#thinking about self awareness is just a big giant rabbit hole that just kills you.

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the paradox of self-awareness 😵‍💫

#rubi rambles ⋆｡𖦹 °✩ #like holy shit. #fernando pessoa was NOT fucking around #became hyperfixated on his philosophy for a little bit yesterday #the book of disquiet 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 #i want to read it so bad. #the fact that he like predicted it’s fate IN the book #jesus. #thinking about self awareness is just a big giant rabbit hole that just kills you. #and how it’s literally impossible to communicate and understand one’s internal experience #or how he believed that there was no point in achieving anything #because the reality we have created in our heads is just as true as the last dream we had #holy shit i really can’t think about this too hard or my brain will explode #it’s all just so crazy to me to think about i guess #like his entire life philosophy was circled around that #and there’s also no doubt in my brain that his childhood had something to do with it #okay #sorry i am BABBLING #BYEEEE