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Find U again- Mark Ronson

This song is unique to my relationship, because my ex always said we’d work out through whatever we were going through. This song also says that if a lover comes back, they’d try it again. Camilla also talks about going to therapy and I went to therapy so 🤗

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=-xKM3mGt2pE

Take on me- Aha! (Acoustic)

^ This song is extremely unique to me and my ex because well, we watched Deadpool 2 together. I’m not certain if any of you recall that movie, but it was very moving. There was a scene in particular, where Deadpool’s -(dead)- girlfriend says “Kiss me Like you’ll miss me.” And so when we were going to be a full week away from each other, I said this to him while sitting on his lap, and we had one of the best kisses I ever had. If not the best.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=yjmp8CoZ

History- one direction

^ Although this song is about Zayn leaving the band, it’s not just unique to that situation. Lyrics saying, “thought we were going strong, I thought we were holding on.” Which really hits home for me. And as a verse says, “We could’ve been the greatest thing that the world has ever seen.” In the end, one direction adds some hope to their lyrics, “So don’t let it go, we could live forever.”

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=i2e3bAdPGAo

The man- Ed Sheeran

^ This one, it really gets the water works going. Not only does this song highlight the Denial part of grieving a relationship, it also envisions how hard a break up can be, with a life on the road. In this song, he says “It was never fine to lose you.” While also saying “I don’t love you baby, I don’t need you baby.” Contradicting himself, as we all do when we go through a break up. He also says “Our love just lost the will to live.” This song speaks about how hard it was for Ed Sheehan, and how one must remain preoccupied during heart break. “I’ve given up my days off.” The strongest part of this song, for me at least, is when Ed Sheeran says “I guess I lied in the Hook, cause I still love you and I need you by my side if I could.” Highlighting how hardest part of a breakup is not only loosing the person you loved, but their affection and support. Not to mention he sings, “If my career and music didn’t exist, in six years,yeah you’d probably be my wife with a kid.” Destroying the future. In the end, Ed Sheeran gives us hope, “Eventually I’ll be fine, I know it was never meant to be, either way I guess I’m not prepared but I’ll say this, these things happen for a reason and you can’t change them.” And so, one of the best break-up songs for me to cope with emotions.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=S4asq3SicN0

Goodbyes- Post Malone ft Young Thug

^ This song was released the exact same day my heart got broken. I’ve loved post Malone since the beginning, but this song was SO PARTICULAR to my relationship, it was AMAZING. I always asked my Ex to change small things, rather than praising his big things. “She need something to change.” Was so particular to our relationship, and that stunned me. After a few days, I began singing “ I want you out of my head, I want you out of my bedroom.” It was the hardest thing to let go of him not being with me because, he was always! And the sex we had was just amazing, and I mean that in an emotional way. The connection was there...so I’m being haunted by the memories of us in my bedroom. “We both acting insane, but too stubborn to change.” Stubbornness, one of the top reasons why my relationship ended. I was so stubborn on my boyfriend changing, that I never really thought about changing myself and my attitude. “Say you needed this heart and you got it, turns out that it wasn’t what you wanted.” WOW. I even have a screenshot of my ex saying, “ I just don’t want a relationship right now.” And honestly, I felt that lyric more than anything. “We wouldn’t let go and we lost it.” This song really highlights almost every SINGLE point in my break-up. Both Brian and I are horrible! HORRIBLE At good byes. :(

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=1lQDPOfMUIA

Right my Wrongs - Bryson Tiller

^ This song, is hard to explain. I’m not sure how to relate this to my relationship. I guess I feel like, he should dedicate this song to me? I don’t know. I wish my ex would’ve tried to help us out, I wish maybe he would say “I’ve got to right my wrongs.” Or maybe “You’ve been down from the go, recognition is what you want and that’s something that I should know.” And I hope that, he comes back still you know? Like duh, I know he won’t but it still sucks cause I’m sucker for his love. “You don’t need nobody else and you’re putting all of this on me.” I feel like, Brian broke up with me because of all the shit he got in his plate and I was the main reason he had so much shit going on. I asked him for a lot of things and I just wasn’t considerate. I just I could also Right my Wrongs. I wish he knew that I now I was selfish.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=7a66clRobKI

I Fall Apart - Post Malone

^ unsurpsingly we have another post Malone song! In this song, I feel like this such a strong song. It is so hard for me to listen to this song without feeling somehow guilty, yet at the same time, hurt. I feel like I always made Brian feel like he wasn’t good ENOUGH. When he was way more than enough! But he left me with a broken heart. And I hope we can do this again, you know...”Surprised when you caught me off guard” my ex broke up with me and honestly it hit me like train even know I felt it coming ¿ I don’t knooooow! Anyways, ”you said it, we’d be together” haha, lies. But yes, this break-up song is very very bueno.

http://www.metrolyrics.com/big-sean-owe-me-big-sean-ml-video-oce.html

Big Sean - Owe Me

^ “all the shit you told me I believed” ah yes, I believed you loved me and I believed we’d be together for years to come. How idiotic of me! Although this song is about cheating, it pertains to break-ups none the less. “Left and now you’re back in my life, it’s going to take more than that to set it right though.” As the one of the other side of the coin, I’d definitely take a second chance and, do it all right. The only time I ever see my ex now is either when he’s active on Instagram or when he posts on his car page. In which I’m hoping I get his attention to see this blog buuut I know it won’t so we’re just going to write for Haydee :) anywho! This song conveys how hard it is to have a relationship that goes from great to bad. And in all honesty, he says “It took us over being over to see all I ever did for you.” And that’s true, I didn’t realize all the amazing things Brian did until, of course, it was too late. “Let’s not ever disrespect what I meant to you.” Is something that I really hope sticks with me. I meant a lot to him and he meant a lot to me too. I won’t ever disrespect the love and place he had in my life, as long as he doesn’t disrespect what I meant and what I did for him. “I’m just trying to let the past pass ain’t no future in that yeah.” Let’s not forget that if we stray in the past, we’ll never be able to move on. For me, the strongest part of this song, if Brian and I ever got back together (I know we’re not, but i guess a part of me wants to ¿) “honestly I had to take the time to let my ego go, realized that that held us back and back’s not where we need to go. This don’t replace what you did to me, this don’t replace what I did to you. Sometimes it ain’t about what did or didn’t do, it’s about what we getting through.” Ah, the lovely life of me. I hope that some day I am able to get another chance with Brian, let my ego go, be more mindful of his time and just do this all over again but do it right! ButnI know it won’t happen, so all I can do now is learn from this relationship and take in everything I learned, from the bad to the good.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dfnCAmr569k

Taylor Swift, Ed Shehaan, Future - End Game

^This song is a very good pop song, not going to lie. But this song is kinda a stinger! I used to think that Brian and I would be each other’s end game, his A-team, and first string. I also thought of this lyrics so much while we were dating, “I don’t want to be, just another ex love (you don’t want to see) I don’t want to miss you, like the other girls do.” It’s a harsh reality in which we face life and become aware of the crude reality that people don’t really love you. My ex totally just used me to lose his virginity tbh 🙄. I did appreciate the love though.

These songs have been able help me through my break up :)

I’ve been feeling much better with the support of my friends and family, which is awesome.

I still dream about him every night, which lead to me waking up at 3am with high anxiety, and elevated heart rate. But that’s okay, it’s healthy to be letting go, even if it’s slowly.

I’ll give you another list of good break-up songs soon 8) have a wonderful Saturday 🥰