#this is also the first time ive ever ackolwegded myself as being chronically ill

[san--jose--sharpedos]

i don't talk abt the fact that i have a chronic illness often, kidney disease for those curious, i had a transplant about 19 years ago, and one or two scares about 6 years ago, I've been perfectly healthy, but shit with it does fucking suck.

there's so much shit that i would love to do that i just straight up can't bc its too dangerous to do bc of anti-rejection meds like getting tattoos, then there's shit with taking meds that give me hair loss in my early 20s that I'm insanely insecure about, it's not much and just the back of my head, but I just had to buy fucking Minoxidil much to my dismay and embarrassment. And like yeah, it could be worse, I'm perfectly healthy and you wouldn't know i have it save for a handful of levels on my bloodwork, but it does suck sometimes.

Hell even things that i enjoy like going to shows I gotta be careful abt bc of where my kidney is located, bc fun fact, it's not protected by my ribs bc it's closer to the stomach area. it sucks and there's really nowhere for me to actually talk about these things bc no one in my life gets it. People will always say "at least you have your heath" yeah but i cant life the life I want to live and do the things i love to do often. I cant just jump into a pit if i want to bc i could damage my kidney bc there's no damn bones protecting it

#this is also the first time ive ever ackolwegded myself as being chronically ill