#this is deeply embarrassing but what is tumblr if not the space to retroactively document my near-miss with a breakdown

[babygirlgiles]

just finished a 30k draft of a fic about haymitch fucking abernathy. can someone please euthanize me?

#euthanasia? wow that's just like in my haymitch fic when *a government sniper takes me out* #it's about cycles of violence it's about baring witness it's about memory #it's about the line between victimization and complicity being blurred it's about funeral rites #it's about the carceral state of psychiatric care in the US it's about learned apathy #it's about houses because it's always about houses with me for fucks sake #and. most importantly. it's about geese <3 #i feel like that 'sorry i havent been posted about bts i started mood stabilizers' meme bc I wrote this in like ? 2 weeks? #And after about 25k words i realized that I'd accidentally fucked up my meds for like at least a week? #maybe more? and was like. oh. well that explains that. but by that point i was already so deep i figured i might as well finish it #and here we are #let this story be a warning to you all that if you fuck up the medication that treats your ptsd #next thing u know u WILL be writing fucked up fanfiction about a middle aged alcoholic #this is deeply embarrassing but what is tumblr if not the space to retroactively document my near-miss with a breakdown