no clear memories of the events, though she knows them all by heart --- her choice spoken amidst the haze everything seemed to be since learning of family’s death, Willa’s departure amidst the muted yet positive reception of Sylvanas being named Ranger General instead. 

The details are all there, more filled by her own mind than seen in truth. She had not seen Willa depart, had not seen her reaction at all; then and there, it had been reaffirming denial she had once spoken to her mother, making it concrete with choice she had long known would be best as well. The Ranger General had, then, always been a Windrunner; and it had been Lireesa’s will that it remain so. Her mother had meant for her to assume the mantle, but she could not; and then there was none to choose but her sister, best fit for the position than Alleria herself would ever have been.

It mattered little that she had come to regret that choice; it mattered even less that given chance, she would have accepted it if only it spared Sylvanas --- both of what she suffered and of what she had now become.

Alleria makes no judgment of Willa or Neleena for their choices; knows not what would be had she been in their place. True though it may be she too had left home and family, only learning of sister’s death when it was much too late, it was still not the same; never would be, for what there was between Willa and her sister or herself, Sylvanas and Vereesa, each of such bonds was unique --- then as well as now. 

Knows not what she would have done, learning of nieces she never knew and who knew nothing of her, but imagines she too would keep her distance, if it had been her sister’s choice to erase her from their lives (thinks perhaps not, though, not if they sought her or needed her in any way). 

What she does know is that it isn’t her story to tell, regardless of her part in it. There is more sympathy than ill will on Alleria’s stance (for the painful family history the young hunter seeks to learn; for her wish to know more of her aunt; for who she is and that in previous interaction Cinna Sunrunner had seen fit to return Thas’dorah to her of her own volition, and Alleria was more grateful for it than she would ever be capable to express in words); still, choice is nevertheless not hers, and it feels wrong to do anything but defer to Willa on it.

“I do not think it is my place to tell you of it.” Direct in denial, though reply lacks any edge that may have been offered was it meant to be sharp. “At most I can tell her that you asked and ask Willa to speak with you, but I cannot guarantee you she would.”

“Unfortunately, the least important question is the only one I can answer --- so if it matters at all, the answer to that is yes.”

#sunrunnerrs #* muse: alleria windrunner / VOID TOUCHED. #* in character: alleria windrunner / A SUN NO LONGER. #* verse 004: alleria windrunner / SHE WAS NOT THE SAME WHEN SHE RETURNED‚ NOTHING WAS THE SAME AS WHEN SHE LEFT. #this just in: cinna gave her thasdorah back and alleria is eternally grateful #kasjnfkajsndkjf #not but for real she kinda likes cinna #* general: answered / DARK WINGS DARK WORDS.