#they werent TRYING to be like on her level like clara they understood very well how the dynamic worked

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i think the villa diodati speech probably had a big effect on how yaz approached the doctor in flux and after

#not necessarily that it /changed/ how she approached her but like. 13 revealed a Lot abt how she thought abt the dynamic #like the fam were already like......lower down the ranking right? they already let her take the lead they already followed her orders #they werent TRYING to be like on her level like clara they understood very well how the dynamic worked #it was just the doctor that was holding onto the pretense #and i think they knew that but they probably didnt know Why exactly #but villa diodati revealed like a lot of sort of ingrained beliefs #suddenly it makes a lot of sense why shes keeping this hierarchy even if they dont know the details theyre all intuitive enough to get it #and that recontextualises the pretense too. it recontextualises the pretense in that like #okay so what she Says and what she Does keep not matching up. and what she Does is now-evidently trauma informed #so what she Says must be - well not Must be but with the rest of the context they have - what she would Like to be true #it's not they all know it's not but she really wants that to be true #i think that really informed how yaz approached the doctor afterward and maybe paradoxically helped them become way more of a team in flux #the doctor is still in charge but if yaz approaches her with the understanding that she needs to be in charge #then that creates the safety needed for the doctor to let yaz in a little bit #and i think thats also why yaz didnt push in sea devils - i mean lots of reasons obvs but #'i want to but i cant' is like. yaz has Seen that. yaz has seen what that looks like she understands what that means. very lived in #she has lived in the doctor's 'i want to but i cant' #idk am i making sense #i think that speech was a revelation and actually kinda helpful. after she got over the shock and hurt of it